Reflections of My Life

katlupe said:
My friend is all excited about a kitten she met at the SPCA shelter last week. He came right to her and she had all her paperwork done but the shelter told her she could not get him until Wed. It has taken her WEEKS to get permission from the management here to be allowed to replace her cat that died. First they said absolutely not since her boyfriend has a cat too. She had to get a paper from her doctor that said she needed one for her mental state (she has Parkinson's). Finally they said okay but she had to go above the substitute manager's head.

So she gets all excited about that kitten who's name is Willy. It is one I had posted on my fakebook page so I am familiar with him. Yesterday I go to the shelter's newest posts and see they adopted him out to someone else! I cannot tell her. She will be so depressed! I do not know why they make her wait to get one when they have so many. But the people who adopted him adopted two and they must have come in after she was there and they assured her Willy was going to be her cat. The reason she picked him was because as soon as she sat down he came right to her and jumped on her lap. That is what she wanted, the kitten to pick her. Now I am dreading when she goes there to pick him up. I keep hoping another kitten will do that, jump on her lap.
Click to expand...
Oh how sad.. that's gonna be upsetting for your friend Kat..I remember you telling us her story .. do you think she'll be able to choose another one ?.. she doesn't need stress while suffering from PD
 

hollydolly said:
Oh how sad.. that's gonna be upsetting for your friend Kat..I remember you telling us her story .. do you think she'll be able to choose another one ?.. she doesn't need stress while suffering from PD
Click to expand...
Yes, they will let her get another one. But I hope they let her take it home right then and not wait a week. She gets depressed very easily so I am hoping another kitten will come to her.
 
My friend is FINALLY getting her kitten tomorrow! Whew, took awhile and a lot of red tape. To top it off, the kitten, Willie, that she picked out last week and was told it would be her kitten. But she still had to wait till after her boyfriend's cat got two shots that they said he has to have before she can take Willie home. So she made the appointment for him to get the shots at the vet's. Then I see on their FB page that Willie was given to another person. How mean they have been to her. But she is going tomorrow to pick out a kitten and bring him home. She called them and they said she will be able to do that now.
 
Today Sonny is coming here to take me to my hair appointment. I am canceling his appointment because he has been sick but getting better. He thought it was better to stay away from such close contact with our hairdresser right now. Then we will go to Walmart so I can get some groceries for my son and some for myself as well. If it wasn't for the groceries, I could have made it to the hairdressers by myself. With my walker I can go that far. But not to Walmart.

I don't know if you remember, but last year we were having trouble here with our manager and two other tenants that were ganging up against other tenants. It got to the point of being "elder abuse" and I was in the process of reporting them to HUD and upper management at Conifer. Thankfully, the manager was fired abruptly. Slowly the other two tenants are both in the process of moving out. They had settled down a lot since the manager was fired. But still a big source of rumors. Because of them we no longer have our "coffee hour" or potluck suppers. Yesterday one of their followers asked me about the yearly Thanksgiving dinner. He was really sad to know that it won't be taking place nor any more potluck suppers. Just Bingo.

Now if this guy had not followed the ones causing so much trouble, maybe we would still be doing the pot luck suppers and coffee hours. I think he thought he was on the side that would end up in charge of everything in the future. Instead there won't be any of these events taking place unless someone takes it upon themselves to create one. I do not want to do the potluck suppers or Thanksgiving dinner because I cannot eat the foods that will be there. Even if I start out not eating it, I do not have enough willpower to not eat it while watching everyone else filling up their dishes. It is not fun for me. When you take sides against others sometimes it will end up hurting yourself. Burning bridges is never a good thing.
 
katlupe said:
Today Sonny is coming here to take me to my hair appointment. I am canceling his appointment because he has been sick but getting better. He thought it was better to stay away from such close contact with our hairdresser right now. Then we will go to Walmart so I can get some groceries for my son and some for myself as well. If it wasn't for the groceries, I could have made it to the hairdressers by myself. With my walker I can go that far. But not to Walmart.

I don't know if you remember, but last year we were having trouble here with our manager and two other tenants that were ganging up against other tenants. It got to the point of being "elder abuse" and I was in the process of reporting them to HUD and upper management at Conifer. Thankfully, the manager was fired abruptly. Slowly the other two tenants are both in the process of moving out. They had settled down a lot since the manager was fired. But still a big source of rumors. Because of them we no longer have our "coffee hour" or potluck suppers. Yesterday one of their followers asked me about the yearly Thanksgiving dinner. He was really sad to know that it won't be taking place nor any more potluck suppers. Just Bingo.

Now if this guy had not followed the ones causing so much trouble, maybe we would still be doing the pot luck suppers and coffee hours. I think he thought he was on the side that would end up in charge of everything in the future. Instead there won't be any of these events taking place unless someone takes it upon themselves to create one. I do not want to do the potluck suppers or Thanksgiving dinner because I cannot eat the foods that will be there. Even if I start out not eating it, I do not have enough willpower to not eat it while watching everyone else filling up their dishes. It is not fun for me. When you take sides against others sometimes it will end up hurting yourself. Burning bridges is never a good thing.
Click to expand...
Yes I remember well the Hateful manager and her hateful followers.. and that she was fired ... the thing about despicable people and cliques as they always end up having Karma on them.. it's the same everywhere ..in real life and online.. Those who are hateful, always get it back tenfold.. even if it takes a while

Shame about the coffee hours .. but if it meant sacrificing those to get rid of the hateful manager and her clique... then it's worth it . Perhaps once they've all gone, it can all start up again..
 
hollydolly said:
Yes I remember well the Hateful manager and her hateful followers.. and that she was fired ... the thing about despicable people and cliques as they always end up having Karma on them.. it's the same everywhere ..in real life and online.. Those who are hateful, always get it back tenfold.. even if it takes a while

Shame about the coffee hours .. but if it meant sacrificing those to get rid of the hateful manager and her clique... then it's worth it . Perhaps once they've all gone, it can all start up again..
Click to expand...
What four of us from that group do now is to have coffee together once a month in our apartments. Taking turns on each apartment. It is nicer this way too.
 
I am ready to leave when Sonny gets here. I do not know how well I am going to do today. Can barely walk right now but pushing myself to get ready. It is my only chance to get groceries for Jeff. Sometimes I will be like this and then push past it and turns out okay. Sonny is sick so will not be much help to me. I am going to get him to stay in the car when I shop but he might want to shop too, I don't know.

This whole month has been very stressful for me. I am just happy to see it get over with but I don't hold much expectations for November. I try not to sound negative or whiny but sometimes life does that to me. Normally I am quite positive but right now I wish I could just go to sleep for awhile. Can't. So I will do my best to stay sane.

Need to order that new caster wheel for Jazzy. I am limited on being able to go to the stores myself here downtown without Jazzy. I have hardly used it this year at all. First due to the tires, then he finally changed those and got them working. Then the batteries, which I bought myself. Sonny installed them. Now the caster wheel and it is so bad that I cannot even drive it out of the bathroom now. I had to reposition it in there so I could use the shower. Whew! Not much difference than owning a car!
 
katlupe said:
I am ready to leave when Sonny gets here. I do not know how well I am going to do today. Can barely walk right now but pushing myself to get ready. It is my only chance to get groceries for Jeff. Sometimes I will be like this and then push past it and turns out okay. Sonny is sick so will not be much help to me. I am going to get him to stay in the car when I shop but he might want to shop too, I don't know.

This whole month has been very stressful for me. I am just happy to see it get over with but I don't hold much expectations for November. I try not to sound negative or whiny but sometimes life does that to me. Normally I am quite positive but right now I wish I could just go to sleep for awhile. Can't. So I will do my best to stay sane.

Need to order that new caster wheel for Jazzy. I am limited on being able to go to the stores myself here downtown without Jazzy. I have hardly used it this year at all. First due to the tires, then he finally changed those and got them working. Then the batteries, which I bought myself. Sonny installed them. Now the caster wheel and it is so bad that I cannot even drive it out of the bathroom now. I had to reposition it in there so I could use the shower. Whew! Not much difference than owning a car!
Click to expand...
Awww, Sorry Kat. Sometimes we all need to complain. I hope you can get that wheel fixed soon and be on your way to have some fun. 🌹
 
As the cost of groceries go up I can't help but think of my life with my first husband, Glenn. He made good money and was an accountant with his own firm. I had freedom when grocery shopping. I cooked a lot even though we ate in restaurants quite often. Probably three times a week at least. He had many clients who owned restaurants and he liked to give them our business.

Grocery shopping at that time was something I enjoyed. I never considered the price. Just bought a lot of fresh foods. Produce. Always bananas. Had a lot of fruit on hand. Meat. Lots of meat in the freezers (2 refrigerators) . About 10 bottles of Coke that I would buy at a store that had the lowest price the refrigerator in the garage (Glenn was badly addicted to it). About 75 cents a bottle or less back then. Life was good back then. Oh yeah, at the check out I would pick up four or more magazines (especially Woman's Day & Family Circle). Of course, they did not cost back then what they cost now. I never buy magazines now.

Over the years, since that time (and husband) I have learned to be very frugal. It did not depress me, in fact I enjoyed the challenge. It was like a game. I still do but it is so much different from being with my last husband. When I was with him I did not have a grocery budget. As soon as I moved here I wrote out my budget and have followed it ever since. I still cook but of course the food goes farther. I can make a pot of something that will give me four or more meals. I have such problems ordering in restaurants (except Chinese) now. The food is never as good as what I make at home.
 
I was up early again, watching the sun come up while I drank my coffee. Temperature was 39 degrees at 4:00 AM and now is 34 at 7:30 AM. Thought it was supposed to get warmer as the sun came up? I will fix my breakfast in a few minutes. Food always warms me up. I don't mind the colder temperatures because I can always get warmer. I have recently tweaked my keto food plan and think I am finally satisfied.

I realized as I worked on decluttering my apartment that many items I have kept due to being sentimental about them. Yet that item does not represent my memory of the person who gave it or made it. Souvenirs are another type of clutter that people accumulate because it represents a trip they took. Pictures too. I had taken a ton of pictures on trips I took and when I moved here I threw a lot of them out. I still have the memories. But found I did not need the pictures to remember the trips.

Since I now have an aide who comes here and helps me out I find I am getting more stuff done. Sometimes I put off doing something due to time or my physical ability to do it. I accepted an aide only because they told me that Fidilis Care would not pay for my dental if I did not accept an aide. So I did. I tried to think of how I could better use this service. Might as well. I am approved for 15 hours a week and in a small studio apartment that is too much. So far she is only coming for 2 hours. I am thinking of ways to use more hours. I am going to speak to her about it and see if she can work more hours in. If she can't the agency, Committed Care, will send me another aide for those hours.
 
Yesterday I did not get most of the chores done that I had planned. Did not clean the Nuwave or stove. I will try again today. I got into doing other things which includes getting rid of things and changing areas in my apartment. I read a chapter of a book every day now. I hadn't been reading as much as I used to and figure it is due to being on the computer. This book is by Norman Vincent Peale, Stay Alive All Your Life. He reminds me of giving my worries to God. Do whatever you can do, pray to God to take this burden from me and then do nothing more. It removes the frustration (or fear) from me and especially my brain. And you know what usually happens? In a few days time, that worry is gone or solved in some way.

I have been going through a very stressful situation at the moment. I will tell you all about it soon as it is over but right now I do not want to write about it. Sometimes I allow frustration to dominate my thoughts and destroy any happiness I have and that affects any effectiveness I might have. If the weather is decent I am making it a point to go for a walk or at least sit in the park for a bit today. Anything else I have to do can wait. Peace is what I am after.

So today, this week in fact, is usually my worse time of the month. Since I am the "Payee Rep" for my disabled adult son, on the 3rd I have to scurry around to get his money and take care of his rent. His building has been sold and he has a new landlord who I called a couple of weeks ago. He was supposed to get back to me so I could pay him online instead of sending a money order through the mail. Since his check comes on the 3rd mailing a payment causes it to come later. The landlords always want it available the day you pay it but they have to do direct deposit to have that luxury. Most seem to be computer illiterate. His last one came to his buildings on the 3rd to pick up his payments. I will have to call this landlord today.
 
katlupe said:
Yesterday I did not get most of the chores done that I had planned. Did not clean the Nuwave or stove. I will try again today. I got into doing other things which includes getting rid of things and changing areas in my apartment. I read a chapter of a book every day now. I hadn't been reading as much as I used to and figure it is due to being on the computer. This book is by Norman Vincent Peale, Stay Alive All Your Life. He reminds me of giving my worries to God. Do whatever you can do, pray to God to take this burden from me and then do nothing more. It removes the frustration (or fear) from me and especially my brain. And you know what usually happens? In a few days time, that worry is gone or solved in some way.

I have been going through a very stressful situation at the moment. I will tell you all about it soon as it is over but right now I do not want to write about it. Sometimes I allow frustration to dominate my thoughts and destroy any happiness I have and that affects any effectiveness I might have. If the weather is decent I am making it a point to go for a walk or at least sit in the park for a bit today. Anything else I have to do can wait. Peace is what I am after.

So today, this week in fact, is usually my worse time of the month. Since I am the "Payee Rep" for my disabled adult son, on the 3rd I have to scurry around to get his money and take care of his rent. His building has been sold and he has a new landlord who I called a couple of weeks ago. He was supposed to get back to me so I could pay him online instead of sending a money order through the mail. Since his check comes on the 3rd mailing a payment causes it to come later. The landlords always want it available the day you pay it but they have to do direct deposit to have that luxury. Most seem to be computer illiterate. His last one came to his buildings on the 3rd to pick up his payments. I will have to call this landlord today.
Click to expand...
I'm sorry you're having this stress. Whatever it is, I'm hoping it gets resolved very soon. Thinking of you...... 🌹
 
I took the rugs that I had on top of the carpeting off. I am cleaning them the next few days and then storing them in my storage locker. I needed a change. I am thinking of taking all the decor and pictures off the walls. Eliminating some of the furniture as well. I have wanted to replace the bookcases with something else for awhile now. Something smaller and neater. Like maybe a white island. I need more space rather than things. It is just that some of my furniture and other items I got from my parents and had this attachment to them. Hard to overcome that, but it is for the best. When I die what becomes of them then? So I will do this. Now that I got my mind set on doing this, I am excited about it.

I have been watching videos about doing this. One thing I am going to try is getting rid of one item a day. Yesterday it was the wood box I kept under this table where I am sitting right now. I had my feet on it and Rabbit chewed on it. It was an old thing that I got when a neighbor brought a dump truck load of old wood for our wood stove. If I need something for my feet I will get something different. As for Rabbit, I will try to get him a piece of firewood somewhere.

The second item will be an old Betty Crocker cookbook that I got at a thrift store long ago. It was in bad condition when I bought it for a quarter back then. Appears to have been in a flood or something. It is in such bad condition I could not even give it away. So in the dumpster it goes today. Besides I don't ever use a cookbook now. Just the internet and print them out and put them in a loose leaf notebook.

Taking an easy day today. I did too much yesterday and now have a sore back. I told my aide not to come today. So that is that.
 
This morning as I drink my coffee, I watch Rabbit. Animals are really more routine than people. He keeps me to a routine no matter how much I try to stray from it. He is so happy when I get up (and I get up very early, this morning at 2:30 AM) and runs circles around me (including the walker). He has a lot of energy for an 8 year old, that I think is in his 60's in rabbit years. I have a chart for that somewhere but I hate to look at it because it depresses me.

Rabbit is even happier when I pour my 2nd cup of coffee. That means he will get his banana treat. Even if he is in his cage as soon as knows I have gone into the kitchen and am pouring that cup of coffee, he is waiting outside the kitchen for it. I am a slow drinker so he has to have patience.

I seem to have recovered from my painful back. I must have hurt it doing that vacuuming of the chairs. Have to remember I am not thirty anymore! Just hate relying on anyone to help me because they never do a job the way I would do it. So I usually do it over. Like when my aide does my laundry, she folds my towels all wrong. So if she does the laundry again I will have to show her. I hate doing that because I know it makes me look like I am a fussy old lady. Geez, she is 65 herself so maybe she wouldn't think that so much. I like to take a towel out of the drawer and unfold one fold and then put it over the towel rack in the bathroom to hang properly.

Today, I have to go with Sonny to get Jeff's money and send his rent to his new landlord. I am going to press this guy (landlord) to figure out the direct deposit for his tenants. Since he does not live here, it would be good for him to get his rent payments like that. I wanted my landlord (Conifer Realty, LLC) to do the same. Still waiting.... Then will go to Walmart and maybe to Price Chopper to get a few things I cannot get at Walmart (Steakumms).

Basically that is my day. I cannot do a lot on the day I have to do all these errands. Today though, I will have something to look forward to when I get home: Keto Chow Irish Cream Ice Cream in the Ninja! I have a hard time with ice cream, especially passing those ice cream freezers in the grocery store. I feel like I am an addict. Honestly though, I know it is not good for me and it affects me something awful. Full of very bad ingredients and I know this! Keto Chow to the rescue!
 
Kat, I know what you mean about not doing much else on errand days. Just getting myself ready to go out, and doing 3 or 4 stops, such as the bank, the gas station, groceries, whew, I feel like that's it, I don't expect much more from myself that day. I'm glad your back feels better.
 
Yesterday turned out to be worse than usual! I was all ready to go and thought I would relax and put my feet up till Sonny got here. He comes late on Thursdays or Mondays because his aide is at his house until 11:30 AM. My neighbor knocks on my door to tell me the Food Bank is delivering food to us! To be downstairs at 11:30 to get it............it was now 11:24!!!
So I hurry down and so do some others. We sit in the Community Room for 45 minutes talking and waiting. Our manager was like a chicken with her head cut off. She is only here once a week so didn't know most of us and didn't know what she was doing or how to organize this. Turns out the truck broke down on the way here and we were the first delivery. So we go back to our apartments.

Pretty soon I see the truck backing in to our ramp. They start unloading it. They previously told her that they could not help us get it into the building because they had other deliveries. She tried to find people in the building capable of doing this..........none of us could lift or push the heavy carts. So the people delivering had to help a bit. Then some other people from somewhere around here came to help. Two good sized boxes for each of us. One box was fresh produce, fruit and vegetables, cabbage, 2 acorn squash, red leaf lettuce, bag of apples and one of potatoes. The other had frozen 3 bags raviolis with cheese, green beans, strawberries, little pancakes (I think, no label), hot dogs.

Well, it stressed me out but it was worth getting the food. If it hadn't been on the same day as having to do Jeff's money it would have been okay. I can get my rent money order anytime during the month since I keep it a month ahead. But not his and I had to mail his this time. So I got through it. And two people came to my door to give me their red leaf lettuce for Rabbit. Now he has three and this morning I tried to feed him some but he left it. Maybe later.

We did not have to sign up for this. It was for senior citizens and in a building like that it would include anyone else who lived here also. They said they will be back in December. A perk of living here.
 
katlupe said:
This morning as I drink my coffee, I watch Rabbit. Animals are really more routine than people. He keeps me to a routine no matter how much I try to stray from it. He is so happy when I get up (and I get up very early, this morning at 2:30 AM) and runs circles around me (including the walker). He has a lot of energy for an 8 year old, that I think is in his 60's in rabbit years. I have a chart for that somewhere but I hate to look at it because it depresses me.

Rabbit is even happier when I pour my 2nd cup of coffee. That means he will get his banana treat. Even if he is in his cage as soon as knows I have gone into the kitchen and am pouring that cup of coffee, he is waiting outside the kitchen for it. I am a slow drinker so he has to have patience.

I seem to have recovered from my painful back. I must have hurt it doing that vacuuming of the chairs. Have to remember I am not thirty anymore! Just hate relying on anyone to help me because they never do a job the way I would do it. So I usually do it over. Like when my aide does my laundry, she folds my towels all wrong. So if she does the laundry again I will have to show her. I hate doing that because I know it makes me look like I am a fussy old lady. Geez, she is 65 herself so maybe she wouldn't think that so much. I like to take a towel out of the drawer and unfold one fold and then put it over the towel rack in the bathroom to hang properly.

Today, I have to go with Sonny to get Jeff's money and send his rent to his new landlord. I am going to press this guy (landlord) to figure out the direct deposit for his tenants. Since he does not live here, it would be good for him to get his rent payments like that. I wanted my landlord (Conifer Realty, LLC) to do the same. Still waiting.... Then will go to Walmart and maybe to Price Chopper to get a few things I cannot get at Walmart (Steakumms).

Basically that is my day. I cannot do a lot on the day I have to do all these errands. Today though, I will have something to look forward to when I get home: Keto Chow Irish Cream Ice Cream in the Ninja! I have a hard time with ice cream, especially passing those ice cream freezers in the grocery store. I feel like I am an addict. Honestly though, I know it is not good for me and it affects me something awful. Full of very bad ingredients and I know this! Keto Chow to the rescue!
Click to expand...
Thank you for sharing your news with us! I couldn't help noticing that you chose the Keto ice cream! I have started Keto these past few weeks, and it was difficult finding a Keto ice cream with low carbs. The one I settled on is Rebel. It's very low carb (1-2g per serving), smooth, and delicious. I have tried the Mint Chocolate Chip and more recently a peanut butter fudge variety. Yum! Yours sounds good, too! Enjoy!!
 

You must log in or register to reply here.

Back
Top