Dark thoughts

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Lon

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This is in response to Sifuphil & Butterfly postings Re: Self Pity and things to look forward to.

At 81 I certainly get these same dark thoughts from time to time and get to feeling sorry for myself. Fortunately these thoughts are not long lasting. What snaps me out of it are little victories and solving little challenges. Solving a troubling computer glitch by my self seems to help & also adding more distance to my walks successfully.My little physical & mental successes would be no big deal if I were still in my 60's, but I'm not.
 

Lon said:
This is in response to Sifuphil & Butterfly postings Re: Self Pity and things to look forward to.

At 81 I certainly get these same dark thoughts from time to time and get to feeling sorry for myself. Fortunately these thoughts are not long lasting. What snaps me out of it are little victories and solving little challenges. Solving a troubling computer glitch by my self seems to help & also adding more distance to my walks successfully.My little physical & mental successes would be no big deal if I were still in my 60's, but I'm not.
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What you have said is correct Lon and congratulations on your skills to cope with it. I go outside in the fresh air or just meditate quietly to meditation music or write a blog post. I also have a name for my dark thoughts I call them Melinoë or meli for short. She propitiated as a bringer of nightmares and madness. So sometimes she is in my writings when I am down.
 
I've got a big load to carry. Then moments like this morning. One place I'd be VERY interested working for...quick where's the phone? They were informing me hired someone else for the position. Um, thanks you just made my afternoon. You just want to shrivel into a ball and cry sometimes. " Yes we are hiring!"...just not you. I found a good therapy. I went by the town bookshop. They welcome browsing. I sat there for an hour absorbed in a stack of books. I was good and didn't buy any. Just went all Johnny Five...input input input. For speedy readers it's wonderful, you almost leave the room and slip into the book. Thanks I needed that;)
 

I had some dark thoughts this morning about losing my dog when she goes. She is still very healthy and I just told myself to enjoy my time with her and try not to think of how it will end some day.
 
I had some dark thoughts this morning about losing my dog when she goes. She is still very healthy and I just told myself to enjoy my time with her and try not to think of how it will end some day.

I feel you, although I internalize it into nightmares. Same recurring theme of being surrounded by strange dogs and searching and searching for mine. I don't want a different dog, I have to find my babies.
 
Lon, you seem to really have it together and although you're 81, you're a 60 year old at heart. :) Glad that you're still getting your walks in, I know that's so good for overall well-being especially as we age. I think all of us have dark thoughts from time to time, but as Arachne said, you deserve kudos for recognizing them for what they are and coping with them so well. You've been pretty blessed in life compared to many, keep the big picture in mind the next time you're feeling down....hugs.
 
A martini a day keeps the dark thoughts away as the final darkness gets closer...
 

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