Are You Living or Just Existing?

[Veronica]

Even if I had money and no health issues I likely wouldn't do much. I kinda like puttering around the house keeping myself entertained.

Im the same. Thankfully Im in mostly good health and I have enuf cash to be comfortable. I do enjoy puttering too.
Im a professional putterer. I always have several projects going on.

After the husband passed and I was no longer involved in his care and I had all this free time on my hands.
I kept thinking I should be doing this and that. But after a while I realized I dont want to be doing this OR that.
This is way too much like work.

 

[Paulina]

When I was with my abusive ex, I mostly just existed. After I left him I had 18 glorious years of living my life to the fullest, making up for the prior 30 years.

Then my son died. After that I was just barely existing, hanging on by a thread.

I still have days like that, but I’m working hard to re-engage with my life even though I often don’t want to. The joy I used to feel is just missing now.

Same in a way. 3 years ago, on this past 6th of June, my Autistic son was able to escape his so-called safe group home. He ran up to a freeway on ramp (on foot) and was hit and run by a car. Ever since then I've just been a recluse and it's difficult for me to join the world again. I must say I am so very sorry for your loss. From my heart.

 

[hollydolly]

Wow what a beautiful place, I think I really need to take a trip to this place.

you should...it's where I was born and raised..I was born very close to Loch Lomond...

I was born and raised less than 15 miles from here

 

[StarSong]

How lovely, @hollydolly!

 

[hollydolly]

How lovely, @hollydolly!

the picture above , is balloch on Loch lomond, a small town..and in the summer when we were teens we used to drive out to Balloch or any of the other towns on Lomond, because it was just a 20 minute drive...

.... one day while we were all belting out Simon & Garfunkel songs loudly in one of the boys' cars singing along to the 8 track.. and as we drove through the back roads and fields , we suddenly we got a flat tyre . ( we were all about 17 or18) , so not knowing where we were or how far we were from town , we girls waited in the car for the boys to go and walk the country lanes to find a garage to get a new tyre.

They were gone hours, and we were beginning to get desperately thirsty and fed up.. when they came walking back rolling a tyre in front of them...

We thought they were our shining knights, until they got the tyre on and drove on, and we found we'd only been within 2 minutes of civilisation, about a mile from the town.. and we could have got out and walked ourselves..