Reflections of My Life

[gruntlabor]

Is it still your dark time?

No, dark time is over but it's cold and overcast and I'm not tempted to go outside and cavort.

 

[katlupe]

No, dark time is over but it's cold and overcast and I'm not tempted to go outside and cavort.

I keep imagining you living an exciting life there. I love to watch videos about it. Seems like they overcome the weather to live in such a beautiful place. Maybe it is not real, but in my mind it is. Especially when they go out on the boats to fish (the only fish I buy is Alaskan caught)!

 

[katlupe]

Today I am making more Keto Chow. I might actually make it down to the laundry room today. I got a few new items to wear and have to wash them first so that is pushing me.

I can't believe how good I felt yesterday even though I got tired. I sat in my recliner for a bit in the afternoon, did not go to sleep but just rested and it renewed my energy. I need to do that daily. In my bed though. Learning to listen to your body is so important. Instead of pushing yourself to do things, to do more things and then not stopping. I am always saying to myself (yes, I talk to myself....) "Why are you hurrying? This is not a job. You are not on a time clock!"

The other day I walked to the park on the corner back. Not very far. But the next day I could not walk at all. Or could I? I did not try. Maybe it is like weight training, work past the pain and you get to that sweet spot. I need to walk! Next week I have a hair appointment and will walk to that. Then I am going to be working on walking farther than that. To the YMCA so I can join (free through my insurance) and use the pool and weight training equipment (no free weights for me at this time if ever...... ).

There are two thrift stores in walking distance but one is not super close. That is my favorite one so it is my 2nd goal location. The Y is first.

 

[hawkdon]

Morning Katlupe, I too have issues with Hurrying, to
do this and that, oh and maybe do this at the same
time!!! It astonishes me why I feel the need to get
so many things done at the same time, I mean where
the hell am I headed??? Why all this rush?? My old
bod cannot handle the stress, after a few minutes of
"rushing" my old back is worn out and I have to flop onto a heat pad!!! Let me know if you find an
answer to this please!!!

 

[Aunt Bea]

I’m another hurrier, rushing to get things done so I can plop in a chair and do nothing.

I wish that I could be more mindful and focus on one simple task without my mind and body racing all of the time.

Definitely share the secret, if you find it!

 

[katlupe]

My Mom used to ask my father why he was driving so fast since they didn't have to get anywhere at a certain time. I think he was so used to being in a hurry at various jobs that it became a way of life for him. He was always in hurry to get stuff done so he could go outside and work in his garage or in his garden. For me, I worked at a lot of various jobs and had to hurry in those also. So maybe that is how our brains get wired to be in a hurry.

Now I keep reminding myself to slow down. Every morning, I enjoy having my coffee at my computer. Yet I would hurry through it because it would get cold and I like it hot. So I bought the mug warmer and that has changed my coffee drinking to being so much more relaxed. I can even leave the cup there and do something else and come back to a hot cup of coffee. I just have to recognize the things that make me hurry and change it.

 

[gruntlabor]

... I am always saying to myself (yes, I talk to myself....) "Why are you hurrying? This is not a job. You are not on a time clock!"

I talk to myself too, but I try not to because mouth breathing is thought to be unwholesome.
Actually, I can get a lot said on the exhale but there's nothing much to be learned from me anyway, so it's all good.

 

[Kaila]

I talk to myself too, but I try not to because mouth breathing is thought to be unwholesome.
Actually, I can get a lot said on the exhale but there's nothing much to be learned from me anyway, so it's all good.

I'm sure that me has a lot to say that you can learn from.
Are you listening?
Are you paying close enough attention to what me Is trying to tell you?

 

[gruntlabor]

I'm sure that me has a lot to say that you can learn from.
Are you listening?
Are you paying close enough attention to what me Is trying to tell you?

God forbid! You know who 'me' is, 'me' is the id. I'd be dead within a week if I listened to 'me'. But it would be a joyful death.

 

[Kaila]

God forbid! You know who 'me' is, 'me' is the id. I'd be dead within a week if I listened to 'me'. But it would be a joyful death.

Oh gosh Nevermind, then!
It's good to have you around here.

 

[gruntlabor]

Oh gosh Nevermind, then!
It's good to have you around here.

Thank you, Kaila. I you too.

 

[katlupe]

So even though I ate those potatoes yesterday I felt fine. Did not affect me in any way. More carbs than I am used to but still remember I ate some ice cream bars recently (a couple of weeks ago) and they made me sick instantly. Maybe it is ingredients in it. Had a huge ingredient list for ice cream. Today I ate home fries again (with eggs this morning) and frozen, processed chicken wings with honey barbecue sauce. I did not even want to look at the carb count on those! They were good. I am not going to make a practice of this kind of food. I just got it for free and these days you can't be picky.

 

[Kaila]

That's very interesting About the foods, kat.
Especially that the potatoes that you cooked yourself, went fine. No other ingredients!

 

[katlupe]

That's very interesting About the foods, kat.
Especially that the potatoes that you cooked yourself, went fine. No other ingredients!

I am thinking my body does not respond the way others do. Having Lymphedema changes how things affect me. So I have been adding some vegetables because I like them. Fresh. I am always experimenting with myself to see what works and what doesn't.