Reflections of My Life

I made it to the bank for Jeff's cash. Now to make it last till the 3rd.

I took my doll out of the cedar chest the other day so I am cleaning her up. Her face and hands got dirty. She was not anywhere that she should have gotten so dirty. I guess it has to do with aging. Dolls, pets, people........this aging thing is a racket if you ask me. Buy this, do that, it will slow down the aging process. No, I don't think so. It just puts that idea in your head and you start to believe it. Aging is what it is and it happens to all of us.

Anyway this doll, her name is "Oma Lisa" and I named her long ago when I was a child. Not sure where I got that name from. I got her for Christmas one year and she was a bride doll and came with a trunk of clothes........funny thing though, she didn't come with the groom.
 

As November winds down, I find myself looking forward to January first. I am no longer a holiday person. I just don't like the fuss and money spent on those days. The rush to buy things when food is what everyone really needs. Last year I made a Thanksgiving dinner for my son and he took it home. It was a lot of work and I don't feel up to doing it this year. I will see what I can come up with for him. Though I know it doesn't even matter to him so why bother except in my own brain?

I didn't do a lot yesterday, so will make up for that today. If I get two things checked off my list in addition to my normal household chores I will be happy. It is funny how I still call them household chores when I don't even have a house. I never foresaw myself living in an apartment in my future but here I am. When I try to figure out why I see it was my own doing. Today I am going to make a list of things I must do to improve what I am doing so far.
 
I'm up early too, Kat.
I think people are holidayed out. Especially as we get older it is a lot of work.
I still have some little grands so I'm still hanging in there but I look forward to the days when I just go to someone else's house and let them do the bulk of it and I'll bring along something. 🙂

I'm thinking about @Ronni and what she must be going through at this time of year especially. I hope she is making some kind of peace with this and taking steps forward.

Have a good day and keep improving! 👍
 

hearlady said:
I'm up early too, Kat.
I think people are holidayed out. Especially as we get older it is a lot of work.
I still have some little grands so I'm still hanging in there but I look forward to the days when I just go to someone else's house and let them do the bulk of it and I'll bring along something. 🙂

I'm thinking about @Ronni and what she must be going through at this time of year especially. I hope she is making some kind of peace with this and taking steps forward.

Have a good day and keep improving! 👍
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I have been thinking about her too. Such a painful thing to go through. My stepdaughter took her life in 2003 and even though she was on medication and had much therapy, it didn't stop her. My husband was changed by that forever.

Thank you for the words of encouragement! Hope you have a nice Thanksgiving with your family!
 
Oh, I'm so sorry, Kat. I certainly didn't mean to bring it all back for you.
I see now that you can relate to Ronni and understand what she's going through.
It's very sad and I feel for you too. 🌷
 
hearlady said:
Oh, I'm so sorry, Kat. I certainly didn't mean to bring it all back for you.
I see now that you can relate to Ronni and understand what she's going through.
It's very sad and I feel for you too. 🌷
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my ex husbands' eldest son age just 23 took his own life a few years back. Hung himself. He was newly married with a baby.. tragic...

It will take a long time for Ronni and her family to come to terms with this..I can't see any festivities going on in that house for a while
 
hollydolly said:
my ex husbands' eldest son age just 23 took his own life a few years back. Hung himself. He was newly married with a baby.. tragic...

It will take a long time for Ronni and her family to come to terms with this..I can't see any festivities going on in that house for a while
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If ever......my heart goes out to Ronni.

My stepdaughter was 29 and left her 4 year old daughter at the time. It is surprising how many people go through this.
 
katlupe said:
Today I went for a walk to the corner and back. I was going to get a cup of coffee at the coffee shop and bring it home to drink it but..........I forgot to put money in my change purse! Last time I did laundry I added time to my laundry card and didn't replace it. Well, another time.

Later after I had breakfast, I rode Jazzy to the Grand Union to get blackberries for my bunny boy. He will be happy to see them tonight. It is his bedtime treat. I bought a small steak for $3.46. It was marked down and said "short dated". It was good, had it for supper. The Grand Union is in the area of Norwich where a lot of low cost housing is and many people do not have cars. So they had to start offering cheaper cuts of meat in small packages. They have them in the meat cooler 5 for $24.99. It is a good deal but I didn't need that much. I am trying to make sure I get enough protein so when I see a good deal on beef.......especially steak, I grab it.

Kitchen is clean now and all I have to do is to make coffee for morning.

Here is a picture I took in the park today.

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Hard for me to believe that this was a 4 story building once called the Chapman Turner bldg. It had an elevator which was run by an elevator person. Shopped there many time with grandmother.
 
hollydolly said:
yes and my mum who took her own life at 39 leaving 4 kids... :cry: I was 18 the rest were younger... the youngest just 10 years old.. to this day I've never got over it..
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I am so sorry for what you have gone through.

They always say if it doesn't kill you it makes you stronger but it doesn't always work that way for everyone. Depends on what it is I think.
 
katlupe said:
I am so sorry for what you have gone through.

They always say if it doesn't kill you it makes you stronger but it doesn't always work that way for everyone. Depends on what it is I think.
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Well , tbh, it was a horrendous experience... and I never know how I got through it considering the horrors that had been before and yet to come afterwards.... however I didn't fall apart .. altho' like I say I've never got over it, and I think that's the same for most people you just learn to live with tragedies...and loss..

Some of my siblings went completely off the rails ...
 
Pappy said:
Hard for me to believe that this was a 4 story building once called the Chapman Turner bldg. It had an elevator which was run by an elevator person. Shopped there many time with grandmother.
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What kind of stores were in it? I belong to the Historic Norwich group on fakebook and saw the picture where it was being taken down (I think that was the one). I sit in that park a lot. It is so peaceful and it makes me wonder about how it was here long ago.
 
Back to doing my dry brushing and applying magnesium oil before my shower. Doing deep breathing at various times throughout my day. Have to do that for the Lymphedema. I had been neglecting it and I can tell......so back to it. I feel much better tonight.

Today my friend and I went shopping at Price Chopper. She has a car and asked me if I needed anything then asked if I would like to go. I was wondering how I would buy the food to fix Jeff a decent Thanksgiving dinner. I think the Lord heard me. So I got chicken thighs for him and me. Then I got Stove Top Stuffing, sweet potatoes, a blueberry pie and cool whip for him. I will cook everything that morning so when he comes here all his food will be hot and packed. I also got him 2 bottles of coke as that is what he likes.

The thing is I was feeling a bit blue and didn't know why. I thought it was due to my walking issues. But after I got his food home and put away, I felt much better. I just can't stand the thought of him not eating anything but a sub on Thanksgiving. Must be the Mom in me.
 
katlupe said:
Today I went for a walk to the corner and back. I was going to get a cup of coffee at the coffee shop and bring it home to drink it but..........I forgot to put money in my change purse! Last time I did laundry I added time to my laundry card and didn't replace it. Well, another time.

Later after I had breakfast, I rode Jazzy to the Grand Union to get blackberries for my bunny boy. He will be happy to see them tonight. It is his bedtime treat. I bought a small steak for $3.46. It was marked down and said "short dated". It was good, had it for supper. The Grand Union is in the area of Norwich where a lot of low cost housing is and many people do not have cars. So they had to start offering cheaper cuts of meat in small packages. They have them in the meat cooler 5 for $24.99. It is a good deal but I didn't need that much. I am trying to make sure I get enough protein so when I see a good deal on beef.......especially steak, I grab it.

Kitchen is clean now and all I have to do is to make coffee for morning.

Here is a picture I took in the park today.

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Been reading your posts. Glad you had a chance to visit Walmart with the bus. This is a nice photo of the park, too. Glad you are getting a meal ready for Jeff. I'm expecting my son tomorrow and went shopping today also for his visit.
 
I feel a bit better today so I am going to make a couple batches of cornbread flavored chaffles. Since I use pork rind crumbs to make these I have been looking at other recipes using the pork rinds in place of almond flour. Almonds have a lot of oxalates in them so have been limiting my use of the flour or even eating them. Oxalate is an organic acid found in many plants, but it can also be synthesized by your body. It binds minerals and has been linked to kidney stones and other health problems so I try not to eat too many of them. A plus to that is pork rinds have zero carbs!

I had to dump a lot of cookies from my computer this morning to come here (the forum). My computer said Senior Forum might not show everything to me until I did that. I had been going to sites looking for boots for my son and that put a lot of extra cookies on my computer. Need to do that more often. I hate to just delete all cookies because then I have to go look up my sign in information for every site I go to. I have been working on writing in a notebook all my passwords, pin numbers, credit card and account numbers. I cannot rely on the computer to last forever and lose all that stuff.

I asked Rabbit what he wanted for Thanksgiving dinner since he is a vegetarian. He told me a bigger banana for sure! I explained to him that is dessert.


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Well, maybe I did more than I should have this morning. Making the chaffles then made a double decker pizza stouffler. The recipe made two. So I ate one for my first meal of the day and one for supper. They were really good. But standing in the kitchen doing the chaffles, then I vacuum packed ground beef and then made the stouffler. I was hungry by then so that is why I did it. After that I had to clean the kitchen and wash a lot of dishes and things.

That would not have been so bad, the standing. I do come and sit every 5 minutes or so. But my neighbor has a hard time with life due to the fact that he cannot read. Not even the simplest things. I swear he came to my door about 6 times today. I wouldn't mind so much except I was doing all that cooking and clean up and was hurrying so I could clean Rabbit's cage. I ended up standing outside my door for a long time and that really affects my knees.

To top it off, he locked his keys inside his apartment and comes to me to figure out what to do. I told him I would call Emergency Maintenance. So he left on his bike. About 10 minutes later he has someone call me to tell me he thinks he left something cooking on his stove!!!! I did take care of it for him and our maintenance man came to unlock it for him. I told him I want him to get another key made and give it to me. I will hold it for him. Oh brother........
 
katlupe said:
What kind of stores were in it? I belong to the Historic Norwich group on fakebook and saw the picture where it was being taken down (I think that was the one). I sit in that park a lot. It is so peaceful and it makes me wonder about how it was here long ago.
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All kinds of linens, men’s wear, woman’s clothes, just about anything you could think of. As I mentioned, went there with mom or grandma and loved seeing the elevator man start the cables to go up or down. I was very small and there wasn’t much for a kid to see.
 
Yesterday (Thanksgiving Day) I cooked my son's dinner and then called him to come get it. He took it home and haven't heard from him since. I am sure he will be back today. Glad that holiday is over. The next two I will do even less for. No cooking him a meal. He is on his own for that. I am not decorating at all. The only thing I feel pressured to do is Christmas cards. To the people in my building.

Yesterday, I tried the Keto Chow Core chocolate replacement shake. For dessert, chocolate pudding. It tasted exactly like chocolate pudding. Trouble was I could not drink the whole thing. Which was okay since I was using it as my dessert. It is dairy free and has stevia in it for the sweetener. Clean keto. So maybe I will have the rest of it today. Trouble is I was stressed at the time and hurrying so I put in the refrigerator and did not put a cover on it. I was going to go back to it and never did.

I watched the Norwich city council meeting on a video on fakebook last night. It was pretty interesting. Citizens who were present could go to the podium and address their concerns. Nobody can interrupt them or ask questions while they are speaking. Then when all the citizens who want to speak are finished, the council discusses those concerns and others they have received. I am going to make it a point to watch all their meetings from now on.

Several business owners wanted a no loitering ordinance put in place because the homeless people are sitting on the sidewalk in front of their businesses. Stops customers from going inside. It is a really bad problem and I do go to the Chinese restaurant on that block but I use the back door. Someone mentioned the "hostile architexture" NYC is using in their public places now. Can't sit for long and cannot lay down. They even removed seats/benches in places where people have to wait for buses, subways or trains. But they can still sit on the sidewalk or floor. These people are always in our dumpster and act angry if we try to stop them.

Ever since I moved here, I do not leave my apartment after dark. Not even to go downstairs. Once or twice I did have to go down for a package delivery........but it felt creepy and I hurried to get back home. And now I never leave my apartment without locking the door even if I am just going across the hall.

Today I will be doing some cleaning. That is about all. I don't expect to go for a walk except to the dumpster.
 
I may have spoke about it before on here but maybe not. I belong to a group on fakebook, called HungryHoard. It belongs to the YouTube channel, HungryHeath. So this year they had a gift exchange which uses the app, Elfster. After you sign up for it under their group name you add items to your gift wish list. You can add them from any online site you choose. I chose gifts from Amazon and Keto Chow. You are supposed to choose items that are $25. or less. I chose about 9 different items to put on my list.

Then the computer generated the names of who you send a gift to. I got a woman in KY and sent her gift as soon as she made her list. She wanted some kind of name brand (that I am not familiar with) fragrance for your hair. Not something I would like but I bought it for her and she got it yesterday. She posted on the group page how happy she was to get this and others commented how much they love it too. So she is happy.

My gift came yesterday from my secret Elfster Santa. It was two items I had on my list. One was the Breylee aloe vera eye mask (which I need very much!). So I will try to use it sometime today. The other was Stumptown Coffee Roasters coffee. I am drinking it this morning and it is SO good!! Happy with that also. I will probably buy some more soon. This is actually my first Christmas gift I have received in a few years now. It was fun to do.

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