Since I am new here, I worry about over sharing. But here is some of my story, short version.
I have muliple serious medical problems. I am a chronic pain patient. I go to pain management. I get a variety of shots in a variety of places for pain. My entire spine, all three levels, has serious issues. Occasionally, I would get pain pills. Then radio frequency ablation which is a process where the nerves are burned, just enough, to relieve the pain.
Once the nerves grow back, six to nine months, they are burned again. This is done under consicious sedation and using a florscope. Last summer I went to my PM for my usual RFA. I woke up screaming. I woke up unable to walk.
I have a high pain threshold, very high due to severe childhood abuse. Pain you cannot imagine, hallucinations of my grandmother. Me begging her to help me, and two useless trips to the ER. The doctors were unable to help me, unsure if I would regain any function of my useless left leg or if the pain in my back and legs would ever end. I decided to kill myself.
I had the means. A diabetic pill I was allergic to. One pill would do the trick-two for sure. One last try at the ER before it would be over. One last attempt at pain relief. I was asked, as usual, if I was suicidial. Yup, I replied. I've never been a liar, lol. Do you have a plan? Yup, sure do.
Moved to the psych portion of the ER. Interesting place-not been there before. Got to see the ER doc, got to see the social worker, whatever. Husband there, son there, drew the same ER doc I had seen before. ER doc calls my pain management doc. I get a shot and an apology from the ER doc.
Next day a shot from PM. Percocet (low dose) and a night time morphine pill. I did not get nigh. I did get enough pain relief to enable me to stay alive. I was on the pills for six weeks. As soon as I realized I could do with less, I took less. As soon as I realized I could once again do without them, I quit taking them. Pain level at a 7 with higher flares, but able to cope.
It took six months to recover somewhat. My right leg already wasn't too great, my left leg will never fully recover. I must be very careful not to walk too much or I land back into a wheelchair. Recently I've had to restart taking a minor pain pill at night. Soon I will have to go back on Percocet again for the pain at night.
I am careful to not become addicted or even dependent. Because I don't want to be addicted or dependent on drugs. But my children and grandchildren think it doesn't matter if I am. All have offered to get me "other stuff". No, but thanks. I'm fine. Marijuana just became legal. I may try it when it goes up for sale.
I live in a great deal of pain all of the time. As for NASIDS, I have one kidney and I am in stage 3 kidney failure. I also have fatty liver disease. Never drank, but boy do I eat, lol.
IMO, addicts should be helped. IMO dependency is a sad but sometimes necessary medical state. IMO no one has the right to judge and yet I have judged others, and still judge others. It is a human flaw. And finally, you don't have to have cancer to be in severe pain.