As far back as I can remember, I've always felt nervous and worried about what the future would be bring. And now that I'm old and terrified of being even older (and especially being in a skilled nursing facility being taken care of by caregivers who possibly hate Boomers--a lot of those younger than us do in fact understandably hate Boomers--), it's even worse.
I wish I had someone to talk to who'd understand--everyone here on SF are great and sympathetic but it'd be nice to have someone IRL too. I did try counseling a few years back when I was trying to deal with taking care of my mother in her final days and my angry, narcississtic sister and told the counselor I was basically looking for a support group but the counselor just correctly told me there were no support groups other than AA and NA around here (and that was before Covid; it's worse now). She also told me I should just go to church. When I told her I was an atheist, she frowned and took a step back from me. So no help there.