Anybody Awake Right Now?

Yeah, I'm awake. 🙄 I remember the good old days when I could sleep for eight to ten hours straight and not even have to get up to pee. Those days are long gone. Good God, this getting old sh!t sucks! 🥴
 

Yes. There is a planet outside my western window. I think it's Jupiter. Saturn? Either one. Looking if I can see meteorites. So far, no. Can't believe woke up for this.
 

Well, here I am again, down the rabbit hole. Almost 4AM, I was finally doing so well. Sleeping at night, being productive during the day. Depression snuck up on me. I think many are restless this time of year, we are always thinking of the past. Our current circumstances are much different,

Where once was a life filled with work, family, adventure has been reduced to days spent alone. Many of us stuck in chronic pain, unable to get around as we would like. I do have chronic pain but I can on the so called good days get around, get things done, I have no right to complain. There are so many so much worse off. I try to remember them, it could be so much worse.

I just want to give everyone hope, we must go a day at a time, keep the faith, the hope. Each day is a gift that should not be wasted. Take you time, get a little done that makes your life happier. It does not take much to make me happy anymore, a good cup of tea, cookies or toast can be a great start to the day!!
 
I guess I'm still not feeling well, that's what woke me up. I may have to miss my grandson two weeks in a row. His other grandparents will watch him. Hope he doesn't forget me. His other grandparents have a townhouse which is their main home upstate a bit but also have studio apt. right near my grandson.

Sometimes I get jealous of them. I can't help it. They have each other plus spendable income. They have more access to grandson. I try hard to work solo on my pettiness.

I have cats. He loves the cats.
 
Pepper said:
So I heard this crash and.......
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I have a very modest Xmas, Chanukkah, New Year spot and this is my tree:
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Which I just had to redecorate due to cat mischief. They are so excited to have me up with them!


Pepper said:
I know they are loving their first Christmas in their forever home with their new Mom!! I have not put out one decoration even though I promised my grandson I would. He has not been to my house, I figure if the kids ask me to watch him before Christmas I will pull out some things and let him do the decorating.

My dogs are not familiar with all the Christmas stuff so that would be an interesting thing for them. I do remember my other pups in years gone by and the crazy stuff they would do. Chasing the train around the tree, opening their treat gifts during the night. Going around the back of the tree and knocking the whole thing down. Finding said dog hiding in the back bedroom closet.

Oddly enough that dog was a black chow named Bear. He came to us by a friend 35 years ago when he discovered taking care of a dog is hard work. Fast forward, the same friend came to stay with me for a few months when he had to have an amputation of the lower leg. He just fell in love with my little dogs.

After he recovered and went home he decided to get his own dog. A black chow named Bear (of course), This was 2017, Bear was his best friend. When my friend was ill or traveling Bear came to stay with me. Fast forward to April of 2020, this friend called me the day before my birthday. This was our thing, I did not like to celebrate my birthday after my husband died. So friend would call me the day before my birthday.

We talked about an hour, everything was good. Then about 7PM that evening a got a call from a hospital close to his home. I was listed as next of kin. They were calling to inform me he had a cardiac event and did not survive. It was a horror.

He was on the phone with another of our friends when this happened, he could not breathe and needed to call 911. His last words were take care of Bear. By 10pm that night Bear was here in my home with someone who loved him, a place he knew and dogs he was friends with.

It is funny how just a comment from someone you have never met @Pepper takes you back in time. It makes things so much easier when you have suffered loss. It lights a candle in your heart and makes you remember we have all had so much love and so many blessings.
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Pepper said:
I guess I'm still not feeling well, that's what woke me up. I may have to miss my grandson two weeks in a row. His other grandparents will watch him. Hope he doesn't forget me. His other grandparents have a townhouse which is their main home upstate a bit but also have studio apt. right near my grandson.

Sometimes I get jealous of them. I can't help it. They have each other plus spendable income. They have more access to grandson. I try hard to work solo on my pettiness.

I have cats. He loves the cats.
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@Pepper - I love you, you're so freaking honest.

Don't worry. No matter what the other grandparents have or that they're in closer proximity to your grandson and have more access, or that they have more income, he loves you! That's what matters.

I hope you feel better soon. 😘
 
I'm up during the night too. Numerous times. Very weary......:confused:
Had some broth and will try for another while of sleep.

I too, find this time of year even more difficult than the other difficult times.

I like that line on above post, that we are allowed to complain more, here in this thread, because "it is almost Christmas. "
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Well here I am again, still awake. I did sleep in a little but maybe the Melatonin actually helped even though I got up a little groggy. Maybe I should have just gone back to sleep?

Well it is what it is. At least at this hour I can't get into too much trouble.
 
I'm still up. I know many have gone to sleep already. I've had an Upsetting day but am trying to relax now and listen to music 🎵🎶. This time of year is hard enough for some of us let alone the other annoyances that almost always happen.
 
I'm still awake. Some here go to bed around 7 pm and I never do that. Unless it's a nap that is..lol


Got some delivery some boneless chicken wings and onion rings.

Neighbors are still very annoying. I would like to move but it's complicated and would be nearly impossible for me to. So I'm stuck. Oh well, could be worse.
 

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