I am really struggling with emotional problems. It is just one thing but many that have built up over time. I did see a psychologist when my husband died. I attended group therapy. I saw a psychiatrist when my migraines started. The doctors thought it was my head, duh! it was my head, I even went through intensive therapy in my really 30's for panic disorder and acrophobia
I am not against seeing a professional when it comes to mental health. The only one that helped was the therapy for the panic disorder. I still have problems now and then with that but I have done very well keeping it under control,
Right now I am struggling with everything. trying to do what is right for my health, listening to my doctor and doing what she suggests, Quit smoking 5 years ago, quit my wine habit years ago. When you quit smoking, you start eating and gain weight. Then you are a type 2 diabetic.
Now you have to try to change your diet. Okay, I tried, need help, now on a shot GLP1, which really helps. Then we get trouble with the insurance company who finally approves.
Then a company buys your doctors clinic and messes the whole thing up. You can't reach the doctor directly, every call goes thru a 3rd party who has to relay the message to the nurse and then they to the doctor. WTF, I like my doctor, I have been with this group for 30 years, the doctor is not the problem, it is the management company.
I am ready to just forget the whole thing, start smoking, drinking and eating cake when I ever I want. What is the point of working so hard to follow the rules and be miserable everyday.I am still going to die at some point so why not enjoy the time i have left. I can start to spend and enjoy the money I have saved.
Buy a new car, fix up the house more, I would say travel but I can't leave the dogs. No one will blink when I am gone. I have seen enough death to know this. The only people I have seen truly grieve was my husband when his Dad passed. Then husband died, his Mom followed 9 days later from grief. I felt and still feel the grief from those losses. I have also lost my Mom and our best family friend since.
I just really feel what is the point, I did everything I could do to take care of the people I loved. They have passed and the ones left don't seem to care. What is the point. there is not one for me.
Missing my married son and what seems like his lack of concern which makes sense. He grew up watching me take care of everything at home and working full time. He just doesn;t understand aging makes things harder.
I am not against seeing a professional when it comes to mental health. The only one that helped was the therapy for the panic disorder. I still have problems now and then with that but I have done very well keeping it under control,
Right now I am struggling with everything. trying to do what is right for my health, listening to my doctor and doing what she suggests, Quit smoking 5 years ago, quit my wine habit years ago. When you quit smoking, you start eating and gain weight. Then you are a type 2 diabetic.
Now you have to try to change your diet. Okay, I tried, need help, now on a shot GLP1, which really helps. Then we get trouble with the insurance company who finally approves.
Then a company buys your doctors clinic and messes the whole thing up. You can't reach the doctor directly, every call goes thru a 3rd party who has to relay the message to the nurse and then they to the doctor. WTF, I like my doctor, I have been with this group for 30 years, the doctor is not the problem, it is the management company.
I am ready to just forget the whole thing, start smoking, drinking and eating cake when I ever I want. What is the point of working so hard to follow the rules and be miserable everyday.I am still going to die at some point so why not enjoy the time i have left. I can start to spend and enjoy the money I have saved.
Buy a new car, fix up the house more, I would say travel but I can't leave the dogs. No one will blink when I am gone. I have seen enough death to know this. The only people I have seen truly grieve was my husband when his Dad passed. Then husband died, his Mom followed 9 days later from grief. I felt and still feel the grief from those losses. I have also lost my Mom and our best family friend since.
I just really feel what is the point, I did everything I could do to take care of the people I loved. They have passed and the ones left don't seem to care. What is the point. there is not one for me.
Missing my married son and what seems like his lack of concern which makes sense. He grew up watching me take care of everything at home and working full time. He just doesn;t understand aging makes things harder.
