I smoked for over 45 years and it helped me relax when I was stressed or had time to spend. I soon became tired of lying to the Doctors when they asked about it. I am not good at lying and when I saw a Vascular Surgeon, he asked me if I smoked. Of course I lied and told him no, not any more. I knew then I HAD to quit. NOT THAT I WANTED to.
So I focused on something else. I thought about the weight I had been gaining, even tho I had been smoking. I looked up recipes, spent a long time shopping and learning new ways of cooking, eating and losing weight. I would weigh myself multiple times a day !
If I needed a "fix" I would chew on whole cloves. I still had dreams that I was smoking and woke up in a sweat.
I quit in 2005, and yes, I still miss it , but now if things go bad ( I am losing my eye sight ) I have a few alcoholic drinks instead....by myself and feel sorry for me, ( cry lots of tears ) about what is happening to me, but I still do not smoke. Simply because it is too damn hard to ever give it up again. You know when it is time, and you do it no matter the hard times that come.
Easy? No, not for me, and I tried 20x or more before this. Wishing you easier times, but it is an internal mind set, dependent on nothing else than your determination and your fierce and singular mind set. .