Repondering
Well-known Member
- Location
- Nebraska, USA
I'm the last of my birth family still alive. My brothers both died at age 73.....one death four years before the other; Dad died at 83 and Mom at 94. All of them died bitter, unhappy and dissatisfied with their lives.
I'm 71 now, never married, in good health, reasonably secure financially and determined to consciously maintain my physical health with daily active exercise, good diet and just as important, some functional purpose.
I've always accepted being a low achiever with a marginal sense of self value.....bordering on a persistent depressive state.
I'm planning on another 20 years of life.......that outcome isn't entirely in my hands, but I can optimize the probability of it though.....and my purpose? Redeem myself of those marginal achieving years. I've got a home baking micro business steadily moving along these last 9 years; I've got a nifty line of wooden toys I sell at craft shows (basically a paying hobby) and I regularly volunteer at the local hospital. And I'm an active member of a church too.
Trivial? One could see it like that. But for me, a lifelong social isolate (or not far off from one), those are meaningful interactions with the world that work through my own ingenuity and willingness to put myself out there and offer some substantial contributions that people demonstrate appreciation for. That's a big deal for me......
And at the end? I think my consciousness and everyone else's too, will continue on after experiencing what is referred to as "death". Actually, I'm expecting that to be kind of an interesting journey.
I'm 71 now, never married, in good health, reasonably secure financially and determined to consciously maintain my physical health with daily active exercise, good diet and just as important, some functional purpose.
I've always accepted being a low achiever with a marginal sense of self value.....bordering on a persistent depressive state.
I'm planning on another 20 years of life.......that outcome isn't entirely in my hands, but I can optimize the probability of it though.....and my purpose? Redeem myself of those marginal achieving years. I've got a home baking micro business steadily moving along these last 9 years; I've got a nifty line of wooden toys I sell at craft shows (basically a paying hobby) and I regularly volunteer at the local hospital. And I'm an active member of a church too.
Trivial? One could see it like that. But for me, a lifelong social isolate (or not far off from one), those are meaningful interactions with the world that work through my own ingenuity and willingness to put myself out there and offer some substantial contributions that people demonstrate appreciation for. That's a big deal for me......
And at the end? I think my consciousness and everyone else's too, will continue on after experiencing what is referred to as "death". Actually, I'm expecting that to be kind of an interesting journey.