Reflections of My Life

oh my goodness...it would be difficult to have to adapt to other's rules....i guess it'll all be part of getting old...less control over our environment and wishes...Lord help us all.
It is difficult. I was used to not really having any rules where I lived. No neighbors to speak of. Just wild critters. Makes me realize why I find being around people so hard. There is always someone who has to pick on someone or try to control everyone else.
 

It is difficult. I was used to not really having any rules where I lived. No neighbors to speak of. Just wild critters. Makes me realize why I find being around people so hard. There is always someone who has to pick on someone or try to control everyone else.
even harder to keep quiet about it...wanted to tell you...i worked as a cna...in facility...out in homes too....facilities were not so great...patient ratio...high...
some of the other girls weren't nice to patients...i couldn't be quiet at all about that ..
sometimes when you take a stand..you stand alone...hugs to you ...always...i think of you and others in my prayers at nite when i lay down..
whatta world!
 
It is definite that we no longer have a community room here in my apartment building. The other ladies that caused all the trouble over the activities we were doing in there have taken it over. The one lady that started it all said that we can only use the community room for eating. The manager and her and the other new lady are working on making a game room out of the old office that has been closed up for some time. She said it will be a game room. So that is that.

We can only use the community room for eating, not Bingo. But they can use it for puzzles. The manager is siding with her whatever she says or does. That is okay with me. I didn't really want to go to the Thanksgiving dinner anyway. I wanted to stay on my keto food plan and this just motivates me more. I am trying to work on my health issues and that includes my meals. It has been hard for me to go those things and not eat high carbs and sweets since that is what they usually have.

Having spent so many years living secluded on my homestead, not really seeing many people or having friends other than on the computer makes this a whole new experience for me. Well, I do not like it. So I am "distancing" myself from people (in person) for awhile. I am not crazy about these last two months of the year anyway. Too much stress, spending money and eating carby foods and sweets. I think it was better when we were quarantined. Yeah, I really said that.
 

It is definite that we no longer have a community room here in my apartment building. The other ladies that caused all the trouble over the activities we were doing in there have taken it over. The one lady that started it all said that we can only use the community room for eating. The manager and her and the other new lady are working on making a game room out of the old office that has been closed up for some time. She said it will be a game room. So that is that.

We can only use the community room for eating, not Bingo. But they can use it for puzzles. The manager is siding with her whatever she says or does. That is okay with me. I didn't really want to go to the Thanksgiving dinner anyway. I wanted to stay on my keto food plan and this just motivates me more. I am trying to work on my health issues and that includes my meals. It has been hard for me to go those things and not eat high carbs and sweets since that is what they usually have.

Having spent so many years living secluded on my homestead, not really seeing many people or having friends other than on the computer makes this a whole new experience for me. Well, I do not like it. So I am "distancing" myself from people (in person) for awhile. I am not crazy about these last two months of the year anyway. Too much stress, spending money and eating carby foods and sweets. I think it was better when we were quarantined. Yeah, I really said that.
I get what you are saying, community living can be intrusive and difficult. Having lived in the salivation army home for young woman and an army barracks, I find it similar to what you are experiencing. The apartment I live in now has lots of green spaces and no community set up so you can socialize or not which I like.

With all the stress I am under now, I am hitting sweets and carbs a lot. Can feel my A1C climbing higher and higher. 😢
 
It is definite that we no longer have a community room here in my apartment building. The other ladies that caused all the trouble over the activities we were doing in there have taken it over. The one lady that started it all said that we can only use the community room for eating. The manager and her and the other new lady are working on making a game room out of the old office that has been closed up for some time. She said it will be a game room. So that is that.

We can only use the community room for eating, not Bingo. But they can use it for puzzles. The manager is siding with her whatever she says or does. That is okay with me. I didn't really want to go to the Thanksgiving dinner anyway. I wanted to stay on my keto food plan and this just motivates me more. I am trying to work on my health issues and that includes my meals. It has been hard for me to go those things and not eat high carbs and sweets since that is what they usually have.

Having spent so many years living secluded on my homestead, not really seeing many people or having friends other than on the computer makes this a whole new experience for me. Well, I do not like it. So I am "distancing" myself from people (in person) for awhile. I am not crazy about these last two months of the year anyway. Too much stress, spending money and eating carby foods and sweets. I think it was better when we were quarantined. Yeah, I really said that.
Kat, you are right to do what's best for yourself. I'm just sorry that these two women came and caused such confusion.

What is it against the bingo? Are there cash prizes that's unlawful unless some permit is granted?

Did you get your trunk emptied yet of all its photos? That's nice of you to give the trunk to your aide. I'm sure it made her very happy.
 
Kat, you are right to do what's best for yourself. I'm just sorry that these two women came and caused such confusion.

What is it against the bingo? Are there cash prizes that's unlawful unless some permit is granted?

Did you get your trunk emptied yet of all its photos? That's nice of you to give the trunk to your aide. I'm sure it made her very happy.
Our Bingo game is really just a social thing. No money or prizes involved. Mainly just 7-8 people that usually go. My feelings on the Bingo game is that it helps people to use their brains and eyes to have to look at those cards for the numbers. One lady is 96 years old and she especially enjoyed this Bingo game. Never missed it.

No, about my trunk. I have been working on it all week. It might take awhile. But I have made a big dent in it.
 
I get what you are saying, community living can be intrusive and difficult. Having lived in the salivation army home for young woman and an army barracks, I find it similar to what you are experiencing. The apartment I live in now has lots of green spaces and no community set up so you can socialize or not which I like.

With all the stress I am under now, I am hitting sweets and carbs a lot. Can feel my A1C climbing higher and higher. 😢
I can pretty much keep to myself here most of the time. The socialization thing is just not that important to me. But it is to the others and I have become kind of close to those friends. We do not need the activities to stay friends though. Two of the ladies live right across the hall from me.

I realize one neighbor who has lived here a very long time, 20 years or more, who is 96, never goes to any of the activities. She goes out almost daily to who knows where. Sometimes on her scooter. Sometimes with her son-in-law. Sometimes on the bus. She will be gone all day. Happiest lady you ever met. I love hearing her laugh!

Every single time I eat high carb foods, especially sweets, I do not feel good at all. It is almost immediate. So far I have not been diagnosed with diabetes but it is always in my mind to prevent it. So need to get back on the wagon.........and stay on it.
 
Today has been pretty quiet for me. Early this morning, Sonny called me to say he took his three dogs with him in the car and drove a few miles from his house. There was a tornado warning and he said the wind was loud and he thought he better get out of dodge. I think that is sweet that he took all three dogs. Chichi was his mother's Chihuahua and VERY stubborn. She does not like to go in the car. I asked him what she did when he put her in it and he said she went way under the seat.

Then when he went back home it was pouring and she would not come out of the car. Finally he got her out and put her down and she went under his race car trailer. So he went inside and about 10 minutes later she was at the door. I can just see her, grumbling about her owner.
 
I can't wait to get this month over with. Just want to get on with life. It always feels like you put your life on hold for November and December. At least my Christmas holiday is simpler now. No presents to buy. I just have to buy cards to pass out to the others in the building. My son doesn't even like to come to dinner for it now. So that is fine with me. Probably if Sonny was not in my life it would be just a day like any other day. But he likes to make a big thing over holidays though not as much as three years ago. I think his health has slowed him down.

Tonight I am not really tired. Not like usual. I am working on those pictures. Putting them in albums. The ones I am keeping. I am throwing out a bunch. Figure if I am not tired I may as well do something useful. I think the prospect of having more open space in my apartment is giving me the energy to keep working on this right now.

Rabbit likes it that I am still up. Usually I am watching videos from my recliner by now but I wanted to do a few more piles of pictures. So he is over here and pretty active. He should be, he slept all day.
 
Well, I didn't know this but it seems that our manager had our stuff removed from the cupboard and we thought it was stolen. She did this on purpose. Instead of doing her job as a manager, she is trying to cause stress to certain tenants. And two of them are going through some very tough health problems and really don't need this at this time. But who is going to speak up? None of us, because we do not want to be evicted or targeted by her.

We have decided to have the coffee hour in my neighbor's apartment next time. I think it will be nicer and we can keep it small.
The manager huh?

She must have a screw loose somewhere.... deliberately trying to cause stress to certain tenants.

I think you're wise to keep a low profile. Hope you have a good time at your next coffee meeting at the neighbor's place.

You deserve some fun.
 
Today I was determined to not be on the internet too much. Instead I worked on transferring photos from my old external hard drive into the new one. This is the first time since I got the new laptop that I have worked on it. You know I think the problem was the old laptop all along. It works good with this new computer. I am still transferring them because this old hard drive is old and big. I worry about it dying on me. The new one is the size of a deck of cards.

The best part was how fast this laptop is compared to the old one. This is a gaming computer, even though I do not do games. I was happy to see some of those old pictures.

My friend came over today and brought carrots for Rabbit. Had a nice visit even though I see her almost daily. She lives down the hall. Now I am making pork chops in the Instant Pot and will eat after I clean my bunny's cage. Rained pretty much most of the day.
 
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Anti-ageing creams,
pills and potions,
anti-ageing masks,
scrubs and lotions,
put them on your skin,
to smooth away the years,
pat around your eyes,
your neck up to your ears.

And don’t forget your hands,
they will give the game away,
they show the years you’ve toiled,
they must be hid away.

Keep your body trim,
and the skin must stay elastic,
if you’ve worshipped too much sun,
you can always add some plastic,
but don’t look too ‘worked on’,
because that’s not seen as right,
your youth should be all natural,
you must fight the ageing fight.

Or

You could just go get older,
with the lines this life has carved,
the years you laughed and lived,
the years you did not starve.

Ageing is not something,
that we women should avoid,
it’s a gift of time and years,
that not all of us enjoy.

And Mother Nature knows,
the beauty of the years,
she paints us all with love,
If only we could see.

There’s wisdom in these wrinkles,
there’s starlight in our hair,
there’s evidence of growth and love,
the stories we can share.

So join me in our ageing,
let’s love the skin we’re in,
protect it, feed it, help it sure,
but let the ageing win.

Because here’s a little secret,
if you want to look alive,
acceptance of your journey,
will see your body thrive.

~Donna Ashworth
 
Today I placed my second order using Instacart at Tops. It was last Sunday that I used it for the first time. I got the same shopper so she knows me now. I ordered it around 12:30 and it was delivered about a half hour later. It helps that I live close to Tops and that my shopper knows where I live.

Now I need to find a new hay person that can delivery one bale of "horse hay" to my building. Not many people want to sell one bale at a time. But I am trying to figure out how to be independent. I am afraid Sonny may not be able to do all these things for me in the near future. This morning he seemed irritable on the phone and that is not like him. He has slowed down on how much time he comes here or even spends with his family. So I am preparing.

I fixed breakfast and now have to take my garbage out to the dumpster. I figure that makes the second time I walked down there today. Not sure if it would count as exercise because I use the walker. I don't stop though, walk pretty fast for using a walker. At least I am moving.
 
Today I placed my second order using Instacart at Tops. It was last Sunday that I used it for the first time. I got the same shopper so she knows me now. I ordered it around 12:30 and it was delivered about a half hour later. It helps that I live close to Tops and that my shopper knows where I live.

Now I need to find a new hay person that can delivery one bale of "horse hay" to my building. Not many people want to sell one bale at a time. But I am trying to figure out how to be independent. I am afraid Sonny may not be able to do all these things for me in the near future. This morning he seemed irritable on the phone and that is not like him. He has slowed down on how much time he comes here or even spends with his family. So I am preparing.

I fixed breakfast and now have to take my garbage out to the dumpster. I figure that makes the second time I walked down there today. Not sure if it would count as exercise because I use the walker. I don't stop though, walk pretty fast for using a walker. At least I am moving.
Might just be the holidays-lots of people get grumpy around the holidays
 
@katlupe maybe you already know this but they sell all kinds of rabbit hay and grasses and things like that at chewy.com and also at Amazon. I don't know anything about rabbit food or hay or prices. Maybe it's too expensive but I thought in case you weren't aware, I'd let you know. t would be nice to have it delivered.
https://www.chewy.com/b/rabbit-10850?nav-submit-button=&ref=searchRedirect&ref-query=Rabbit
I do know this and have purchased it in the past. But it is not like fresh local hay. I buy two small bags each month one of oat hay and one of meadow or orchard grass for the variety in his diet on Amazon. He likes it but not exclusively.

A rabbit really needs that local hay from a farmer that has some weeds in it for their digestive system. I saw the difference when I bought that other hay for him. He is normally really eager to get in his cage when I first change it to start eating it. Not so much with that hay. Kind of like straw if know what I mean, yet it was Timothy, which is what he eats. I know I can find it around here. This is farm country.
 
Might just be the holidays-lots of people get grumpy around the holidays
Yeah, like me!

No with Sonny, I think it is his health issues. He seems depressed about not being able to do all the stuff he used to do. He falls asleep when he is here watching a movie. I worry about him but I can't make him do what I think he should be doing.
 
I do know this and have purchased it in the past. But it is not like fresh local hay. I buy two small bags each month one of oat hay and one of meadow or orchard grass for the variety in his diet on Amazon. He likes it but not exclusively.

A rabbit really needs that local hay from a farmer that has some weeds in it for their digestive system. I saw the difference when I bought that other hay for him. He is normally really eager to get in his cage when I first change it to start eating it. Not so much with that hay. Kind of like straw if know what I mean, yet it was Timothy, which is what he eats. I know I can find it around here. This is farm country.
Interesting!
 
One thing that has usually caused me to eat foods that I KNOW I shouldn't eat........like sugar in products like ice cream.....yes, especially ice cream for me. But also some candy bars and cookies. I am particular about which ones I like so if a store does not have the flavor or brand I like, I skip it. If it does though......I might buy two!

It is hard when you see others eating those products you love but have not been eating. Doesn't take much to take a little and then more. The one thing that I meant to say in the first paragraph was that if I don't eat before I go shopping or somewhere that food is being served that is what will cause me to eat whatever. Then in a few hours I do not feel very good. Really bad if I eat certain foods.

I think that is one reason I like living alone and being alone. I can eat the way I need to eat. It appears that even if people love you they do not want you to eat different from them. Why? When I lived with my husband, he was a big eater and was not ever overweight at all. In fact, I could see his ribs and he ate a lot. If he went to the store he always bought sweets for himself and ate them on the way home because I was not eating them. That was okay with me. But he also put temptation in my path every time.

Sometimes I would order low carb foods online and I didn't always have the money for it so would save it up to place an order. I had those low carb items in the pantry and he'd ask if he could eat them. Not just one or two. Usually ALL of them! Yet he is the one who controlled our money and bills and went to the store so why couldn't he buy something that he would not eat as soon as he got it? Who knows. Maybe now that he is alone he has to do that due to money.

Right now, I feel good as I have been eating low carbs/keto food only. Soon I have to contend with TWO Thanksgiving dinners. One this Friday, I think. In our community room. If we can't have it due to the manager that will be okay with me. And on Thanksgiving Day......with Sonny. I will eat those dinners but go back to low carbs as I do not expect to have any leftovers of my own.
 
I had my yearly apartment inspection today. Went very well. I am down for a new toilet (Yah!), regrouting the tiles in my shower, a transition strip between the kitchen and bathroom, fixing the bathroom night light (so it will finally work!) and light bulbs in the kitchen. He fixed my blinds while he was here and tested my smoke alarm (I could have told him it worked because last time I used the toaster I set it off!).

Then my neighbor who lives across the hall had trouble with her phone and I helped her get a hold of Frontier on my phone. It is for a landline and the tech will be coming here tomorrow to fix it for her. She cannot call out on it at all. After we got that taken care, I went to my other neighbor's to take her one of those Memory Activity books for adults I bought her. I got one for her and one for me on Amazon. She was surprised.

I signed up for the Thanksgiving Dinner that WILL be in the Community Room on Friday. I signed up for cranberry sauce and dinner rolls. Quite frankly, I just don't have it in me to cook something so this is a traditional Thanksgiving dinner side. I can't wait to get through these dinner things.

Now it is time for me to clean my bunny's cage.
 
Sonny's new dog, Cinnamon is no longer new. Nope, she owns not only his house, his chair, his bed and his car..........but his heart! There is nothing he won't do for that dog. If we are going shopping and he expects to be gone long, he will take her for a drive for a couple of miles to satisfy her while he gone. She really enjoys watching his television. Here she is watching the cooking channel! He tried to get her to look at him for the picture, but he said she glanced at him and then back to her program. I told him next time to put the remote near her paw for the picture.

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Sonny's new dog, Cinnamon is no longer new. Nope, she owns not only his house, his chair, his bed and his car..........but his heart! There is nothing he won't do for that dog. If we are going shopping and he expects to be gone long, he will take her for a drive for a couple of miles to satisfy her while he gone. She really enjoys watching his television. Here she is watching the cooking channel! He tried to get her to look at him for the picture, but he said she glanced at him and then back to her program. I told him next time to put the remote near her paw for the picture.

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OH,that dog is so adorable watching her cooking shows!

So dinner is back on at the community room. Eh, just eat turkey and gravy; maybe some pickles and salad.
 
Does Rabbit drink coffee?
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OH,that dog is so adorable watching her cooking shows!

So dinner is back on at the community room. Eh, just eat turkey and gravy; maybe some pickles and salad.
I have made the decision to eat the meal for that meal only. They usually give you a lot of leftovers to bring home and I will give mine to Jeff (my son). I will enjoy it and the company but not over do it.
 


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