Venting about health worries

[Jane]

I will start off say that I am so tired of waking up scared and sad.

I worry about my health and the health of my daughter and son. Doctors have been no help.

 

[CeeCee]

I will start off say that I am so tired of waking up scared and sad.

I worry about my health and the health of my daughter and son. Doctors have been no help.

Hi Jane...I understand. I live alone and feel the same sometimes...mostly the scared part. Anxiety.

Today I had a mammogram because my last one said I had dense breasts and they needed to see me again in 6 months...to get a baseline for me.

last time they did the test, after it was over the tech said ok...you're done, go change and you'll get the results in a few days.

This time, the tech told me to sit there in my gown and wait for the dr to come in and discuss the results. Yikes! I almost had a panic attack, thought they saw something but the tech explained that this was a diagnostic mammogram and that's how they do that...dr has to look at it right away.

Anyway, after all that....I'm fine, they'll see me in a year.

I was so happy I stopped and bought myself an Amy's pizza for one, something I seldom eat.

Hope your day was as good as mine....

 

[Jane]

Hi Jane...I understand. I live alone and feel the same sometimes...mostly the scared part. Anxiety.

Today I had a mammogram because my last one said I had dense breasts and they needed to see me again in 6 months...to get a baseline for me.

last time they did the test, after it was over the tech said ok...you're done, go change and you'll get the results in a few days.

This time, the tech told me to sit there in my gown and wait for the dr to come in and discuss the results. Yikes! I almost had a panic attack, thought they saw something but the tech explained that this was a diagnostic mammogram and that's how they do that...dr has to look at it right away.

Anyway, after all that....I'm fine, they'll see me in a year.

I was so happy I stopped and bought myself an Amy's pizza for one, something I seldom eat.

Hope your day was as good as mine....

How can they be so cruel? So Happy to hear you are okay.

 

[IKE]

Fantastic news on the mammogram results CeeCee !!

 

[CindyLouWho]

Hi Jane...I understand. I live alone and feel the same sometimes...mostly the scared part. Anxiety.

Today I had a mammogram because my last one said I had dense breasts and they needed to see me again in 6 months...to get a baseline for me.

last time they did the test, after it was over the tech said ok...you're done, go change and you'll get the results in a few days.

This time, the tech told me to sit there in my gown and wait for the dr to come in and discuss the results. Yikes! I almost had a panic attack, thought they saw something but the tech explained that this was a diagnostic mammogram and that's how they do that...dr has to look at it right away.

Anyway, after all that....I'm fine, they'll see me in a year.

I was so happy I stopped and bought myself an Amy's pizza for one, something I seldom eat.

Hope your day was as good as mine....

Jane & Cee Cee...I can empathize with both of you.
Anxiety is a tough one....the only way out of it is to change the situation or surrender to what can not be changed right now or maybe ever.....and then take one hour..one day at a time. Be strong, be mentally tough and refuse to let your anxiety control you.

Cee Cee - Glad your mammo turned out ok...I have the same issue (dense breasts). Had a 3-D mammo last time, so I was glad for that.

 

[Jane]

Jane & Cee Cee...I can empathize with both of you.
Anxiety is a tough one....the only way out of it is to change the situation or surrender to what can not be changed right now or maybe ever.....and then take one hour..one day at a time. Be strong, be mentally tough and refuse to let your anxiety control you.

Cee Cee - Glad your mammo turned out ok...I have the same issue (dense breasts). Had a 3-D mammo last time, so I was glad for that.

Thank you Cindy. I'm doing my best,I have somedays better then others. Things start going our way,then just stop and it is so annoying.

 

[Elsie]

cancer lump lumpectomy

In 2008 I accidently felt a lump in the top of my left breast. Shocked, confused, right away I phoned ahospital & told the nurse who answered about it. She seemed more upset than I since it seemedunreal to me. Anyway, I went through allkinds of very annoying tests at the hospital & ended up with a doctor whom checkedthe lump and acted as though there was no human connected to it. He said stage one-or whatever and turned awayto record whatever at his desk. Thisuncaring attitude angered me and so as I sat on the exam table I said, “Ohcrap.” No response from him so I said ittwice more only loudly. Lol
At that, he turned to tell me treatments I could take. I agreed to only take Femara cancer pills. They crippled my knees, & after I think40 days. The pills had crippled my knees& I could just barely walk, so I quit them. I developed an infection in that breast. It swelled up & turned bright red. But believe it or not, I didn’t rush to the Doc, because I had anappointment coming up in 2 weeks with a different cancer doc anyway. My infection was pretty much cleared up bythen, but the doc was a bit shook up when he saw the breast was a bit red. He gave me an antibiotic & I ended up withpainful colitis from it. L
There is more mess up to this cancer story, but what I wouldlike to say is during all this cancer business, for some reason I never panicked,worried about having cancer, although every once in a rare while I’d think, “Ihave cancer!” for a moment. But that’s as far as my even thinking or worrying aboutit went…..
[QUOTE=IKE;839940]Fantastic news on the mammogram results CeeCee !![/QUOTE]

 

[Jane]

In 2008 I accidently felt a lump in the top of my left breast. Shocked, confused, right away I phoned ahospital & told the nurse who answered about it.She seemed more upset than I since it seemedunreal to me.Anyway, I went through allkinds of very annoying tests at the hospital & ended up with a doctor whom checkedthe lump and acted as though there was no human connected to it.He said stage one-or whatever and turned awayto record whatever at his desk.Thisuncaring attitude angered me and so as I sat on the exam table I said, “Ohcrap.”No response from him so I said ittwice more only loudly. Lol
At that, he turned to tell me treatments I could take. I agreed to only take Femara cancer pills.They crippled my knees, & after I think40 days.The pills had crippled my knees& I could just barely walk, so I quit them.I developed an infection in that breast.It swelled up & turned bright red.But believe it or not, I didn’t rush to the Doc, because I had anappointment coming up in 2 weeks with a different cancer doc anyway.My infection was pretty much cleared up bythen, but the doc was a bit shook up when he saw the breast was a bit red.He gave me an antibiotic & I ended up withpainful colitis from it. L
There is more mess up to this cancer story, but what I wouldlike to say is during all this cancer business, for some reason I never panicked,worried about having cancer, although every once in a rare while I’d think, “Ihave cancer!” for a moment. But that’s as far as my even thinking or worrying aboutit went…..
[QUOTE=IKE;839940]Fantastic news on the mammogram results CeeCee !!

[/QUOTE]Wow,Elsie I'm so sorry for all the hell you went through,but happy came out of it okay. I don't understand why people stay in medicine when they clearly don't care about their patients

 

[Keesha]

I will start off say that I am so tired of waking up scared and sad.

I worry about my health and the health of my daughter and son. Doctors have been no help.

Jane, congratulations on starting a ‘venting’ thread. I had complete faith that you could do this.
Worrying is indeed stressful.

Fantastic news on the mammogram results CeeCee !!

I agree.

Jane & Cee Cee...I can empathize with both of you.
Anxiety is a tough one....the only way out of it is to change the situation or surrender to what can not be changed right now or maybe ever.....and then take one hour..one day at a time. Be strong, be mentally tough and refuse to let your anxiety control you.

.

This is a great post on how to handle stress. The only way out is to change the situation or surrender to what IS and that’s accepting the present moment as is. Since most people can’t always change what’s worrying them, the next best thing is to just practice acceptance even if it’s for one hour at a time.

Years ago I went through an extremely traumatic experience and it took years to even start the healing processes. I literally had to take each day one hour at a time and just accept my position in life however horrifying it was.

Elsie,... you’re a brave woman, simply put. I admire bravery.

 

[Jane]

Thank you Keesha.How was you day?

Jane, congratulations on starting a ‘venting’ thread. I had complete faith that you could do this.
Worrying is indeed stressful.

I agree.



This is a great post on how to handle stress. The only way out is to change the situation or surrender to what IS and that’s accepting the present moment as is. Since most people can’t always change what’s worrying them, the next best thing is to just practice acceptance even if it’s for one hour at a time.

Years ago I went through an extremely traumatic experience and it took years to even start the healing processes. I literally had to take each day one hour at a time and just accept my position in life however horrifying it was.

Elsie,... you’re a brave woman, simply put. I admire bravery.

 

[bingo]

i pray for your strength

 

[Keesha]

Thank you Keesha.How was you day?

You are very welcome Jane.
My day was fairly busy. I did an extra long walk this morning, did my usual housework, deweeded some more of the driveway, went shopping and purchased some stain for our privacy fence, a power washer and flowers, then went for another walk.

Oh! The other day I bought myself a cowgirl hat. I’ve always wanted another. Finally I made the purchase and am glad I did.

What did you do today?

 

[Jane]

Wow you were very busy. Fancy hat,where will you wear it?
I did a couple of loads of clothes and washed some eating and cooking utensils.And of course watching tv

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You are very welcome Jane.
My day was fairly busy. I did an extra long walk this morning, did my usual housework, deweeded some more of the driveway, went shopping and purchased some stain for our privacy fence, a power washer and flowers, then went for another walk.

Oh! The other day I bought myself a cowgirl hat. I’ve always wanted another. Finally I made the purchase and am glad I did.

What did you do today?

 

[Keesha]

Wow you were very busy. Fancy hat,where will you wear it?
I did a couple of loads of clothes and washed some eating and cooking utensils.And of course watching tv

Yes I did 3 loads of laundry too.
Where will I wear it ?
So far I’ve worn it as a sun hat to walk the dogs and next month I’m going horseback riding with a group of people, so I’ll look the part; like a real cowgirl :yes:

What do you like to watch on tv?

 

[Elsie]

Thank you Keesha.How was you day?

My reaction to my learning I had cancer, or how I dealt with it was not bravery at all, my mind just didn't fully take in that I was afflicted with a serious disease. Because of this, I felt bad that my kids seemed to me to be unreasonably upset about it. I never talked with them about it like it was a daily worry, for it wasn't. I have no words to explain as to why it wasn't. But I admit that every once in awhile I'd think about having had a lumpectomy because of having cancer. But then I'd put it aside
and get on with doing this n that during the day.

 

[jujube]

I've found a vigorous walk is the best stress-buster I can find. If there's a gentle rain, all the better.

Whenever I get my foot out of this #@%&^! ortho boot, I'm going to take a nice long walk down the road to the cemetery, sit on a bench and look at the mountains (Great view there but kind of wasted on the residents, though...LOL).

 

[Gary O']

Thank you Cindy. I'm doing my best,I have somedays better then others. Things start going our way,then just stop and it is so annoying.

I have found;
Once one is blind to self
Stop the self exams
Stop the worry of what others think about you

Things get better

Much much better

 

[Keesha]

My reaction to my learning I had cancer, or how I dealt with it was not bravery at all, my mind just didn't fully take in that I was afflicted with a serious disease. Because of this, I felt bad that my kids seemed to me to be unreasonably upset about it. I never talked with them about it like it was a daily worry, for it wasn't. I have no words to explain as to why it wasn't. But I admit that every once in awhile I'd think about having had a lumpectomy because of having cancer. But then I'd put it aside
and get on with doing this n that during the day.

Well I ‘still’ admire you for the attitude you adopted even if you don’t understand it. Treating cancer holistically patients are taught never to look at their cancer as a negative evil thing but to embrace it as part of their body.


They are taught creative imagery where Pac-Man ‘s eat away at cancer cells until they are all gone. Clinical studies have proved that this placebo effect has a very positive outcome. Positive mental attitude plays a huge role in holistic healing . Perhaps your natural instincts kicked in automatically. There have been several times in my life where natural instinct has automatically kicked in for me. I find it magical.


How have you been since this discovery, if you don’t mind me asking.?

 

[Keesha]

I have found;
Once one is blind to self
Stop the self exams
Stop the worry of what others think about you

Things get better

Much much better

Become a silent witness of self & others.

 

[Jane]

Yes I did 3 loads of laundry too.
Where will I wear it ?
So far I’ve worn it as a sun hat to walk the dogs and next month I’m going horseback riding with a group of people, so I’ll look the part; like a real cowgirl :yes:

What do you like to watch on tv?

I hope your horseback riding is a lot of fun for you and you will be really styling in that hat.

Most the shows I like are on hiatus right now,but I like The Flash,Legends of Tomorrow, Arrow,Supernatural, Agents of Shield,and right now I watch So you think you can Dance,World of Dance and Live PD and lots of reruns) And of course baseball and womens basketball.

 

[Keesha]

I hope your horseback riding is a lot of fun for you and you will be really styling in that hat.

Most the shows I like are on hiatus right now,but I like The Flash,Legends of Tomorrow, Arrow,Supernatural, Agents of Shield,and right now I watch So you think you can Dance,World of Dance and Live PD and lots of reruns) And of course baseball and womens basketball.

Why thank you Jane.

Thats a tasteful selection of shows.

How do you like World of Dance with Jennifer Lopaz ?
And his do you feel it compares to “So you think you can dance?”

 

[Jane]

Why thank you Jane.

Thats a tasteful selection of shows.

How do you like World of Dance with Jennifer Lopaz ?
And his do you feel it compares to “So you think you can dance?”

I like it,there is a good variety of dance styles and ages of the contestants. I feel they are totally different,but both are entertaining.

 

[Keesha]

I like it,there is a good variety of dance styles and ages of the contestants. I feel they are totally different,but both are entertaining.

I have to agree with you there. I was actually surprised by World of Dance. For some reason I was expecting it to be a lot more corny. The dance level of that show is off the charts. I’m always excited to watch each and every contestant.

Did you ever take dance lessons?

When I was young I took ballet for 3 years and then tap for two. It’s something I wished I’d kept up.

 

[Jane]

I have to agree with you there. I was actually surprised by World of Dance. For some reason I was expecting it to be a lot more corny. The dance level of that show is off the charts. I’m always excited to watch each and every contestant. I like how it shows that all humans love music and want to express ourselves through dance,etc.

Did you ever take dance lessons?No never did. Probably didn't have the money and I don't remember being interested.

When I was young I took ballet for 3 years and then tap for two. It’s something I wished I’d kept up.

Hope your day is going well.I'm doing okay

 

[Mrs. Robinson]

In 2008 I accidently felt a lump in the top of my left breast. Shocked, confused, right away I phoned ahospital & told the nurse who answered about it.She seemed more upset than I since it seemedunreal to me.Anyway, I went through allkinds of very annoying tests at the hospital & ended up with a doctor whom checkedthe lump and acted as though there was no human connected to it.He said stage one-or whatever and turned awayto record whatever at his desk.Thisuncaring attitude angered me and so as I sat on the exam table I said, “Ohcrap.”No response from him so I said ittwice more only loudly. Lol
At that, he turned to tell me treatments I could take. I agreed to only take Femara cancer pills.They crippled my knees, & after I think40 days.The pills had crippled my knees& I could just barely walk, so I quit them.I developed an infection in that breast.It swelled up & turned bright red.But believe it or not, I didn’t rush to the Doc, because I had anappointment coming up in 2 weeks with a different cancer doc anyway.My infection was pretty much cleared up bythen, but the doc was a bit shook up when he saw the breast was a bit red.He gave me an antibiotic & I ended up withpainful colitis from it. L
There is more mess up to this cancer story, but what I wouldlike to say is during all this cancer business, for some reason I never panicked,worried about having cancer, although every once in a rare while I’d think, “Ihave cancer!” for a moment. But that’s as far as my even thinking or worrying aboutit went…..
[QUOTE=IKE;839940]Fantastic news on the mammogram results CeeCee !!

[/QUOTE]

Haha-had to respond here. This was totally me when I was diagnosed in 2015. My three girls were worried sick. I know my husband was too,but worried silently. So while the girls were making us meals,going to doc appts. with me etc.,etc.,my son never said a single word to me about it. Just hugged me tighter than usual (and still does) when I see him. I always say he was just what I needed-someone to hang out on Denial Island with me and drink fruity drinks with umbrellas in them. I didn`t want to THINK about cancer all.the.time!