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All this China Fireworks getting blown up, and I have to pay more taxes next year! ... :coffee: ...
Of course they should cost $100's more per bang. Get em out o here!

It's just impossible to believe all the double standards!
 
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Y'all know the deal. Once again, I fell asleep before I could post about yesterday. I practiced piano for about 2 hours. I'm very pleased with myself. I experimented with some track additions for two of HS#3's songs, as well as playing mine that I haven't touched in a couple of years. I was happy that my brain and fingers "remembered" what to play, so I was up to speed in no time. 🎹🎶:D Later on, I went to HS#3's studio about 45 minutes before the show. My son was already there helping him with more engineering tips and the mix of one of the songs. We're pleased with how things are coming along. HS#3 did a great job with the broadcast, as usual.

Today, if I can find a time period that rain isn't forecast for the earlier part of the day, I will go to the supermarket. I intend to do some cleaning and I need to sort laundry. I also need to do some financial stuff, including balancing my checkbooks.
 
I am very depressed. Today I was supposed to get together with my family; take AccessARide at 10am to go to son and then we all were to go upstate to my Dil's parents for Father's day.

I'm too exhausted to take a shower and get dressed and take Accessaride. I just have no energy. I've been up for a few hours now but feel too tired to get ready.

I'm sad I'm not going. I'll be alone, again, today when I could be with family but I have no energy at all. Being with the in laws is always a strain for me; we have nothing in common and nothing to talk about and that always makes me nervous.

It will be a sad day for me. I'm thinking "go jump in shower, get ready" but I can't.

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I'm so tired. I'm so very tired. I'm overwhelmed and can't lift myself up.
 
The weather can't make it's mind up... warm but only semi sunny...a little breezy....


I was supposed to go to a steam rally today, but its out in the wilds and I was going to do a recce on Friday to see the lay of the land and where they were going to put parking because it's situated deep in the country lanes ..so leaving it until the day is where madness lies, to park.... and I forgot on friday...to do it...

Oh well, there's something on next weekend, hopefully I'll go then,,,


Just had lunch..1/2 a cheese scone, a couple of slices of brie, and some seedless grapes..

have a good Sunday everybody... ☀️ :love:
 
Pepper said:
I am very depressed. Today I was supposed to get together with my family; take AccessARide at 10am to go to son and then we all were to go upstate to my Dil's parents for Father's day.

I'm too exhausted to take a shower and get dressed and take Accessaride. I just have no energy. I've been up for a few hours now but feel too tired to get ready.

I'm sad I'm not going. I'll be alone, again, today when I could be with family but I have no energy at all. Being with the in laws is always a strain for me; we have nothing in common and nothing to talk about and that always makes me nervous.

It will be a sad day for me. I'm thinking "go jump in shower, get ready" but I can't.

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I'm so tired. I'm so very tired. I'm overwhelmed and can't lift myself up.
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Pepper, is it too late to take the shower, get dressed and go? You can do it, and you'll feel better if you do. Figure out something to talk about with the in-laws. I always ask people where they grew up, what their childhood was like, what music did they listen to when they were young. You need to see your son and grandson.

I'm a wreck and shouldn't be telling anyone what to do, but I think I'm right on this.
 
Pepper said:
I am very depressed. Today I was supposed to get together with my family; take AccessARide at 10am to go to son and then we all were to go upstate to my Dil's parents for Father's day.

I'm too exhausted to take a shower and get dressed and take Accessaride. I just have no energy. I've been up for a few hours now but feel too tired to get ready.

I'm sad I'm not going. I'll be alone, again, today when I could be with family but I have no energy at all. Being with the in laws is always a strain for me; we have nothing in common and nothing to talk about and that always makes me nervous.

It will be a sad day for me. I'm thinking "go jump in shower, get ready" but I can't.

eta
I'm so tired. I'm so very tired. I'm overwhelmed and can't lift myself up.
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listen you're causing this to yourself..you don't like the in-laws, you've got yourself stressed thinking ahead of how you have to be , and act with them, and how they'll be with you.. and the whole day will be an act.. and you'll stress yourself seeing their interaction with your son and g/son.. and wondering if they're judging you. and so on... and what you've done is caused yourself more stress by NOT going...

You should have got yourself ready... put your best face on... for one afternoon... and let your son know that he and his son, come first in your life regardlesss....


Sorry if that sounds harsh... it's not meant to.. it's meant for you to realise what's happening.. that much of this is self inflicted.
 
Thank you @Irishdude but I only have two hours left to do everything which includes testing my blood, taking over 10 medications and eat and meet AccessARide. It's too much, I need about four hours for that, not two. I've run out of time and I feel exhausted in body and soul. It's too much, everything is just too much; I'm too tired to fight; I'm too lonely to fight; I want to give up.

You are right on this, but I just can't anymore. I'm a loser. I've lost.
 
Morning all, my early walk at 6:50 temp was 68,sun peaking out of clouds as I walked around the building once before breakfast
This morning ,close friend, Marcia is picking me and neighbor, Bill at 10am going to our 10:30 church service
Afterwards, I've invited Marcia& hubby, Dave for brunch at noon{ made reservation last night} in honor of Father's Day, Bill will be joining us
The rest of my day,read local paper, weekly phone call with my brother, take afternoon stroll
 
Birds are up…and so am I. It was wicked hot yesterday…about 109, and today probably the same. Makes the bird water dish very desirable. Not much planned today…perhaps a walk and some honey do’s. Pepper…what you have is called clinical depression. I wish some Dr would take note and help you. It is scary.
 
Hi folks, almost afte3rnoon here!!!! Been awake since 4am again, but thats about normal these days...it is still hot and humid 80Fdeg and 79% humidity....sleep was so-so, times
I got up for nebulyzer, other times because of noise...that dam
noise comes from inside my head, and i can't always recognize
that so I get up to see what the commotion is!!!! too bad that
there is not a pill for that....have a great day folks!!! :):love::devilish:
 
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I was expecting to stay home yesterday because of rain. But guess what? The rain missed us!!! So instead of staying home, I had fun with friends at the rink. I really needed some down time!
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It was supposed to rain today, too, but....wait! What? The storms broke apart and half went to the north of me, and half to the South!! WOW! It's cloudy, but at least it's dry!

The car dealer called Friday evening....our new car was delivered. We will go to get it on tomorrow. There was a high chance of all day rain tomorrow, but now "they" said that they were just kidding! It might rain a bit (if at all), but the chances are going down. Just what the heck is going on?!! Why is Ma Nature suddenly in such a good mood?!!

Today's project will be to empty out our current car and sort out what we actually need to have with us when we get the new one.
 
Ended in an argument with my son. Now everyone feels bad, and of course it's always all my fault. This is when it really hurts that his father is dead. There's no one ever in my corner.

Having very difficult time with everything. I'm overwhelmed. I feel like I'm drowning. Being alone at this stage of life really is very bad (for me)
 
Pepper said:
Ended in an argument with my son. Now everyone feels bad, and of course it's always all my fault. This is when it really hurts that his father is dead. There's no one ever in my corner.

Having very difficult time with everything. I'm overwhelmed. I feel like I'm drowning. Being alone at this stage of life really is very bad (for me)
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You have got to see the doctor..another one if your primary isn't recognising your state of mind.... this can't go on...one way or another it has to be fixed you can't live your life like this...
 
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You have got to see the doctor..another one if your primary isn't recognising your state of mind.... this can't go on...one way or another it has to be fixed you can't live your life like this...
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I was doing fine on Risperidone. Better than fine. Then, violent, constant shaking began to occur. I had to stop taking it. I've been depressed ever since I stopped taking it. Looks like I can't do psych meds which help me as it adds to the shaking. I'm in a pickle.
 
Pepper said:
Ended in an argument with my son. Now everyone feels bad, and of course it's always all my fault. This is when it really hurts that his father is dead. There's no one ever in my corner.

Having very difficult time with everything. I'm overwhelmed. I feel like I'm drowning. Being alone at this stage of life really is very bad (for me)
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I can relate, Pepper. It isn't your fault. I also have depression and zero energy with new health concerns. Just be kind to yourself and get through the day. Could a social worker help? I have no idea but hope some help is forthcoming.
 
@Pepper, join a PD support group. You’ll find people who know what you’re experiencing. There’re support groups for family too. Usually the local groups wind down for the summer. Being NYC, you may have things going continually.

If it’s sunny, get out for a walk. Read in your favourite park.
 
Pepper said:
I was doing fine on Risperidone. Better than fine. Then, violent, constant shaking began to occur. I had to stop taking it. I've been depressed ever since I stopped taking it. Looks like I can't do psych meds which help me as it adds to the shaking. I'm in a pickle.
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there has to be an alternative medication... there has to be....
 
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Well it's 7.30pm it's been a glorious sunny last 3 hours compared to the greyish start to the day...

I bagged up 2 bags full of things to donate to the charity...

I've done the laundry and and I'm just about to go and put it all in the dryer...

For dinner I had a portion of the meal I cooked yesterday.. Swedish meatballs.. beef & red wine gray with red onions and a medley of mushrooms..with broccoli.. and there is Still, another portion left, so I'll freeze that.. so that was a very cheap 3 meals...
 

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