The hits keep on coming. MAKE IT STOP

Ronni

Ronni

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William is my son in law. I’ve known him and his family since 1994 when we first moved to Nashville. He and his brothers, and my boys, played together all the time. William and Paige married in 2010.

His sister Alicia, who was also Paige’s best friend and Matron of Honor at her wedding, was hit by a train and killed on Thursday. She has 3 young children.

William’s side of the family is very dysfunctional. For many years when she was young, Alicia spent days at a time, sometimes weeks at a time at our house to escape the craziness. They met when Paige was 5, when we first moved to Nashville.

You may remember I posted about a year ago that William’s youngest brother Chris died from an overdose. We believe Alicia was doing drugs too, and that somehow contributed to her grisly death.

This is just all too much. 3 deaths of three loved ones in a year. I am trying so hard to support William and Paige in their grief and loss when I am barely functional myself.

Please send healing vibes, prayers, good mojo, to our very broken family.
 

@Ronni My condolences to you and your family, may Alicia rest peacefully. 💜

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(((Ronni)))
I didn't tell you this at the time but will now. The pictures you recently posted of you and Ron on a trip? You looked stunned, and shocked which showed through to me so clearly. I'm really worried about you.

Now, with this recent event I'm even more concerned. I don't know what to say to you, as these horrible things are happening. Just that I really care. (((Ronni)))
 
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The New Year was not gentle. My fingers were crossed but it took from me and mine after all.

This last 2 months has broken me. I didn’t think anything could, having endured more than my fair share over the years. My endurance was tested, my hubris was exposed, and I failed.

Hold space for me, because I’ve none.
Give me a soft place, because mine is destroyed.
Be present on my behalf because I can’t be.
Center me because I’m both everywhere and nowhere all at once.
Listen to understand, and not judge.
Be silent because the noise in my head is overwhelming.
Forgive me because I’m broken

If I can at any time in the future manage my grief enough to become functional, I will do the same for you if you ever need it. I will be your staunchest ally because my support will have been forged in the fire of my mother-grief, and that’s a pain that can’t ever be forgotten.
 
I’m drowning here. Seriously I can’t keep my head above water.

Alicia’s service is next Saturday. I haven’t even been able to plan Devin’s. I can’t….I don’t know how to even be, right now.

How am I supposed to survive this?

What I keep thinking is an immense gratitude that I’m old. I have more time behind me than I have in front of me, so that I don’t have to endure this too much longer.

My kids would be appalled if they knew this was what I was thinking. I can’t help it. I just want some relief.

I will continue to exist because of them. But all I want is to gladly and with great relief follow my son.
 
Ronni said:
I’m drowning here. Seriously I can’t keep my head above water.

Alicia’s service is next Saturday. I haven’t even been able to plan Devin’s. I can’t….I don’t know how to even be, right now.

How am I supposed to survive this?

What I keep thinking is an immense gratitude that I’m old. I have more time behind me than I have in front of me, so that I don’t have to endure this too much longer.

My kids would be appalled if they knew this was what I was thinking. I can’t help it. I just want some relief.

I will continue to exist because of them. But all I want is to gladly and with great relief follow my son.
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Ronni, we love you and care about you, please hang in there.

Lean on your hubby, he cares about you very much. I can't imagine what you're going through, but you are a good person and have a good life now and loving family.

Sending you strength, hope, love and sincere hugs my friend.

Please take care, we are all very worried about you. Stay positive as possible, some light will shine through for you, even through the smallest crack. We are behind you all the way, sweet lady. Please keep posting here, we wish you only the best in this painful situation. 🧡
 
Ronni said:
William is my son in law. I’ve known him and his family since 1994 when we first moved to Nashville. He and his brothers, and my boys, played together all the time. William and Paige married in 2010.

His sister Alicia, who was also Paige’s best friend and Matron of Honor at her wedding, was hit by a train and killed on Thursday. She has 3 young children.

William’s side of the family is very dysfunctional. For many years when she was young, Alicia spent days at a time, sometimes weeks at a time at our house to escape the craziness. They met when Paige was 5, when we first moved to Nashville.

You may remember I posted about a year ago that William’s youngest brother Chris died from an overdose. We believe Alicia was doing drugs too, and that somehow contributed to her grisly death.

This is just all too much. 3 deaths of three loved ones in a year. I am trying so hard to support William and Paige in their grief and loss when I am barely functional myself.

Please send healing vibes, prayers, good mojo, to our very broken family.
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Sent out for you and your family. My prayers and healing vibes.❤️
 

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