Learning How To Live Life

@MarciKS
I do so hope you knew it was police before you opened the door?! A peephole or something where you could see them? It is suggested by law enforcement if someone comes to your door like that, claims to be police, call 911 first and ask if police were sent to your address.

Sounds like this worked out okay but what a frightening occurrence.
 
@GoodEnuff I seriously doubt it will be an issue. The lady from risk management looked so disinterested i will be surprised if anything gets done.

@CallMeKate it wasn't. I called when i woke this morning. It was a general vicinity search for an actual domestic issue.

I made sure before i opened the door. I utilize my peephole.
 
It has been some day here. I actually had to get some help in the unit tonight. Otherwise i could never have finished. We had a rather gruesome trama i had to help clean up that took a while.

Found a beer in the ladies restroom in the lobby. It's just been awful. I am totally worn out.
 
MarciKS said:
@CallMeKate it wasn't. I called when i woke this morning. It was a general vicinity search for an actual domestic issue.
I made sure before i opened the door. I utilize my peephole.
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Glad to hear it wasn't a swatting. They wouldn't have shown up at your door, though. Swatters call the police anonymously and report something going on at the victim's home. The police then show up and sometimes the swat team. We had one close to me about a week ago that turned out to be two guys having a dispute at work. One called the police and reported a shooting at the others' address. Terrible waste of LE resources and illegal to boot.
 
Morning friends.
Yesterday was a hard day. I'm hoping today will be better. Tomorrow afternoon I have my pulmonologist appt. Will see what he says.

I was upset last night when I got home from work because when I try to participate in conversations at work I often get told I'm being nosy and don't need to participate in their discussions. I don't do that to them but, it's ok for people to treat me like crap. And then they can't understand why I'm mad. Seriously? So I'm done talking to people at work. I'm just gonna go in do my job and go home. I'm sick to death of being nice to people anymore.

I try to be a good person, a kind person and an understanding person. I try to engage others so I don't seem so unapproachable but last night was the last straw. I'm tired of being made to feel like an outcast. If they can't do any better than that then I just won't bother with them anymore. I would rather sit in a corner by myself somewhere and just ignore them rather than making anymore effort.

I cancelled my dashpass membership on doordash last night since i don't use it enough now to warrant the $96 a year to have it to save money on shopping and have hbo max for free which isn't that great. I basically only need doordash now for if i need something from Dollar General or Dillons.

We're forecast for only 79 for the high today. We shall see.

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MarciKS said:
I'm back. Some of you might not like that. But, I'm trying to make changes in my life for the better. I'm hoping for another chance to make some friends on here. So we'll see. All I can do is hope.
AKA MarciKS. I have no clue what my sign in info was from before so, that's why I have the new name. Plus it's nice to start fresh.

For those of you who posted nice comments on my other diary after I left, I appreciate it. Thank you. I've missed some of you.

I just got out of the hospital yesterday afternoon. I've been in the hospital twice now since last November. First time was with pnuemonia/respiratory failure. This time I had a bacterial infection/respiratory failure. Good fun. LOL! I'm home resting and will return to work Tuesday with a little more wear and tear.

They finally got us a new pulmonologist and he's stated he would like to see me get a job that's less physically demanding. So, if things go well, I plan to look for a desk job starting in 2026. I think it's time to hang up my hard working shoes for something a little less tiring. I don't want to but, my body isn't going to put up with much more.

I've had no car for couple years now I think. I'm getting to know the Uber drivers pretty good. *Giggles*

After mom's funeral in 2021 my brother and his wife quit talking to me along with some of the other family members. Father and I tried to build a relationship but it just didn't work out. He was being abusive again and I decided it was no longer a fruitful venture. So, I made the painful decision to go no contact. It was what was best for me. I am finally starting to heal and live life.

I have information on several jobs I could get that don't require degrees or experience. Ones I'd probably enjoy. I have no issues with working at a computer all day. I'm on mine all the time at home.

I hope every one is doing well. And I hope we can start again.
Mary
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I'm new here but I'm sorry you're having so many health problems and being treatedlike an outcast when you're trying to be nice.
 
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Delia said:
I'm new here but I'm sorry you're having so many health problems and being treatedlike an outcast when you're trying to be nice.
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Well ya know things happen and life isn't always the way you wish it had been. Despite it all, I am for the most part a happy person.

Mainly because i know things could be worse and because there's no sense in hangin onto stuff. I know God loves me and i just try to make the best of every day.

Welcome to SF if I neglected to greet you. 😁
 
MarciKS said:
I don't do that to them but, it's ok for people to treat me like crap. And then they can't understand why I'm mad.
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MarciKS said:
If they can't do any better than that then I just won't bother with them anymore. I would rather sit in a corner by myself somewhere and just ignore them rather than making anymore effort.
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This ^^^.

I stumbled onto this the other day (source unknown):

They Didn't Change Because You Tolerated Everything
*You kept forgiving so they never felt guilty.
*You stayed silent so they thought it was acceptable.
*You kept adjusting, so they never had to.
*You explained your pain...they heard it but didn't care.
*You gave them chances...they gave you the same behavior.
*You stayed...so they never feared losing you.
*You tolerated disrespect...so respect was never required.
*You called it love...but it was you abandoning yourself.
They didn't change...because you made it easy for them not to.
Respect starts the moment tolerance ends.

In which case, these days there are a few people who must be starting to respect me because I have cut them off completely. So there!

Comrades in arms, Friend.
 
GoodEnuff said:
This ^^^.

I stumbled onto this the other day (source unknown):

They Didn't Change Because You Tolerated Everything
*You kept forgiving so they never felt guilty.
*You stayed silent so they thought it was acceptable.
*You kept adjusting, so they never had to.
*You explained your pain...they heard it but didn't care.
*You gave them chances...they gave you the same behavior.
*You stayed...so they never feared losing you.
*You tolerated disrespect...so respect was never required.
*You called it love...but it was you abandoning yourself.
They didn't change...because you made it easy for them not to.
Respect starts the moment tolerance ends.

In which case, these days there are a few people who must be starting to respect me because I have cut them off completely. So there!

Comrades in arms, Friend.
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I tolerate it to keep the peace but I think he knows he's hurt my feelings. When it was first said I made a rather vulgar retort which I tend to do because it makes me so mad when people treat me like I don't matter.

I then stood up and left the room. I barely speak to anyone at work now. Rides to and from work are very quiet. I just don't care anymore. I'm not ok with it and I'm tired of acting like I am.
 
I have my pulmo appt at 2 this afternoon. Using DoorDash I'm gonna order a few things from the grocery store when I get home.

Then I have a lot of dishes to do and some laundry. Then I will probably do some gaming.
 
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