Reflections of My Life

I did walk to the park this morning. My plan was to sit in the sun for at least 30 minutes. I only made it 20 because I got too hot. When I got back to my apartment and checked the weather, it was 75 out there! No wonder I couldn't last ten more minutes. I do not like hot weather.
 

My friend and I have not been walking the hallway the last few days. She can't always do it. So I keep going to the park which I did yesterday. I stop and sit for awhile and watch the activity then move on to another spot. I have my choice of four parks right within my neighborhood. My desire and love of the outdoors keeps me walking. Some days, I feel like I can't do it, but then I do it anyway. After I do, I feel so much better.

My appointment for the bug guy to spray my apartment has been changed from Monday to Wednesday. So I will have two more days to wait. Since I am the only apartment being sprayed it won't take so long. Can't wait for this nightmare to be over. Haven't seen even one little straggler yet.

Yesterday the office assistant showed the apartment across the hall to a man. He is the same one who came to look at the one bedroom one on the other side of me. Someone else has rented that one but has not moved in yet. Then I saw her in the storage room showing him that, so maybe he will be moving in too. He was friendly and said hi to me. There are still two more empty ones on this hall but our maintenance guy has not worked on those yet. Two empty ones are upstairs too. Looks like they are filling up some of them.
 

Sonny took me to do my errands in his daughter's car yesterday. It was so small, he barely fit in it. I am not tall but I felt squished in it. Not mentioning the fact that it was so dusty and smelled from smoking. I did not mention it. I was just thankful to have him come here and take me out to do the things I needed to do. His daughter was using his truck and that was why he was driving her car.

This morning I have been working on my budget. I had it already done but had missed a few things. Had to do it over. It is another "no spend" month for me. Last month I didn't do so well. In fact, Instacart took an automatic payment from a credit card that I forgot I had it set up for when I first joined. I have been not using the credit cards so was unexpected. I looked in my email and yes, Instacart had sent me a notice that they were going to do that. I could have changed it but I was not paying attention. Now I will be more careful.

Thursday, the people upstairs had their water heater malfunction. They told our maintenance man that they had no hot water. He checked it and it was leaking.....bad. Ruined the empty apartment next to me (that was being rented to the new lady, now she will have to wait if she can) ceiling. I was fortunate because I discovered black water in my toilet and from the bathroom sink faucet. Called my maintenance man and told him and he said it was probably from the water heater upstairs that he just changed, though he didn't think it should have affected my water. So I flushed the toilet a bunch of times and ran the faucet a bit and it cleared up. Glad it didn't leak into my apartment.
 
This morning I spent two hours in the park. I went on Jazzy since for some unknown reason my foot was having a pain in it. Funny, after going to the park it didn't hurt again. Again, I was the only person in the park. People walking along the sidewalk but nobody in this park. The park across the street that has the fountain had a couple of people who sat on a bench for a little bit. The homeless people though were walking the street. Some around the block a few times. I was there for 2 hours and saw probably more twenty homeless people. Then I went in the park by the library and there was someone sleeping on the top platform of the children's playground thing.

I just can't imagine having to live like that. I feel sorry for them but then some of them are hooked on drugs and don't want to change. Al-Anon said they have to hit bottom first. Seems like they have. Funny they seem to be able to afford cigarettes but always asking for money for food.
 
We have a homeless problem in our city also so my husband and I joined a group that feeds them at the park, but it didn't last long. If they don't like the food, or pizza, they are given they toss it in the garbage can or on the ground. Some think we were a short order restaurant. When one wanted to get physical with me, in front of two male volunteers, it was time to give only to charities by check. When I spoke to another volunteer about it she said she goes to food banks to collect food to cook their food requests and enjoys hugging them.
Now, what do I do? If I volunteer at an animal shelter my house will soon be over run since I'm a wimp.
Be good to yourself today and everyday.
 
Happy Heart said:
We have a homeless problem in our city also so my husband and I joined a group that feeds them at the park, but it didn't last long. If they don't like the food, or pizza, they are given they toss it in the garbage can or on the ground. Some think we were a short order restaurant. When one wanted to get physical with me, in front of two male volunteers, it was time to give only to charities by check. When I spoke to another volunteer about it she said she goes to food banks to collect food to cook their food requests and enjoys hugging them.
Now, what do I do? If I volunteer at an animal shelter my house will soon be over run since I'm a wimp.
Be good to yourself today and everyday.
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Recently a shelter of sorts (not an overnight space) opened nearby. They can watch television, play games and a meal is provided plus snacks they can take with them. They don't really annoy anyone that I have seen or heard about yet. But they just look creepy and so I avoid them if I can. Often I have walked by a group of them and they might say hi. They all wear backpacks and some ride bikes or push strollers or grocery carts (not the kind from the store).

My friend goes to the outdoor concerts and last summer the homeless were going to all the people asking for money. When they came to her they asked her to buy them a pizza..........she told them she did not have that kind of money but if they wanted food she would go to her apartment and bring them some groceries. They said no, they wanted pizza.
 
The tail seems to be wagging the dog. We have a neighborhood platform which has many asking for "go fund me " money. It is a conflict for me since I do care but I am only one and they are many.
So I used to donate hand knit baby items to our local hospital but after knitting for five minutes this afternoon, the pain was too much. Getting old is not for the weak.
 
Since spraying my apartment today was changed to Wednesday, I have two extra days to prepare. It is one of things you dread doing but look forward to getting it done. Today I am calling Committed Care to get a hold of my new aide. I did not save her number on my phone (stupid me!) though there are a number of unidentified numbers in my area code on it. I don't want to call all of them looking for her. So when she comes here I am going to have her write down all her information like number, address and whole name. I don't even know her last name!

So I want her to come tomorrow to help me prepare my apartment for the spraying. There is a lot of stuff you have to do. I figure she seems to be eager to work so maybe she can start tomorrow and then come back on Thursday. I keep reminding myself by next Monday, this will all be over with. It has been horrible living with all my stuff in the middle of the bathroom floor. I made a trail to the shower so I could use it. The same with the sink and water dispenser. I am a very organized person and at times this has caused me to feel depress........which I never am, usually.
 
I changed my mind about the aide starting today. I did most of the things I wanted done yesterday and can finish up today. Also yesterday I was not able to get outside at all. Instead I had coffee with my friends across the hall at my neighbor's apartment. It was fun. So did a lot of things to prepare for the last bug spraying tomorrow. Still have not seen one left behind so hopefully this will be a done deal.

I will still try to get outside but need to do a lot of stuff here first. I want to make sure to prepare something I can eat for tomorrow while we are downstairs. Last time I was starving and then when I got back to my apartment I ate the wrong stuff which I ordered from Instacart. Almost instantly, I was so sick from it. Horrible stomach cramps. Nothing will upset someone who eats "clean keto" more than eating a high carb food. You cannot heal your body eating any of that stuff. I got my order from Carnivore Crisp yesterday and am anxious to try it. Might take some with me tomorrow.

Yesterday Sonny picked me up again because when we ran our errands on Friday I forgot to buy my son's tobacco at the smoke shop. I buy it in two big bags and when he needs it I have it here. I hate that he smokes but he is so addicted to it that when he does not have it he is a horrible person. I know it will kill him but not much you can do when your child is in his fifties. Frustrates me but I have learned to live with it.

Sonny goes in the smoke shop to get it for me, I hate going in there. I went in Price Chopper while he was there to get some decent Spring Mix for my bunny boy. Lately the spring mix has been stuffed with a lot of spinach. Spinach is not good for him and he knows it because he eats around it and leaves the spinach. Well that is too much to waste. So I found some other alternatives that he seems to like.
 
Tomorrow I probably won't get on here till later in the day, if then. The 3rd and last spraying of my apartment starts tomorrow around 9. I will be downstairs in the Community Room. I hope the smoke is not bad down there (from the wild fires in Canada). Just wanted to let you all know.
 
katlupe said:
Tomorrow I probably won't get on here till later in the day, if then. The 3rd and last spraying of my apartment starts tomorrow around 9. I will be downstairs in the Community Room. I hope the smoke is not bad down there (from the wild fires in Canada). Just wanted to let you all know.
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That Canadian wildfire smoke is bad here in CT as well. Good luck with this last spraying...it feels like it's taken forever.
 
We are done with the spraying! I am so thankful. Today my aide will be here to help me get my apartment back together. She was here yesterday and sat with us in the community room while doing my laundry.

In the middle of preparing my apartment yesterday morning, my refrigerator quit working! Called my maintenance guy and he was on his way here anyway. He came and fixed it for me. Needed a new light bulb but I still don't understand why it quit running due to that. It did though and has been doing fine since.

Today I will get the new encasements on the mattress and box springs. Then make the bed and hopefully will be able to sleep there from now on (for the whole night).
 
As I sit here with my first cup of coffee almost gone, my bunny watches me intently......waiting anxiously for me to get up and go to the kitchen for my 2nd cup. He knows when I get the 2nd cup he gets his morning banana. He had mixed greens when I first get up and eats them eagerly. But his favorite of all food is bananas.

Yesterday morning, I started putting things away and changing things around as I worked. Making it easier and more efficient for me. Then I did walk with my friend because I know it is good for me and I should get back into it. My knees hurt bad but I forced myself. We only walked 4 laps but it was better then 0. Today I will shoot for 5.

I find that when I force myself to do something I am happier after I did it that I did it. Like yesterday I thought about ordering from Instacart to get more salad greens for Rabbit from Price Chopper. I knew Sonny had to come to the county office building and if I asked he would pick me up and take me there. I thought about it and I really did not want to go any where but I would rather choose the greens in person than rely on the shopper for those. So I went and when we got there it poured really hard as I was getting out of the vehicle and I thought to myself I should have ordered from Instacart. But there was a sale on the exact varieties of greens I wanted so I got 2 of each! So that was a good thing.

Then I took a quick peek at the steaks to see if there was something I could afford. Yes, they had a 2 lb. chuck steak that was reduced from $12.83 to $8.98. It was bigger than what I usually get but I will have two meals from it for $4.49 each. Chuck steak is not ribeye but it will be good anyway. So it was good that I went myself.
 
Yesterday, Sonny caused me a fright! He always calls me in the morning. Usually first thing he gets up. So anywhere from 8:30 to 10:00 usually. I was busy yesterday so when I finally sat down I realized it was 1:00 PM and I hadn't heard from him. I called him and no answer. Now even if he was sleeping and his phone (his ringer is VERY loud) was ringing it usually wakes him up. Nope it went to the voice message thing. I check on fakebook and he hadn't been on there for hours. Friday he officiated at a race so I started worrying about the dirt and dust there plus the smoke stuff in the air and his bad lungs. I called his phone over and over hoping it would wake him up.

I posted on fakebook for someone, his family or neighbors, to check on him. At 2 the phone rings and I see his name on my screen.........he just woke up and had left his phone in the truck so he wasn't hearing it. His dog woke him up because she wanted to go out. Pretty soon everyone started calling him. I guess I panicked. I know one day, that might happen but glad it wasn't yesterday.
 
Yesterday, I spent a good amount of time watching videos on the Michael J. Fox foundation YouTube channel. Just as I research dementia because of one of my close friends, I am doing the same on Parkinson's for my other friend. I am learning a lot about it and how to be a support for her. She has a boyfriend who lives with her and he is very supportive. Plus her aide is the best. I figured since I had to put my feet up (they have swelled a bit I think due to the hot weather) I may as well watch videos and color. Coloring keeps my hands busy. Sometimes I just color with no music or videos, just thinking while I do it. It really helps me solve my problems.

Today, my aide will be here. So will get some housework done. First though, I hope my friend comes to walk. It does us both good even though I sit here thinking I don't want to do it today. Once I get started I am happy that I did it. She is the same. Her husband pushes her to do it because he sees it helps her and this way he doesn't have to do it with her. I just wish I could walk without the walker but I cannot. Not even in my apartment.

Every day I drink coffee with LMNT chocolate salt and heavy cream. I frothe the cream with a frother before I pour it into the coffee. The frothy cream on top makes it seem like a special coffee drink. It is special because it is good for me and tastes so good. That is what I am drinking right now, just got my 2nd cup and Rabbit's banana.......he's a happy camper!
 
Sliverfox said:
Kat,, what sites are you using to get information about Parkinson?

After what the ophthalmologist said about hubby having it,, we need to know more.

He did do agriculture / farm crop spraying.
Did read enough to see that Paquaut ,(a chemical ) used on crops could cause it.

Thanks in advance.
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I am so sorry your hubby has it. I follow his channel but here is his latest video. If I was you I would follow his channel and watch all his videos. A lot of excellent advice! I don't know exactly what causes it. My friend has it and she didn't work with chemicals.

It says unavailable but when you click it your will go to YouTube and can watch it there.

 

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