Marg, Love you like a sister but you and I DO HAVE completely different outlooks on what happens after death.
In my truths, LIFE GOES ON THROUGH ETERNITY. In yours, blackness after death.
There is no way I can convince you of eternal life, all possibilities, expanding consciousness, more and more beginnings,
It would be futile for me to try.
"One convinced against his will,
is of the same opinion still."
I'm saying this to ease your anguish, not to argue philosophy; This is why we must appreciate every moment! It's gone now.
I have to say, your lament brings an ACUTENESS to REALLY CONNECTING, REALLY ENGAGING IN THE MOMENT! Cherish the good times and appreciate the bad times, for lessons are learned.
Don't be sad, my friend. I promise you will have all these moments again! Wonders upon wonders are ahead for you!