Depressed is the key word there Victor. I urge you to see your doctor about it. I've been there and there is an answer. Nobody chooses to feel so rotten.
I like being in my little corner of the world..... sometimes....but I am not stuck here.... I hope the day never comes when I am stuck with no where to go. I personally like stamps on passports!
Marci You have hit the nail on the head. One of the major reasons my husband and I are still together, despite our many issues, is the knowledge we can rely on each other for certain things.I'll tell you something Victor...your happiness doesn't depend on other people. It starts with you & what's inside of you. If I relied on people to be happy I'd be in a psyche ward somewhere. You have to figure out how to take care of yourself emotionally because no one is going to do that for you. For years now the only one who bothers to call me is my mother. I get no phone calls...no mail & no visits from any "friends" at all. Ever.
I've tried over the years to build relationships with people & have faced major disappointments all the way. I finally got so discouraged I quit trying. It wasn't worth the heartache. I took my own emotional well being into my own hands. I discovered what I enjoy & that's what I do. By myself.
I decided I wasn't wasting anymore tears or time on people who really don't care. They talk a good game but the proof is in their actions. I urge you take control of your own well being. Don't let people rule your mental health. You are responsible for yourself & it's time to step up & take care of your own hurting heart. It's not easy but it's not impossible.