Ditzy Blonde

I was born and raised in the Newark, Delaware area. I suppose you could say I have never left. I met my future husband through a friend of mine who happened to be her older brother. At first while I was only 16 years old and he was 20. My parents were not too thrilled about this. We stayed together and once he graduated college which was the same time I graduated high school we decided to move into an apartment together. Strike two, as my parents did not like that idea much at all either but I had just turned 18 so I did it anyway. We kept on dating and eventually got engaged and then married when I turned 21. We lived happily and brought a beautiful daughter into the world who is 24 years old now. 3 years ago however I lost my husband to a sudden heart attack at the age 54. I was 51 at the time. Throughout my life I was only a housewife and a mother. I know how to take care of my husband and daughter and the house. I never had a job or knew nothing of the finances or bills our future or anything like that. Around the same time I also lost my dad. So it was really hard. In the 3 years I have really struggled trying to understand the financial part of things. I have had to get my first ever job as a maid at a hotel and even though it doesn't sound like much it keeps the roof over my head. My daughter who at this moment still lives at home helps as well. My daughter and my mom have even suggested I start dating again. It has been just over 3 years and they both tell me that I still have a lot to give a man and a lot of life to live. It is something that just every time I think about it I struggle with.