Ronni
Well-known Member
- Location
- Nashville TN
I found out yesterday that someone I know personally has just tested positive for the virus. Justin is a youngish man who I know through dance, and though it’s been probably over a year since I’ve seen him in person I think of him fondly.
Up to this point I have been using, as some sort of gauge, that I don’t personally know anyone who’s come down with COVID. I’m not even sure why that was important, or why it was something I needed to keep track of....but now that that’s NOT the case, it seems so completely trite and meaningless that I was ever focused to any degree on that fact.
I’ve never NOT taken Covid seriously. I’ve been so careful, stayed masked, been quarantined and isolated for months, and been dismayed and worried by the news, the outbreaks, the repeated spikes, the appalling numbers. But it was always “over there” somewhere, separate from me and mine, somehow not personal.
But my friend’s just-disclosed infection has somehow made it VERY personal. We’re not close, we don’t hang out, but he’s always been kind and is a good guy....and now he’s sick. And that has impacted me profoundly. Up till now there were a few degrees of separation which made the virus sort of impersonal even as I took precautions, mourned the dead, experienced my own anxiety spikes in response. But not any more.
This virus isn’t “over there” any more. It’s come home....to MY village, MY tribe, MY life...and now I’m all kinds of shaken up and I just don’t know how to interpret all that I’m feeling.
Up to this point I have been using, as some sort of gauge, that I don’t personally know anyone who’s come down with COVID. I’m not even sure why that was important, or why it was something I needed to keep track of....but now that that’s NOT the case, it seems so completely trite and meaningless that I was ever focused to any degree on that fact.
I’ve never NOT taken Covid seriously. I’ve been so careful, stayed masked, been quarantined and isolated for months, and been dismayed and worried by the news, the outbreaks, the repeated spikes, the appalling numbers. But it was always “over there” somewhere, separate from me and mine, somehow not personal.
But my friend’s just-disclosed infection has somehow made it VERY personal. We’re not close, we don’t hang out, but he’s always been kind and is a good guy....and now he’s sick. And that has impacted me profoundly. Up till now there were a few degrees of separation which made the virus sort of impersonal even as I took precautions, mourned the dead, experienced my own anxiety spikes in response. But not any more.
This virus isn’t “over there” any more. It’s come home....to MY village, MY tribe, MY life...and now I’m all kinds of shaken up and I just don’t know how to interpret all that I’m feeling.
