Agoraphobia is creeping up on me. I've always been a homebody and it's getting much worse.
Lately every time I leave the house it becomes a huge stressful event. I've already talked about getting confused at the polls early last month. Then it was a few other things. I decided not to go to my one really social party of the year, my book club's Christmas party, because it all seems so overwhelming.
I planned to get things done so I could relax in December. I did a deep cleaning of the whole house and decorated and I did a ton of baking. I thought things were going pretty well, but then yesterday I left the house alone for the first time since the voting ordeal. I just went to the store for some produce so we could have a few much needed salads. The shopping only took about ten minutes, but, oh no, all the registers were closed so I had to go through the self-check. It took forty minutes and help had to come five times. I was almost in tears. I'm considering having groceries delivered.
So today I returned my almost due library book so I wouldn't have to leave the house again for the rest of the year. I just checked e-mail and the library sent me a notice saying they had renewed the book for me. The one I had just returned. Now, I don't know what they did with the book. A few months ago they misfiled a book I had returned and it was on my account as over due for three months before they found it. If I don't have the library I really have nothing to leave the house for.
I'm freaking out at the thought of having to go back there and try to explain things. My ability to handle the unexpected has dropped to zero.
Lately every time I leave the house it becomes a huge stressful event. I've already talked about getting confused at the polls early last month. Then it was a few other things. I decided not to go to my one really social party of the year, my book club's Christmas party, because it all seems so overwhelming.
I planned to get things done so I could relax in December. I did a deep cleaning of the whole house and decorated and I did a ton of baking. I thought things were going pretty well, but then yesterday I left the house alone for the first time since the voting ordeal. I just went to the store for some produce so we could have a few much needed salads. The shopping only took about ten minutes, but, oh no, all the registers were closed so I had to go through the self-check. It took forty minutes and help had to come five times. I was almost in tears. I'm considering having groceries delivered.
So today I returned my almost due library book so I wouldn't have to leave the house again for the rest of the year. I just checked e-mail and the library sent me a notice saying they had renewed the book for me. The one I had just returned. Now, I don't know what they did with the book. A few months ago they misfiled a book I had returned and it was on my account as over due for three months before they found it. If I don't have the library I really have nothing to leave the house for.
I'm freaking out at the thought of having to go back there and try to explain things. My ability to handle the unexpected has dropped to zero.