@Aprilla , welcome to the forums. From what you described it sounds very much like you are plagued with an "affliction" called
Limerence.
The term "Limerence" was coined by a psychologist named
Dorothy Tennov. Limerence is not currently considered a "disorder" as defined in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders(
DSM5), but with further definitive research it may be included a some point.
Some reading links:
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/basics/limerence
Is It Love or Limerence? Here’s How To Tell the Difference
What is Limerence? Definition and Stages | Attachment Project
Your best hope for relief from Limerence is to maintain
no contact with this person. Therapy can help, along with antidepressant medication.
Best of luck to you.
