I really am about to lose it

Katybug

Katybug

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Charlotte, NC
The Xanax has worn off and I just popped the other half....but I can't quit obsessing with this.

I have a small lil something in my mouth. It's not on my tongue, but near where the tongue connects. It's been there for a couple weeks and won't go away. It isn't irritated at all and is very small, but you know what I'm thinking and it's not good. I know what Phil says, but it's impossible not to think the worst.

Going through cancer w/my daughter (tongue) and what she has been through with nightmare radiation...well, I'm nauseated with worry. Have an appt w/my dentist tomorrow morning (had a full visit 3 mos ago) and we'll go from there. In the meantime, I am one big mess. I'm headed to Target and some groc shopping, then meeting someone for dinner to try and take my mind off it, darned near impossible. Please wish me good luck! I need it!
 

Good luck, of course; but you are doing everything you possibly can.
i won't say 'stop worrying', because there is nothing else you can do until tomorrow.
My thoughts are with you, (been there, done that....)
 
Good luck! You only need to try and forget it for tonight if you have a dentists appt tomorrow so go out and enjoy your evening.
 

Oh Katy, good luck. I am a WORRIER big time too and my own worst enemy. Please do your best to try and remain calm. Take a lot of deep breaths, that helps me sometimes.
 
Hi Katybug, I've gone through abdominal cancer twice, and that was 35 years ago, first with radiation, second with kemo. The great thing is that science has come a long long way since then. Your biggest enemy is the fear. A positive attitude is the best thing for your immune system. Being here on this site is a great way to build your positivity factor. Good luck and let us know, one way or the other.
 
Katy, Ina is right. The biggest fear is of the unknown, once you find out what it is, good or bad you'll deal with it. I know you have some wine around there. Have a couple of glasses and a nice warm bubble bath and try to relax and focus on positive things. This too shall pass.
 
Oh Katy, there is no point in telling you not to worry about this until you have to is there? You will anyway. Okay then, we'll worry a little along with you until you get it checked out but we also know that all manner of odd things happen to us as we age. Lumps and bumps and changes and pains that can scare the hell the out of us but are just par for the course. So be concerned, but not panicky.... okay?
 
CeeCee said:
Hope you don't mind but I emailed your post to my daughter, son and dil.

This is my daughters reply....

Most cases turn out to be nothing. In my 17 years of practice I haven't come across oral cancer yet.
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Grateful for all these supportive responses, but this one is so encouraging. I know she's a dentist and that is the best news I could hear! I sincerely appreciate your e-mailing her, CeeCee, and it will definitely help me sleep better. Thanks to all of you for your concern.
 
CeeCee said:
And this is the reply from my son....


Irritation fibroma. Nothing to worry about.
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Oh my gosh, how I wish I'd been home earlier to read this. It would have saved an evening of genuine worried concern. And Irritation fibroma...nothing to worry about has almost put me over the moon!!! I'm so hoping my dentist repeats those exact words to me when I see him tomorrow a.m.. I'm not working 'til afternoon, so you may hear me yelling it from the dentist's rooftop if that's the case. What a worrier I am, but given what I've been through (mastectomy 21 yrs ago) and the oral and lymph node cancer with my daughter for the last 2 yrs gives me paranoid rights that I'm entitled to, just want cancer gone and everybody to be happy.

Thank you again, friend CeeCee, for sharing those beautiful responses from your kids. Just what I was desperate to hear. It made my night and then some! I sincerely appreciate it!

Just to know it's not automatically cancer, as I thought it was is such a relief (tho I know this has to be confirmed locally, but now I have hope. I had none before.) I am extremely grateful, CeeCee. You did you part well, went to the source and got valued inside info for a new friend, for which I am eternally grateful.

I'm not just pulling this out of the air....If you only knew what my poor daughter has been through not once, but twice in 2 years (2nd cancer surgery was in lymph node from the original oral cancer and that ended up being 2 gawdawful surgeries. Not to mention it's a full 2 year recovery period (meaning you have mouth ulcers/sores/yeast infected mouth..ONGOING...it hasn't stopped for a year. We're halfway through with 1 yr down, 1 to go. They told her it was the worst possible cancer to treat/inside mouth that's out there so far as doing radiation (torching) your face, inside your mouth, throat, esophagus...You get the picture and I was convinced I had the same thing.....and so were half the friends I told today. They weren't positive at all. In any event, Alisa lost 22 lbs from a 110 frame and has been unable to swallow very many foods. That hasn't changed very much. Oh God, I can't think about it any longer, but I've been thinking a lot about mine today and realize I've become completely paranoid about it. After CeeCee's children's input, I'm thinking, "Thank God, now I'm going to bed & stop worrying."
Perhaps I'll have more to worry about tomorrow, but today has been more that I could ever express.

Thank you so very much for sharing that, CC, it means more than I can ever tell you. You couldn't have done anything that would have been more appreciated. Have yourself a wonderful evening and I can wait to share my dentists' findings, just hoping it will be nearly as positive. (No one in my family knows, so you all are my only confidantes.) Again, sincerest thanks for your input.
 
Old Hipster said:
Good luck Katy and

CeeCee you are the Best!
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She really is, as I always think the worst and wasn't aware of possible non-invasive issues. Still, I don't think given my history, tho he's been my dentist for years, that he is going to want to take the responsibility of saying this is absolutely, positively not a problem. But still hoping for strong reassurance of "almost sure there is no problem," as he directs me to an oral surgeon. With only an hour before leaving, I'm nervous Nellie.
 

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