ronk
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My brother finally moved to a nursing home a little over a month ago. Now I'm in the same building where both of us lived. My family is over 30 miles away. It's almost impossible for them to visit me any more. I'm struggling to get myself together so I can move closer to them. Closeness to family is desirable. I also want to be in a larger city, where I can easily get the kind of medical help that I need.
It's very hard for me to look for a new apartment. I tried consulting a "worker" we have in our building. But I don't really trust the results she got. I still have anxiety and/or panic attacks. I can only spend a few minutes trying to do research, and I start to pass out or fall asleep. These days, I'm just tired of being tired, and tired of fighting it. Sometimes I just go into the bedroom and lie on the bed for a few hours. If I feel sleepy enough, I might just try to get to sleep.
I am still somewhat angry with my brother. He never really treated me all that well, despite the fact that I moved all the way from Maine to be in the same building with him. At the same token, I'm actually relieved that he's gone. He's well cared for, and so far he's having a ball. I can concentrate on myself.
It's very hard for me to look for a new apartment. I tried consulting a "worker" we have in our building. But I don't really trust the results she got. I still have anxiety and/or panic attacks. I can only spend a few minutes trying to do research, and I start to pass out or fall asleep. These days, I'm just tired of being tired, and tired of fighting it. Sometimes I just go into the bedroom and lie on the bed for a few hours. If I feel sleepy enough, I might just try to get to sleep.
I am still somewhat angry with my brother. He never really treated me all that well, despite the fact that I moved all the way from Maine to be in the same building with him. At the same token, I'm actually relieved that he's gone. He's well cared for, and so far he's having a ball. I can concentrate on myself.