I'm so sorry for your losses. Grief has always been hard for me and I am dealing with it too.Mixed feelings today. Had good visit with my GP yesterday. Physically doing well, despite usual aches/pains aging has brought.
Emotionally dealing with grief. Long time (15+ years) cyber friend died this week. Once initial shock wore off, and tears stopped i realized (again--as i did after each of my 2 deceased older sister died in the last decade) that i will be dealing with this repeatedly in coming years.
Between my own age and the fact that while i have younger friends (tho youth never a guarantee) most of that group i knew from Eons that migrated to FB are within a decade of my age one way or the other, so it is to be expected.
But i've been meditating daily since January and more times per day as the months have passed and everything tends become more manageable for me when i'm doing that. Not that i don't have moments of frustration or grief---but let myself feel them fully, consider what i CAN do to remedy or relieve the situational stress and then let the bad feelings pass.
Meditation has been helpful for a me too. Helps me relax and sleep

Thanks for sharing.