I’m struggling.

Ronni

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Nashville TN
Since right before Christmas through till yesterday I have lost or been witness to the family loss of six people near and dear to me.

Three of them were Nar-anon family members who lost children to
Overdoses. We’ve been supportive of eah other and our struggles since 2012.

Two of them were very dear friends who lost elderly and aging parents, and as of yesterday the latest is my son-in-law who lost his stepdad who has been his stepdad since he was tiny.

I’m really struggling you guys. It has felt like a sledge hammer onslaught that just DOES NOT STOP. 😖💔

The Naranon families who’ve lost kids to OD’s hits so close to home because that could just so easily been my addict son, in recovery now 6+ years

The dear friends who’ve lost aging parents is triggering, bringing to mind my struggles with my own parents before and after they passed. And my son in law who lost his Step Dad (who was a friend to me because the step and in-law families remained close) reminds me so much of the struggles my kids will have with my own passing whenever that happens.

This is difficult. I’ve been barely able to comprehend one loss before I get hit upside the head with another.

It’s been a rough month. 😖💔

This is Jimmy, my son in law’s step dad
Jimmy was a character. 💖 It shocks me that he's gone, because even though he was sick, I just somehow thought he was bulletproof!

This is the only photo I have of us together. He took it, and then with much delight and a certain sense of devilish accomplishment, he posted it to facebook. He warned me he was going to, with a chuckle and that mischievous sparkle in his eye that, for me, was his most remembered and endearing feature.

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Ronni, I am so sorry. The OD’s I’m sure hit especially hard, and Jimmy looks like such a sweet, fun, guy. I wish I had words to make sense of it all and bring you some comfort. Loss is so damn hard and all I can offer you are very real and sincere prayers that you can absorb all of this. Hang on...and take comfort that you were blessed enough to have Jimmy in your life ❤️
 
It's terrible to lose anyone close, but when you lose several friends/relatives close together in time, well, what can I say to make it all better? Death is part of life, unfortunately. I wish we could all live forever, but sooner or later this big planet would run out of room for everyone.

As a cop, I have seen several people die and I have had to tell parents that their child won't be coming home ever again. It's the worse part of the job. We always talk about closure, but there is never any closure for the ones left behind. We have our memories of the good times and that seems to sustain us, but we still ache from the initial hurt.

Just remember that you don't have to walk around and act like everything is OK because everything isn't OK. You have lost friends and part of your family, so grieve in your own way and you will feel better for it, one day at a time.

I wish you well and that you find peace and solace and know that there are folks that love you and want you to feel well and live, live, live.
 
With all due sorrowful condolences and best wishes to you and yours, this is something that happens to all of us in one form or another. We've really no choice but to hold our head up, endure it all and press on with love, faith and hope. To do otherwise is of no value to anyone, least of all yourself.
 
So sorry Ronni. I've lost 3 friends in the past few months also. 2 of them in the last couple of weeks. Uranus is transiting Taurus, my sun sign, so I will expect this for a long while to come.

All those who remain can do is soldier on. Peace and hugs.

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I know it’s not the same, but having my sweet dog Tango die on the heels of all these other losses feels kind of like the last straw. Damn. 😖
Tango gave you quiet love and support, love of the truest nature, love without expectations, love everlasting, someone to hug on the darkest night. Tango was not just a dog. The dear little one was/is a sentient being who is part of your soul.
 

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