Expectations? A question.

i don’t know if my parents had expectation for me, I was too busy trying to gain attention and respect of my father. I stopped everything when I was diagnosed with schizophrenia and although I was not able maintain employment more than a week, social security terminated my benefits, including insurance. On the basis of losing SSDI forever I gave up on employment and education until 2007 when I volunteered at a local library until 3 months later I was gainfully employed again. Social Security passed the Ticket to Work program that allowed increase earning without penalty, I enrolled at a community college and graduated with honors, inducted into Phi Beta Kappa and listed in WHO’s Who of students in colleges and universities.
For 30 years, I removed myself from family and friends largely caused by medication. When I awoke from my stupor, I engaged myself into previous unexplored opportunities that were once unreachable but were soon overcome. I was 54 yrs old when life became interesting, however a different type restriction has made itself evident in a time when i just started; deteriorating robs me of the future I desire.
 

I don’t think I ever met my mother’s expectation, but I eventually realized that it was an impossible task. Ive often thought that peoples first impression of me was that I wasn’t particularly capable or smart. They usually changed their minds.
 
My parents wanted us all to go to college and have careers. They were always very supportive. I just did it in reverse order having 3 kids and married young and when my youngest started school I started college.
 
My parents wanted us all to go to college and have careers. They were always very supportive. I just did it in reverse order having 3 kids and married young and when my youngest started school I started college.

That was my plan also, to marry and have kids first, but life panned out differently.
 


Back
Top