It’s been 8-yrs since the death of my spouse. I had a 4-yr relationship with a man, but never considered him anything more than a friend, which I ended recently. Since my husband’s death, I never thought I was capable of love again. Then, another aggressive, fun loving, dominate man walked into my life. I asked him for help and at the end of the night, he gave me the most tender kiss I ever felt. It was love at 1st sight for me. Since that point, we were together frequently over the 4-months.
Sex was wonderful especially at my age. However, he found faults in everything I do. I am not the typical feminine person, more like tomboy due to having to do chores myself for so many yrs. No one to lean on. So I believe he sees me too much like a guy. He tells me I have control issues, yet he is the one who has to be doing the asking, pleasing, deciding, giving, etc. Anytime I suggest something, he says “no”.
I want him as a boyfriend, but he says he can’t offer more than a friendship. A best friend type relationship. I finally ended it, because I thought this is what he wanted with all his “no” responses, and his huge desire for alone time. My insecurities stop me from being just a friend. I need reassurance of his affection. I need to know he loves me as much as I love him.
So my question is: Would you have accepted a friendship only, from this man? Or insisted on a boyfriend relationship? I wonder if I did the right thing? It sure does hurt and I miss him tremendously. My new sensations for affection and touch is overwhelming me. Any advice?