I hear you also... but not because my husband died, but because he's now shacked up with some whore... and it came as suddenly to me as a death so I've grieved for him, and 10 months on, I'm just coming out of that, but in many ways it's like a death only in some ways worse, however like you, I'm lost now without someone to 'lend a hand' or do the jobs I just can't do... and each time I can't do them , I'm thinking of him and wishing he was here, and I really need to get past ever thinking about him again...