Thank you so very much for all the kind welcome posts that were left for me . There seems to be many of you now who doubt the sincerity of my posts which are written from the heart . I understand how careful you have to be with someone new & how suspicious you need to be until they have proven themselves to be who they portray . In a world full of hatred - some people do not know how to recognize, deal with or accept a truly kind & caring person who happens to cross their path . Again I fully understand this, But -- What many of you are revealing to me is that there is such an extreme amount of exagerated fear & distress over me being here & the sincerity of my posts - that you are not capable of giving me any amount of time to prove myself to be genuine. Fear can be a good thing but it can also work against you if you don't get a grip on it . A true loving caring person is becoming rare today . That's why I'm looked upon as suspicious , different & an oddity etc. -- feel free to insert your own words here . A sincere thank you for showing me that I do not belong or fit in this group -- because you just aren't capable of giving me any amount of time to prove myself -- because again -- of the extreme amount of fear & anxiety that is running rampant in this forum . It is spreading like a disease or infection & ever so quickly ! ! ! Thank you for showing me it so early on . This is truly a blessing in disguise for me because now I won't waste any more of my time here or your time as well which is just as important . It is enough for me to continue to love & care for all the senior pen pals I have by corresponding with them individually through email or snail mail like I have been doing . They are not afraid of me because they were capable of giving me a little bit of time to prove that I genuinely love & care about them . This is my goodbye to you to you all . Yipeeeee for you ! ! ! Now you can celebrate my departure from this group !!! No more fear, anguish, anxiety & distress about me being amongst you all . I feel so sorry for you that you believe me to be some kind of demon or something . Oh well, Sometimes we turn out to be our own worst enemy . As for me - again thank you for for the barrier or roadblock you created for me in this forum . I took a detour by coming here but I will soon be back on the right path . It's been a learning experience for sure ! First time belonging to a forum & I love learning that forums or groups are not for me , but I do not see my time here as a negative at all . I have learned some valuable life lessons here . Its never too late to find the right path if you ever become lost along the way . I have also learned how fast someone can turn against you when their fears get the best of them . Relax, take a deep breath now & have fun every one ! Enjoy the celebration of my departure . No more fear, anxiety or distress over me being in your group anymore . I will always remember & appreciate the warm & beautiful welcomes I received in this group though . Be grateful for all the small blessings in life along with the big . I pray that in the future you don't become a slave to your fears & allow it to control you as you did in this group . Fear like I said is a good thing if we can get a grip on it & use it in a positive way . I also pray in the future God will help you to be capable of allowing someone to prove themselves to you before judging them unworthy because of your extreme & exagerated fears . Who knows -- You may be turning away someone God placed in your life to be a blessing . I wish you the best of luck & happiness with the rest of your life . God Bless You All !!!
