Have you ever contemplated suicide?

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I have but never seriously.
And I dont think it is anything to be ashamed of. To question the value of our life. Existential angst? Yeah cool language like this might give it undeserved legitimacy.
Should I change my username to Debbie Downer ? 😂
 

No I never have ... but you are right, it is nothing to be ashamed of if one has, or if one did, it is nothing shameful to leave behind.

When one is done, they're done....The reasons are theirs & theirs alone.
 
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And part of me does admire the person who just gets on with life. No questons about lifes meaning. just humbly accepts their situation without complaint.
 

low self esteem is a big contributing factor.
though of course escaping pain , real or imagined, is perhaps the main reason for feeling suicidal.
It becomes an option when othet solutions to our problems seem out of reach .
Im not promoting suicide here by the way. In my view it is healthy to talk openly about it. So we avoid it.
 
An idealistic personality is another contributor. Disappointment that life doesnt turn out perfect. Pragmatists are perhaps less likely to?
 
Yes, and put in a couple of serious attempts, miracle I am still here. This is the norm with early onset long term CPTSD. Most of us don’t make it out of our teens. For us, the reason behind suicidality is simple, human beings are not wired to exist with the memories we carry, or the level of anguish that comes with prolonged and severe trauma. Many of us never had a childhood, or an adolescence, just horror. It is possible to build a loving and productive life as an adult, but relapse is all but inevitable.
 
Lara said:
Im sorry Shalimar and I'm proud of you for making the best of your life despite what you've dealt with. You are strong and brave.
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Thank you so much, Lara. Most of the time, I embrace gratitude for the ability to still be here. Also, using those gifts which came out of prolonged suffering as an offering of hope to others stuck in the pit, well, that is an ongoing miracle. Service saved, and continues to save me, I have been gifted with more awareness, empathy, and compassion than I would have thought possible. I am humbled, and often full of joy. I know what love is.💕
 
People who have had little or no trauma in their lives can still feel suicidal. I am just one example of that.
The way we think can contribute.
I believe genetics does play a part too. I am prone to oversensitivity and idealism.
 
hypochondriac said:
People who have had little or no trauma in their lives can still feel suicidal. I am just one example of that.
The way we think can contribute.
I believe genetics does play a part too. I am prone to oversensitivity and idealism.
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Absolutely. For example, it is estimated that 20% of the population is extremely sensitive. They feel things very deeply, are prone to burn out because they are so vulnerable to negativity, noise, anything intense. Should they also have a genetic predisposition to depression, suicidality increases accordingly.
 
I've contemplated it more times than I can ever possibly remember. OK this is going to sound kind of weird, but having the option of deliberately ending my agony has itself been a means of coping with day after day of unrelenting unpleasantness.....I'd tell myself "....if I can't take any more, I can always make the final exit, but not yet, I can still get through the night and then tomorrow." Well I'm still here and things are a lot less desperate. Contentment is a glimmer on the horizon and things aren't really that bad anymore. There's more to look forward to than there is to want to escape from. If that makes any sense.
 
Shalimar said:
Absolutely. For example, it is estimated that 20% of the population is extremely sensitive. They feel things very deeply, are prone to burn out because they are so vulnerable to negativity, noise, anything intense. Should they also have a genetic predisposition to depression, suicidality increases accordingly.
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so that's why my career went down the plug hole! :)
 
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Well I'm still here and things are a lot less desperate.
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That's why suicide watch counsellors make a contract with the suicidal. "if you can just try and hang on until the morning. You might feel a whole lot different about your life then. "
The thing is we cant really trust our mind, our thoughts, when we are under stress. We have to wait until we have a calmer mindset.
 
Fmdog44......Good for you. I hope your life is so great, your health holds and you are otherwise so lucky that you never feel what we lesser folks are confronted with.
 
hypochondriac said:
low self esteem is a big contributing factor.
though of course escaping pain , real or imagined, is perhaps the main reason for feeling suicidal.
It becomes an option when othet solutions to our problems seem out of reach .
Im not promoting suicide here by the way. In my view it is healthy to talk openly about it. So we avoid it.
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I did some research on suicide after Robin Williams. I was expecting to read about money problems, love life not going well, depression, etc. as motivating factors. But the main motivating factor in most suicides is illness. And that makes the most sense to me.
 

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