I try to live a simple, calm life. But lots of external pressures are robbing me of all that. Calls.... five calls a day..... angst.... anger.... madness.... I'm trying to keep a cap on it, but I feel pressured and unfairly treated. Yet I can't say it, because it makes others feel worse. So I take it on my shoulders.
I very much want to focus on the future, whatever we all have left. The years and winding down, and I want love, peace, and serenity. Seems like that's going to be tough to get to right now. Having your won dramas and angst is one thing, but when it's only yours by association...... bloody hell.
Today so far has been bad. Listening to music now.