@Sawfish, you stated I made a reply that was not warranted, an air of assuredness. I replied. My question is now, after my reply, do you understand where I am coming from?
I am not saying that it is wrong but that people need to stop and think, how will this change my legacy for future generations. It is not a decision that should be taken lightly. Certainly, if there is no other choice, I don't want anyone to suffer during the act they choose. So many try, then wind up still alive, but with more severe problems that are not only hard on them but there families as well. I hope that the decision to end one's life will be made available, under certain circumstances in our world. In the end, it comes down to the individual, the doctor and the families to all agree that it is the best course for all.
I hope you understand, I am not self assured. I do not say things lightly. I live in fear and anxiety everyday. I wish I could give you an example that could help you understand. I will try this one, you accidently drive on to a railway track, you can see the train coming but you can't get out of the car. You are locked in a car you can't escape, the train is coming, you hold your breath, waiting for impact. This is where I live every day. It is not pleasant.
The only time I have been without that terror is when I met my husband. We were both just fifteen years old. He promised he would keep me safe and he did. I lived a normal full life only because of him. Since he has passed, our parents have passed. The son grown and married with a family of his own. I am alone, now, I have to rely on my own determination to keep going. The fear, the terror has returned. I live with it everyday, even when I think it would be better to take my life, I know I will not. There are people that suffer so much more than I.
I do not know you well yet. I do not know if you are married, divorced, widowed. I do not yet know any of those things you have or what you have been through. I am just asking for you to reply, to accept I was not having a tone and I gave a response that is warranted from my expericience. Yes, my feelings were hurt, you have painted a picture of me that does not fit at all.