Thank you for those kind words. Unfortunately, I would not be able to find things to do that I like to do because the reward centre in my brain is chemically cut off from the rest of my brain, right now. That means that I have no capacity to feel pleasure of any form. Last year, I tried to deny that the anhedonia was even there, but, in the end, I had to admit to it and start trying to figure out what to do, next, about it. In that one stupid move made by a doctor in a hospital (who is still working there, by the way), I lost...
I've been there, but I try to remember that faith is a commitment which remains steadfast, regardless of changing circumstances or feelings.
When I try to locate my Faith, I feel nothing. What can I do to change that? I'm feeling no Faith when I reach deep down inside mysef...it's just this barren wasteland inside me. Losing the feelings I got from Faith is the worst of all of the list of things that seemed to just vanish from my mind/brain when this terrible condition descended upon me. If I can't feel, I can't feel.
I guess this post will seem much like the ones i wrote before - but I'll never forget when a pastor once told me that we cannot base our faith on feelings. We may feel on top of the world one day, at the bottom the next day. It's those times we most need our faith.
I can honestly say that, right now, I am more alone than I have ever been/felt in my entire life! I never thought that I would ever be this alone, lonely and isolated! I am feeling so hopeless, I don't even know what to do about it! My very last phone friend dumped me around 6 weeks ago, now, and that was it...all the humans in my life ran out on that day! How can a person get this low?
How could I ever be stupid enough to let myself become this isolated and cut off from other humans, like this. No friends, no family, no visitors and agoraphobia keeping me in the house - at the present time. I didn't even think that this state could come about...how naive is that?
I know you can't help me! But, there was nowhere else that I could think of where people had been kind enough to me to see that I am being totally sincere! I've never been this far down the scale of human contact!
Thank you, if you read this far!
Unfortunately, I don't know how to send private messages while here. When I click on somebody's name, I can find nothing that enables me to send them a private message.Hey, Ian.
I was alone for a long period of time, but unlike you I loved it.
However, that doesn't help in your situation. I don't know how mobile you are, what your interests include, and anything about you at all, really - but maybe think about those things.
Of course, Agoraphobia is going to be a huge issue, are you getting - or have you had - any help with it?
And on a personal level - if you need someone to email back and forth with, then PM me and I'll try and oblige. We're in a new era, and we're no longer ever truly alone.
I've no idea what to say, or think. I've certainly no idea what to do. I feel nothing where Faith used to be. I can't describe it any other way, I'm sorry. No offence to anybody who has a Faith...I just...don't know what to do.
I think you have to wait for a while before the site allows you to send private messages.
It should say 'start conversation.'
Dear Heavenly Father, when Ian feels lost and overwhelmed, surround him with Your love and peace. Create in him a clean heart and renew a right spirit within him. Help him to feel held, seen, and safe. Help him to trust that even in silence, You are with Ian. Amen
Oh, okay. I'll try to do that. Thanks, VJB!Huh, seems you're not able.
You know what you must do now then - take a look around the board, post your own thoughts and ideas in relevant threads, and before long you'll be sick of me.
you have to be a member here for a certain amount of time, or have a certain amount of posts under your belt before you can send private messages...
Okay. Thanks, for that.
If you look at the top of your Senior Forums screen, you will see an envelope. If you click on that envelope, you will see at the bottom where it says "Start a new conversation". Click on that, type in the recipients name, put in a title of what you wish to address, then click "start conversation. It's private.
Erm...no. I don't get anywhere to type anything. I think I have to be a member for longer, yet. Does anybody know how long that is?
