Life on the Patio

I finally got the nerve to look up the patient studies for heart attacks as well as what all my blood work ment. Your blood panel can tell a great deal about survival rates.

I have a 65% chance of surviving the first 90 days.
Then a 58% chance of survival the next 9 months (1yr).
After that I didn't look up more studies.
Bottom line (unless I get hit by a truck) eventually I will have another heart attack. The odds of survival simply go down with each passing year. Just like getting older. LOL

And if I continue to feel exhausted all the time and can't do anything I want or even need to do - I really don't care to live a long time.
 

If I might ask... was this your first heart attack, Patio? Those survival rates seem a little scary, but none of us is guaranteed tomorrow. I hope your energy levels improve soon.
Well sort of. When I was 28 and pregnant I had to take a drug to stop labor which caused a small heart attack. Once I was stable they airvac ed me to the big city hospital.

When I was 49 I had a "heart incident" no damage that they could see. Went through all the test, took the meds. Stopped taking the meds.

This was a fairly bad acute heart attack I had been having for about a week. It felt like indigestion and pressure on the right side upper chest area. Also had bad acid reflux. When I could not breath well sitting down is when I asked to be taken to the ER. The Dr. said there is damage, but he avoids saying how much.

The survival rates come from patient studies I have read. Percentages are based on blood panel levels at discharge. I have the panels and am well versed in reading medical papers. We all go at some point.
 

I apologize if my question was out of line. You sound like me; as soon as I have any data I start researching! Don't take the studies "to heart."
You were not out of line, all is ok.
Mostly I look at studies about brain cancer. My neighbor and friend has glioblastoma. I have been part of her care giver team for a year now. It seems you have to know the right questions to ask the Drs. Otherwise you just get a light dusting of information.

It was much easier to find studies on heart patients.
 
You were not out of line, all is ok.
Mostly I look at studies about brain cancer. My neighbor and friend has glioblastoma. I have been part of her care giver team for a year now. It seems you have to know the right questions to ask the Drs. Otherwise you just get a light dusting of information.

It was much easier to find studies on heart patients.

You are so right about that. We have to be our own best "patient advocates". You are so kind to help out with your neighbor's care.
 
So today I am trying something different - just power through the fatigue. Just keep slowly doing things.
Three loads of laundry, kitchen wiped down, dining room dusted and wiped down, washed out the coffee pods (will fill later), dishes in the sink into the dishwasher.

I know it doesn't sound like a lot, and I do sit down often for a few minutes. And I move pretty slow. Happy with myself and my effort.
 
Stayed up way too late last night, got up late this morning. Filled the coffee pods, got the dishes out of the sink and into the dishwasher. Not sure what else I will do today. Saturday is family house cleaning day and Hubby & Kid will do the heavy stuff. If I get more done today I won't have anything to do on Sat. Have to think about it.
 
Today is my day to clean and do laundry. Those big days aren't fun, but it sure feels good when it's over, huh? At least I have someone to vacuum, I hate that. You sound like me. Thinking ahead is helpful.
 
Hubby and the kid did a very little bit of housework that I can't do. I guess every little bit helps.
My blood pressure is 105 / 54. I get dizzy if I stand too fast or walk too soon after standing. I am sooooo tired of being tired. This is just not me, not at all. I'm too tired to be angry, I'm just sad.

I know it is the pills. Chant "Heart is on vacation." "Heart is on vacation." "Heart is on vacation."
Very bored with the vacation.

I need to go to the store. It is really close but I can't walk that far right now. I will think about driving. Should ask Hubby to take me, but seriously I NEED to be able to get myself to the damn store.
 
So I spent another night at the hospital. I am soooooo done with this.
It wasn't chest pain, it was a weird thing with my eye. Like looking through distorted glass, with rainbow colors. In the outer part of my eye. Possible retina detaching? No, baby stroke. Although that was a guess by the Drs. My blood pressure was very high. They looked at my head and heart and lungs. Nothing. The blood test indicated nothing - but they did an xray, CT scan, MRI. For no reason I can figure out, just spending money and making me miserable.

Chance of stroke is high due to the heart meds, heart med are required. Soooooo I'll take the meds, I will die of something. I bounce between angry and depressed. I am not going to fight this - I can't win.

Going to just do what I normally do everyday, at least as much as I can and ignore the rest.

Hubby didn't give the dog water while I was in the hospital. The bird cage is still not fully cleaned because I couldn't lift it off the shelf, Hubby said he would help but never did when asked. I will get it done today.
 
So I spent another night at the hospital. I am soooooo done with this.
It wasn't chest pain, it was a weird thing with my eye. Like looking through distorted glass, with rainbow colors. In the outer part of my eye. Possible retina detaching? No, baby stroke. Although that was a guess by the Drs. My blood pressure was very high. They looked at my head and heart and lungs. Nothing. The blood test indicated nothing - but they did an xray, CT scan, MRI. For no reason I can figure out, just spending money and making me miserable.

Chance of stroke is high due to the heart meds, heart med are required. Soooooo I'll take the meds, I will die of something. I bounce between angry and depressed. I am not going to fight this - I can't win.

Going to just do what I normally do everyday, at least as much as I can and ignore the rest.

Hubby didn't give the dog water while I was in the hospital. The bird cage is still not fully cleaned because I couldn't lift it off the shelf, Hubby said he would help but never did when asked. I will get it done today.
So sorry you’re going through this. 😔
 
I had a really, really good dinner. Just went a tiny bit over on the salt.
To be able to have the dinner I only ate a dry oat bar and one of those little things of apple sauce all day. And too much coffee. It was worth it.

All the laundry got done. Tomorrow I am going to get at least a bit of the floor mopped.
 
Food makes me happy.
I've always been sort of a foodie. My parents raised us to eat all sorts of foods from all over the world. I have never had to diet in my life - diets suck rocks.
 
Dr. said I could eat anything except animal fat. Cool, French fries here I come.

I spent 2 solid hours last night scrubbing and cleaning 2/3 of the kitchen cabinets. Then I oiled them.
Hubby woke up this morning and the first words out of his mouth was a complaint about the smell of the oil. He bitched about it for 3 minutes, then asked me if I had done something he wanted done (yes), then went into his office. That should take care of our communication for the day.

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I did 4 loads of laundry, that's about it for the day. Restocked the toilet paper in both bathrooms. I am very tired.
Need to really try to keep up with the reusable coffee pod cleaning. Still haven't mopped the floors. I try to clean from the top down, I'm not getting to the bottom of anything. :(
 
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