….I woke up for the hundredth time tonight and settle in to an hour or so of tossing and turning before falling back to sleep. My mouth is as dry as the desert, my sinuses overstuffed to the point of pain and for some reason everything smells...bad. My dreams however more than make up for the discomfort because for some reason they have been the best I have experienced in my life. The colors are more intense and the story-line's though still a total mix of insanity and family adventures are better than going to watch an movie at an IMAX theater.
I have decided to not use one drug to fight another's drug addiction, so as I enter day three of not smoking it might be purely on personal willpower. The funny thing is I really don't have any willpower as proven by my oversized stomach and can be verified by a trip with me to do my weekly food shopping. However something has fought back the continual off and on cravings for a cigarette, so I guess we will lay it off on willpower..... although there is one other very important force working in my favor, faith.
Now many of you may not believe in God and that is you right, but for me there can be no other explanation why it has been more than two days since my last cigarette. I did not joke when I said I have little or no willpower and the drug prescribed to me by my doctor still sits unused, so what gets me past those frequent urges? I can only lay my current success on prayer and my faith and its ability to overcome whatever life throws at us. So for the time being forget how I am doing this and share with me in my feeling of well-being at the fact that this is day three without a cigarette!
On November 28[SUP]th[/SUP]
at 12:00am
I smoked my last cigarette,
so who do I see about my first day chip?
I have decided to not use one drug to fight another's drug addiction, so as I enter day three of not smoking it might be purely on personal willpower. The funny thing is I really don't have any willpower as proven by my oversized stomach and can be verified by a trip with me to do my weekly food shopping. However something has fought back the continual off and on cravings for a cigarette, so I guess we will lay it off on willpower..... although there is one other very important force working in my favor, faith.
Now many of you may not believe in God and that is you right, but for me there can be no other explanation why it has been more than two days since my last cigarette. I did not joke when I said I have little or no willpower and the drug prescribed to me by my doctor still sits unused, so what gets me past those frequent urges? I can only lay my current success on prayer and my faith and its ability to overcome whatever life throws at us. So for the time being forget how I am doing this and share with me in my feeling of well-being at the fact that this is day three without a cigarette!
On November 28[SUP]th[/SUP]
at 12:00am
I smoked my last cigarette,
so who do I see about my first day chip?