I am new to this forum and really don't know how to start. But, here goes. It took me a long time to jump back into dating again after being hurt and disappointed a few times. I had been married twice and each were divocees a very long time each and both ended with each cheating on me.
I returned to dating after decades of being married and was shocked at what was out there. I thought I found love each time and each time they either cheated on me or found someone else. In fact, I just plain gave up after seeing two of my single friends meet someone each. I tried to get involved with other interests like dancing lessions, joining groups, going back to church..ect. But, there was always something missing.
Most activities others were either partnered up or were couples. Then after four lonely miserable years of being alone, I was ready to try again so once again, I returned to the dating websites and there I met a widower which I have never dated. He lost his wife to cancer three years before we met last March, 2013. He told me that they were married 35 years before she passed away with cancer. He took care of her five years and was raising her only grandson who lost his own mother to cancer when he was only five years old and I respected him for doing that since he had no children of his own.
We had been dating six months when he had a heart attack and had to have open heart surgery and then he started having one health problem and then financial problems. This went on for another six months until he told me to move on. I was so devastated and shocked he would want to push me away while he was going through such a hard time. But, I hung in there until I learned he was back on the dating site we met on chatting to other women. I asked him about this and he denied it and told me that it was his son who was using his profile.
His son, although is disabled has been known to do odd things. He is 27 years old and did not graduate from high school until he was 21 years old and did not learn to drive until he was the same age. He had suffered brain damage when his biological father nearly beat him too death. He is no longer in his life. As a result of knowing all this and being around this boy and has a mind of a 14 year old, I could understand this.
Then a girl friend of mine got on that same dating site I met him on and was sent a message by him and then told me about it. I asked him if his son had been on his computer again because she got a message from his profile and he got mad at me for accusing him after he stated that he was not a member on it. Again, I said alright and dropped the subject and told him I would talk to him later. The following day he dumped some of mine things I left at his house on my front porch while I was at work. When I came home, I tried to call him to find out what happened and why.
He never return my call. He had been suffering from a staph infection and had been under the care of his doctor for two weeks during this time. I have not heard from him since. Since his heart attack last Sept. 2013, he has been bitter and angry and has been gradually pushing himself away from me and this has been going on for the past three months. I thought I met a good, stable and caring man. But, again, I have been hurt badly.
I will be retiring next year and I was looking forward to spending some time with this person. This meant a whole lot to me. Most of my friends are either married or in a relationship now and I am now alone again for the upteeth time in my life. No one I have ever met has been faithful or honest with me. I have tried to find happiness and I am tired of going solo on everything in life. I am getting older and less attractive than I use to be and my health won't be either. I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life. But, I fear I will be now.
I returned to dating after decades of being married and was shocked at what was out there. I thought I found love each time and each time they either cheated on me or found someone else. In fact, I just plain gave up after seeing two of my single friends meet someone each. I tried to get involved with other interests like dancing lessions, joining groups, going back to church..ect. But, there was always something missing.
Most activities others were either partnered up or were couples. Then after four lonely miserable years of being alone, I was ready to try again so once again, I returned to the dating websites and there I met a widower which I have never dated. He lost his wife to cancer three years before we met last March, 2013. He told me that they were married 35 years before she passed away with cancer. He took care of her five years and was raising her only grandson who lost his own mother to cancer when he was only five years old and I respected him for doing that since he had no children of his own.
We had been dating six months when he had a heart attack and had to have open heart surgery and then he started having one health problem and then financial problems. This went on for another six months until he told me to move on. I was so devastated and shocked he would want to push me away while he was going through such a hard time. But, I hung in there until I learned he was back on the dating site we met on chatting to other women. I asked him about this and he denied it and told me that it was his son who was using his profile.
His son, although is disabled has been known to do odd things. He is 27 years old and did not graduate from high school until he was 21 years old and did not learn to drive until he was the same age. He had suffered brain damage when his biological father nearly beat him too death. He is no longer in his life. As a result of knowing all this and being around this boy and has a mind of a 14 year old, I could understand this.
Then a girl friend of mine got on that same dating site I met him on and was sent a message by him and then told me about it. I asked him if his son had been on his computer again because she got a message from his profile and he got mad at me for accusing him after he stated that he was not a member on it. Again, I said alright and dropped the subject and told him I would talk to him later. The following day he dumped some of mine things I left at his house on my front porch while I was at work. When I came home, I tried to call him to find out what happened and why.
He never return my call. He had been suffering from a staph infection and had been under the care of his doctor for two weeks during this time. I have not heard from him since. Since his heart attack last Sept. 2013, he has been bitter and angry and has been gradually pushing himself away from me and this has been going on for the past three months. I thought I met a good, stable and caring man. But, again, I have been hurt badly.
I will be retiring next year and I was looking forward to spending some time with this person. This meant a whole lot to me. Most of my friends are either married or in a relationship now and I am now alone again for the upteeth time in my life. No one I have ever met has been faithful or honest with me. I have tried to find happiness and I am tired of going solo on everything in life. I am getting older and less attractive than I use to be and my health won't be either. I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life. But, I fear I will be now.
