To All of You Suffering Through the holidays

I am used to not feeling "Christmasy" anymore. In fact, have been for more than a few years now. I decorated my door mainly for the others in my apartment building. They all got into it so I didn't like my door being the only bare one. That and giving cards to everyone here in my building was about as far as I went. I don't feel sad because my past Christmases were a lot of work for me. Now just ice cream and steak! Easy day for me. My son lives upstairs but he doesn't do anything for Christmas either and told me he likes it that way.
 

I don't really look forward to the Christmas season anymore. As you get older, there are less family members still alive. You can't help but think back to all of those Christmas seasons of the past when there were grandparents, uncles, aunts, cousins, and your own immediate family members that you saw and exchanged presents with.

I always volunteer to work Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, at the nursing home where I work. I enjoy it and I'm with older people who have even less family members left. We keep each other company.
 
sometimesI have imagined families trying to do things perfectly right and loving in a way they haven't managed to all year around and still stuffing it up in the end - like the stuffing in the turkey. Someone or two or three always gets 'pissed' and then blurts out something they shouldn't have - someone gets given an inappropriate present by an inconsiderate other and then there's aways an argument over which program to watch on TV? - What's the real point of it and did anyone go to church today very early on or midnigh mass last night?

I have just re-watched an older "foreign correspondent" ozzie program about an attempt to regenerate life in old mountain villages of Sicily - this cliff hanging homes - no attached gardens are sold for 1 euro with an agreement that 5000 minimum will be spent on renovations. It seems to be working already and the remaining olders who will never move but die there are welcoming them withopen arms. This was a real Xmas story for me!
 

Thanks for the thread. I don't want to compare troubles because everyone has different ones and everyone has a right to feel how they feel.

I was already braced to hate Christmas and trying my best to survive it when I found my refrigerator/freezer is broken. I spent the day cleaning it out. That wasn't in the plan.
Yikes, not a good type of distraction for your day.
Here at the rehab facility ,
There was a major fire alarm near midnight. Very cold outdoors and did not know it was a drill. Very few staff were present due to holiday.
I'd just gotten to sleep, of course.:rolleyes:
 
@Blessed

"..... exhausted in your grief. "

It's a good description.
I know the feeling.

And you still feel for others as well.

Sending a hug.

How are your dogs, today?
 
Know that you are not alone. So many of us are suffering just like you. Whether you are dealing with loss, health issues, financial issues, personal issues or any hard times. This year has been especially hard for me and now it is even harder because of what is going on in my life now. I won't go into it now but it's one of the hardest times of my life. And I know others I know don't know what is going on. Anyways, I'm sorry for whatever you are going through and hope better times will come back to you. Wishing you peace and adding my love. 💜🌹

I hope you will feel at home to post about your troubles this holiday season. People do care, those with hearts, that is. I care. Even if you post nothing there is always hope for you.


Thank you Ruthanne, most consuming to me is the loss of my loving husband of fifty years. May my love rest peacefully. Every day is filled with thoughts. memories and tears, I miss him so much.

I hope you have the strength to make it through all the things which are causing you to suffer this year and holiday season, and I hope things get better in the new year. Sending you light, love and hugs. ☮️
 
I am used to not feeling "Christmasy" anymore. In fact, have been for more than a few years now. I decorated my door mainly for the others in my apartment building. They all got into it so I didn't like my door being the only bare one. That and giving cards to everyone here in my building was about as far as I went. I don't feel sad because my past Christmases were a lot of work for me. Now just ice cream and steak! Easy day for me. My son lives upstairs but he doesn't do anything for Christmas either and told me he likes it that way.
I never was into the holiday celebrations very much, so for me this year, that's a plus. I'm making myself a lamb chop, mashed potatoes with butter and oven roasted Brussel's sprouts, vanilla ice cream will be dessert. Nice you have your son living upstairs. 💙
 
I never was into the holiday celebrations very much, so for me this year, that's a plus. I'm making myself a lamb chop, mashed potatoes with butter and oven roasted Brussel's sprouts, vanilla ice cream will be dessert. Nice you have your son living upstairs. 💙
Sounds delicious.
It's nice to hear about.
Enjoy that. ❤️
 
I never was into the holiday celebrations very much, so for me this year, that's a plus. I'm making myself a lamb chop, mashed potatoes with butter and oven roasted Brussel's sprouts, vanilla ice cream will be dessert. Nice you have your son living upstairs. 💙
It is nice he is upstairs and also nice that he does not cause me pressure over Christmas. Your meal sounds really good. I hope you enjoy your day!
 
To answer the OP, my suffering is the same as it has been for a few years. It doesn't change because of Christmas or the New Year coming. Mentally, I get more disgusted with people this time of year for several reasons. This year it seemed lots of rude people, more than years before. Maybe I am just getting more intolerant.

Example was two days ago, I decided to get my hair cut and my favorite salon is a no appointment place where you wait in line outside in the cold or heat depending on the season. It was 28 degrees F and I knew I would have to wait at least 15 minutes, so I went 20 minutes early. No one was standing by the door, but as I was getting near the designated line area, one guy gets out of his car and runs to beat me and be first in line.

I fell in behind Mr. I'm gonna be first and then quickly others exited their cars and fell in line. When the manager gal arrived and went in, locking the door behind her, another burly guy got out of his pickup and told the guy first in line that he was first. After a hostile exchange full of sexually abusive language, with the mother behind me covering her young sons ears, I told Mr. Burly Sissy that the rules of the salon are to take customers as they are lined up. If you sit in your warm pickup, then you fall in line behind those that braved the cold.

Anyway he barged in and the manager told him he would have to wait 2 hours because of all that were ahead of him. He stormed out after calling her a female dog, Mr. Jog from car to be first, took seat as the first and chose my hair dresser. This made me wait another 20 minutes since I use the same hairdresser. About half way through Mr. Jogs haircut, Mr. No wait, comes in, and goes to the guy that was 1st and starts arguing with him and telling him his haircut was over and meet him outside to settle the matter and telling the dresser she was not fair.

The other dresser gets her cell and starts dialing the cops, saying loudly what she was doing. The jerk leaves. While getting my haircut he came in again to apologize for using bad language in front of children, since it was Christmas time. He left and as I was paying the phone rang and after a brief listen, the dresser says, "Hell NO!," and slams down the phone. She says Mr. Jerk has cooled off and wants to come in that afternoon. Everyone got a good laugh.

Anyway, I noticed when I went to the pharmacy that the line was 22 long and the clerks were moving like turtles, plus some old lady (around my age of 75 hahaha) was arguing with the pharmacist about her prescription. He was trying to explain her doctor changed it, not him. Then a couple of non English speaking folks cut in line. The bilingual clerk had to come and explain to them that they had to wait in line. They got mad and left.

Tis the season for short tempers and rude people it seems. I wish you all relief from both physical and mental pain. As we age, it seems to me that living in the moment is more important than ever. Don't let it build and take out your pain, grief, and disappointment on others, but share with others that will understand, and find peace in that we care.

May your New Year be one of happiness and content.
 
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Gosh, where do you live, @SamiD? Crowds for a hair salon? 22 on line waiting for pharmacy? I live in NYC and have never experienced that. Maybe there is only one salon or pharmacy where you live?
 
And some have more than one of those issues varying years, or just a somewhat codependent relationship with the holiday due to our history with it. Some horrible memories and some wonderful ones associated with it.

Thinking about it i realized i first posted reminders like this around/about Mothers' Day one year when i saw some people jump down the throat of another person who tactfully said "I'm happy for you that you have a mother you treasure, but some Mom's are not so great." I spoke in support of that comment on that thread and then went and made a post on my page about it.
 
Gosh, where do you live, @SamiD? Crowds for a hair salon? 22 on line waiting for pharmacy? I live in NYC and have never experienced that. Maybe there is only one salon or pharmacy where you live?
Rural west coast area of about 40K residents. We have only six good hairdressers and only three pharmacy's. The salon I go to, is the only one offering senior and child discounts. I go because I have gone to the same hairdresser for years and before the other place she worked shut down. Most people that go are seniors and few leave a tip. I tip the discount plus 25%. I don't go to save money, but get my hair cut the way I want it. The two guys that got in a fight, were both in their early 60s.
 
Thanks Mark most me do not get how I feel, it would have been better if he would have run off with a 25yr old blonde, his son would have still had his Dad, to lose his Dad was something to a job is something I can just can't accept.
Men of that generation were raised to believe that supporting a family was their main responsibility. My kid’s dad would go in really sick, when his back was hurting so bad he could hardly walk, etc. Also I wonder if he was in denial and didn’t go to the doctor because he was afraid they would find something. Lots of people react like that if they don’t feel well.

It would be good for you to work on forgiveness. Holding anger is hurting yourself. A few times in my life when things were rough I went to therapy and it helped me immensely. I hope you find some peace.
 
Thinking of you today, Ruthanne, and others burdened by this day.

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I don't really look forward to the Christmas season anymore. As you get older, there are less family members still alive. You can't help but think back to all of those Christmas seasons of the past when there were grandparents, uncles, aunts, cousins, and your own immediate family members that you saw and exchanged presents with.

I always volunteer to work Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, at the nursing home where I work. I enjoy it and I'm with older people who have even less family members left. We keep each other company.
Oh yes I can sure relate about relatives who have passed and even also those who have been gone a very long time. Christmas really hasn't been the same for many years. So now it's just me and my sweet girl Suzy dog 🐕. She's great company!

I may volunteer one day too. It's a good way to give back. Bless you for that!
 
To answer the OP, my suffering is the same as it has been for a few years. It doesn't change because of Christmas or the New Year coming. Mentally, I get more disgusted with people this time of year for several reasons. This year it seemed lots of rude people, more than years before. Maybe I am just getting more intolerant.

Example was two days ago, I decided to get my hair cut and my favorite salon is a no appointment place where you wait in line outside in the cold or heat depending on the season. It was 28 degrees F and I knew I would have to wait at least 15 minutes, so I went 20 minutes early. No one was standing by the door, but as I was getting near the designated line area, one guy gets out of his car and runs to beat me and be first in line.

I fell in behind Mr. I'm gonna be first and then quickly others exited their cars and fell in line. When the manager gal arrived and went in, locking the door behind her, another burly guy got out of his pickup and told the guy first in line that he was first. After a hostile exchange full of sexually abusive language, with the mother behind me covering her young sons ears, I told Mr. Burly Sissy that the rules of the salon are to take customers as they are lined up. If you sit in your warm pickup, then you fall in line behind those that braved the cold.

Anyway he barged in and the manager told him he would have to wait 2 hours because of all that were ahead of him. He stormed out after calling her a female dog, Mr. Jog from car to be first, took seat as the first and chose my hair dresser. This made me wait another 20 minutes since I use the same hairdresser. About half way through Mr. Jogs haircut, Mr. No wait, comes in, and goes to the guy that was 1st and starts arguing with him and telling him his haircut was over and meet him outside to settle the matter and telling the dresser she was not fair.

The other dresser gets her cell and starts dialing the cops, saying loudly what she was doing. The jerk leaves. While getting my haircut he came in again to apologize for using bad language in front of children, since it was Christmas time. He left and as I was paying the phone rang and after a brief listen, the dresser says, "Hell NO!," and slams down the phone. She says Mr. Jerk has cooled off and wants to come in that afternoon. Everyone got a good laugh.

Anyway, I noticed when I went to the pharmacy that the line was 22 long and the clerks were moving like turtles, plus some old lady (around my age of 75 hahaha) was arguing with the pharmacist about her prescription. He was trying to explain her doctor changed it, not him. Then a couple of non English speaking folks cut in line. The bilingual clerk had to come and explain to them that they had to wait in line. They got mad and left.

Tis the season for short tempers and rude people it seems. I wish you all relief from both physical and mental pain. As we age, it seems to me that living in the moment is more important than ever. Don't let it build and take out your pain, grief, and disappointment on others, but share with others that will understand, and find peace in that we care.

May your New Year be one of happiness and content.
Thank you for sharing and that sure was an unpleasant time there at the hairdresser 's. I probably would have left . That's the reason I don't socialize much besides online and texting. Sorry you had such a a depressing time of it there. I hope you find some peace 🕊️ today!💜
 
Thank you Ruthanne, most consuming to me is the loss of my loving husband of fifty years. May my love rest peacefully. Every day is filled with thoughts. memories and tears, I miss him so much.

I hope you have the strength to make it through all the things which are causing you to suffer this year and holiday season, and I hope things get better in the new year. Sending you light, love and hugs. ☮️
Thank you @SeaBreeze I know how much you love your dear husband and how much he has meant to you. I feel that tears can be healing at times. They release a chemical that we store from feeling deep hurt. So they help heal us.

Oh your dinner sounds great! Enjoy! Give Loki and Bear and yourself a big hug from me and Suzy ❤️
 

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