The scary doorway.... a personal observation

Pete

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Texas
The world has gotten a lot scarier over the past few months and living alone like I and others that I know and love makes dealing with this unknown, unfamiliar world all the more scary and lonely.

Personally I did manage well living for 14 years “alone” in a cabin in the woods, but I was never truly alone because I could walk or drive to a friends home or I would have a visit from my children who at the time lived in Philadelphia and Texas. I could welcome them with the traditional hug that though many do not understand could recharge one's soul from a drought of loneliness.

Now we have the threat of the coronavirus holding me back from that hugging and recharging of my soul and when you add on the insanity, stupidity and total lack of respect for our nation and its founding fathers exhibited by tens of thousands.... well my soul wilts and my depression grows.

However unlike some that I love much too much for words, I always have the unselfish love of my nearby grandchildren to reach out to when things get overwhelming.

To those who do not have this 'safety net' I say when there is no one that will just sit and absorb your pain and help you get back on your road of life turn to your family and cling to them for they have no ax to grind except your well being!

If your present situation stops you from forgetting the pain than you must distance yourself from the physical closeness of those bad memories find your path where you mind will not continually go back to things best forgotten and yes that somewhere else may not be a place you would choose but it is one your soul needs.


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The family at my cabin in Northern Alaska
 

Pete—-Throughout my life, I have always thought that if I couldn’t turn to my family in times of need, I should have a best friend. My best friend probably knew more about me and what made me tick than any family member. That’s how close we were. About 14 months ago, he died. I still have my family, but not having my best friend anymore makes me sad when I think about his death. Sometimes, I go to the spot where his ashes were scattered and talk to him. Life is lonely when you lose your best friend. It always feels as though something is not quite right. Maybe having a best friend isn’t a good idea. Maybe just keep everyone as a friend.
 


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