Mr. Ed
Be what you is not what you what you ain’t
- Location
- Central NY
I mentioned before that I lost 34 years of productive living symptomatic mental illness. I conveniently practiced the of smoking tobacco as an excuse to avoid long-term interaction with family members and the outside world. I easily chose stinky tobacco, sought out medication and herbal supplements to hide my pain underneath a layer of numbness.
Today I figured out that, although 27 years are unaccounted for in a normal life of (27-54) i was not lazy, a screw up or a slacker. I recall listening to music a lot and staying in the laundry room but i was not lazy. If I had an inkling of laziness in me I would not have graduated college with honors, maintained steady employment, served of Mental health board and disability employment board between 2010 -2021. I blamed myself for what I considered years of wasted time when people my age were doing great things in life and me well, I wasn't doing anything.
Funny what my mind did not tell until now.
Today I figured out that, although 27 years are unaccounted for in a normal life of (27-54) i was not lazy, a screw up or a slacker. I recall listening to music a lot and staying in the laundry room but i was not lazy. If I had an inkling of laziness in me I would not have graduated college with honors, maintained steady employment, served of Mental health board and disability employment board between 2010 -2021. I blamed myself for what I considered years of wasted time when people my age were doing great things in life and me well, I wasn't doing anything.
Funny what my mind did not tell until now.