A while back I went into a tailspin of my own making and in doing so made some inaccurate assumptions about this forum and it’s members for which I couldn’t have been more wrong.
Its no secret that I suffer from some mental disorders. It’s not something I hide from others since at times I truly rely on others perception, especially when mine is completely off. This was one of those times.
After Christmas my mood plummets each and every year but this year was extra difficult. I don’t wish to explain my inner demons and drama associated with it all. It’s ugly, dark and complex. What I would like to communicate with you is how wonderful it feels to be wrong.
I express fear, uncertainty, and mistrust that’s returned with kindness, love
and concern 
and I truly can’t express what a difference that made. 
It’s made me realize that I need to do some more inner work and learn to love myself, at least as much as you do.
It was a huge awakening that I needed. I hadn’t realized that most of my posting was being done as a distraction . A distraction from what I truly need to be doing. I was in extreme denial about some ‘major’ issues going on and not being accountable for them.
For this very reason , I have made the decision to stay offline for a bit of time to do some needed healing as well as home renovations. There’s a lot of work to be done in both these areas which I can no longer avoid for when the spirit calls, I ‘will’ listen and look forward to building a stronger connection.
I sincerely don’t quite know how to express how grateful I am to receive so many kind & loving messages that proved me ‘wrong’ but MOST important, I’ve never been more relieved to be wrong.
Please know it made the world of difference to my well being and I sincerely LOVE you members
Keesha
Its no secret that I suffer from some mental disorders. It’s not something I hide from others since at times I truly rely on others perception, especially when mine is completely off. This was one of those times.
After Christmas my mood plummets each and every year but this year was extra difficult. I don’t wish to explain my inner demons and drama associated with it all. It’s ugly, dark and complex. What I would like to communicate with you is how wonderful it feels to be wrong.
I express fear, uncertainty, and mistrust that’s returned with kindness, love
and concern and I truly can’t express what a difference that made. It’s made me realize that I need to do some more inner work and learn to love myself, at least as much as you do.
It was a huge awakening that I needed. I hadn’t realized that most of my posting was being done as a distraction . A distraction from what I truly need to be doing. I was in extreme denial about some ‘major’ issues going on and not being accountable for them.For this very reason , I have made the decision to stay offline for a bit of time to do some needed healing as well as home renovations. There’s a lot of work to be done in both these areas which I can no longer avoid for when the spirit calls, I ‘will’ listen and look forward to building a stronger connection.
I sincerely don’t quite know how to express how grateful I am to receive so many kind & loving messages that proved me ‘wrong’ but MOST important, I’ve never been more relieved to be wrong.
Please know it made the world of difference to my well being and I sincerely LOVE you members
Keesha
