Vivid Memories of Childhood and Beyond

The Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh

My Aunt Laura, residing in The Dalles, was rather high in rank with the Thousand Friends of Oregon at the time.
She had stories.
Matter of fact, she was a recipient of the Rajneeshee food poisoning terrorist program.
Hospitalized.
‘Almost died.’

Thing is, I genrly don’t believe all I read, or even hear, even from my Aunt.

I mean, here’s a buncha folk, w-a-a-a-y out in the Eastern Oregon desert, doin’ whatever they did, not really messing with other folk.
Sure, kids from families of old money, spoiled kids, kids with no direction,
gathering at the feet of this phony guru, laying out their parent’s bucks, buying a fleet of Rolls Royces, Phantoms, Silver Clouds, Benzes parading thru the desert, was a bit disconcerting.
Disconcerting to the parents that their hard earned wealth, hard earned from the sweat of their employee’s backs, was being squandered on a goofy little guy that looked like Charles Manson’s grampa.

So, the rich got pissed.
And, when people of political influence, with bulging back pockets from these rich geezers go against you, you’re pretty much screwed.

My Aunt, bless her retched soul, was somewhat of a hypochondriac, so I’m thinkin’ she imagined ingesting a lethal elixir from Ma Anand herself…even though my Aunt would never be caught dead in the eating establishments of which they were purported to have poisoned.

She was quite the character.
Had the rare ability to talk thru her mouth and nose at the same time,
emitting an engaging (Fran Drescher) nasal twang that always gave me the endearing feeling of a cheese grater traveling down my spine.

Funny, years later, right before she went back to the dirt we all come from, I chatted with my Aunt Laura.
She’d just wrecked her beloved Caddy, the irreplaceable one.
So her zest for living was no longer a fire in her eye.
She was all bent over.
Not from the accident, but from some kinda degenerative thing.

So, I put my beer on the back of her head and leaned down….
OK, OK, I just leaned down.
‘What really happened, Laura?’
‘The wealthy get their way, don’t we, Gary.’

That was enough for me.


I had no inner urgings to suppress those folks.
I have enough of my own demons, enough enemies comin’ my way to aim at to last a lifetime.

The rich can do whatever they do.
Don’t matter.
I’ll attend the town halls.
Initiate petitions.
Vote.

And do whatever I do, whenever.

Let Bhagwans be Bhagwans.

…now Ma Anand…..I could put a bead on that money grubbing bat.
 

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The Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh

My Aunt Laura, residing in The Dalles, was rather high in rank with the Thousand Friends of Oregon at the time.
She had stories.
Matter of fact, she was a recipient of the Rajneeshee food poisoning terrorist program.
Hospitalized.
‘Almost died.’

OMG Gary, I read about this salad bar attack back shortly after it happened,,, but wherever I read it didn't get into exact names, just that buffet style foods were poisoned so the opposition would get too sick to go out to vote. This made me nervous about buffet style eating for some time. This was a long time ago.

Your aunt was actually one of the victims? How awful!
 

[h=2]https://www.biography.com/people/bhagwan-shree-rajneesh-20900613

Crimes and Arrest[/h]As tensions between the commune and the local government community increased, Rajneesh and his followers soon turned to more drastic measures to achieve their ends. including murder, wiretapping, voter fraud, arson and a mass salmonella poisoning in 1984 that affected more than 700 people.

After several of his commune leaders fled to avoid prosecution for their crimes, in 1985, police arrested Rajneesh, who was himself attempting to flee the United States to escape charges of immigration fraud. During his subsequent trial, Rajneesh pleaded guilty of immigration charges, realizing that a plea bargain was the only way he'd be allowed to return to India.
 
https://www.biography.com/people/bhagwan-shree-rajneesh-20900613

Crimes and Arrest


As tensions between the commune and the local government community increased, Rajneesh and his followers soon turned to more drastic measures to achieve their ends. including murder, wiretapping, voter fraud, arson and a mass salmonella poisoning in 1984 that affected more than 700 people.

After several of his commune leaders fled to avoid prosecution for their crimes, in 1985, police arrested Rajneesh, who was himself attempting to flee the United States to escape charges of immigration fraud. During his subsequent trial, Rajneesh pleaded guilty of immigration charges, realizing that a plea bargain was the only way he'd be allowed to return to India.

Yeah, they were busy
 
Late sixties
I’m around twenty
Been passing for mid-twenties for some time, thanks to my ruddy Irish completion

Met what could be the lady of my life
Together for some months
‘Some months’ never happened before
Not intended
It just happened

Got a bit claustrophobic
Didn’t actually realize it, as I wasn’t in tune with feelings
I’d been thru wimin and wimin had been thru me at a rather short/fast rate

Needed to be free…er
Told her I was taking some time off, going on a trip with some guys
‘It’s an annual thing’

She didn’t say much
She probably felt the same way I did

Packed a few things
Grabbed my buddy, George, and off we went

Gonna hit the Pacific coast, about 1200 miles west
Time to drive….breathe

My heart was sinking, but my mind fought back
We were done
She won’t be there whenever I get back

Found a beach
There were around 12 of us
Met some ladies
Built a huge bonfire

Ate like pigs
Drank like preteens
Swam in the ocean
Cranked up the tunes

I’d done this a few times before, and had a great time
Not this time

Grabbed George
Headed home

We normally took turns driving
I drove all the way
Straightened some curves

The only thing this trip did for me was show me who I needed, wanted more than anything

Got back into Houston
Dropped George off

Drove into the gravel drive of the garage apartment on Munger her and I both loved
It sat nicely nestled under the huge pecan trees
We’d lay under them, on the random edged lawn after dark, discovering chiggers

When I got off work, grime from head to toe, hard hat hair do, dried sweat, grease, and just plain filthy, I couldn’t even get outa the truck….here she’d come,
running, cutoff jeans, my shirt, tied at the waist, no shoes
…..and throw herself into my grubby arms

These thoughts crowded my mind as I threw my bag of clothes over my shoulder and trudged up the garage apartment stairs

I so missed her
My heart literally ached
Wonder where she is….
….who she’s with

Half way up the stairs a heavenly aroma enveloped me
Shrimp gumbo
I opened the door

My lady, my gorgeous, comely, lovely lady ran into my arms

That was almost fifty years ago

Thru the various events of those years, that harden couples…..nothing’s changed
 
some fractured writing bits I didn't throw away

not sure when I wrote this, but it was a very early morning, or late evening

Guess I saved it due to thoughts on Dad

there's some foul words I imagine will be censored (I hope)



WORK (a temporary title)

2:30

‘Do you wanna be a yardbird?
Izzat whatcha wanna be, a yardbird?’

It’s the mid sixties.
I’m 16 ish.
Minimum wage is $1.25 hr
I’m making $2.75
My dad is making $3.97, only he has all those bills.
Two seventy five an hour.
That’s $110 a week! Me!
My weekly check sez EIGHTYSEVEN AND FIFTY ONE HUNDREDTHS DOLLARS.
Mine.
I could buy a lifetime supply of Playboys….fresh playboys.
Or a room fulla cartons of Winstons.
Or, shit, any ******* thing I wanted.
I could get my own apartment.
Heh, I will get my own apartment.
I love working at the camp trailer factory.
I could just not quit when the summer was over, and live rather happily ever after.
I make those ol’ men look silly, it’s fun…..and I get paid for it (!)

‘Do you hear me??!’
‘Yeah, Dad, I hear ya.’
My mind yelled back, (‘Yeah, I ****ing’ hear ya, old man.’)
And at the same time my mind told him he was jealous.
The other part of my mind said, (‘he’s yer dad, he cares, but he just doesn't understand.’)

For years I’d hear him go on about education, or as he’d say ‘edyuhcayshun’.
‘Ya gotta have a college degree to get anywhere…ANYWHERE!.’
Them big yellow crooked teeth, close up, in my face.
‘I’ve got an eighth grade edyuhcayshun. That’s nuthin’…nuthin.
If ya have a college degree, you can be anything, a doctor even.'
The word ‘doctor’ was said with reverence and awe.
'Whatcha wanna be, son?’
(He’s got a piece of corn stuck in the back row of his lower fronts)
‘A dentist.’
So, for years after that, my dad would tell folks, ‘My son is studying for dental school.’
Seemed to work for me.
Kept him off my back.
But here we are, a set back. Me and my big mouth.
In the back reaches of foggy mental process I did consider what he went thru to keep his job.
The nights on the phone with his peers, pouring over a 20 page math problem, trig?, calculus? quantum physics?, agonizing hours after work, in school.
A refresher course for some.
Hell for dad.
For decades he’d typed THE QUICK BROWN FOX JUMPS OVER THE LAZY DOG when testing a teletype machine in that gargantuan teletype repair plant over on Halsey.
He was proud of his accomplishments.
And scared.

So here we were.
His motivational mode was one of ridicule and belittlement.
Basically, he was yelling at hisself.
By the time he was done I wondered how in the **** I was able to activate enough of the meager brain tissue I had to accomplish putting one foot in front of the other, and how I was able to wipe my own hind end was something in the realm of the eighth wonder of the world.

‘Yeah, Dad, I hear ya.’

(‘I’ve got to get the phuk outta here.’)






Thoughts on dad, death and dying excerpt

4:57

The End

Dad’s on his way out.
The guy that helped to explain death to this toddler (‘He’s dead.’) is gonna experience it himself, pretty soon now.
OK, so he wasn’t much with words, but sometimes the look on his face spoke volumes.

One time, years ago now (think I was 9), he’d come home from work. In those days he rode the bus.
He’d just talked with this lady that he’d been riding with for months. Right after they said their daily g’byes, a bus hit her, splattering her remains all over the street.
Dad had a terrible look fixed to his face.
He couldn’t eat.
‘arm here, leg there’
He kept reliving it, over and over.
‘I’d just talked to her’
Mom seemed a bit cold about it, like the lady was a possible affair of Dad’s.
I imagine her mind went places like ‘he probably talked to her more than he talks to me’.
‘yer not gonna eat?’
‘can’t’
‘fine’


Him and I visited grampa when he was wasting away in the nursing home.
The place wreaked of pee….old man pee….old woman pee (shudder).
The facility was remarkably clean, but I guess all that pee had permeated the walls.
You sorta got used to it…sorta.
Hours after we left I’d still get an occasional whiff of old person pee.
There grampa was, in the railed hospital bed, sunken toothless mouth open, hardly breathin’.
I don’t know how Dad did it.
He’d stop there every day after work, and ‘visit’ his dad, bringing me on the weekends.
Dad would get right in his ear… ‘DAD, DO YOU REMEMBER GARY?’
Grampa may have moved an eye lid.
I noticed he still had muscular arms,
his neck still thick as a bull’s.
Everything else was dissipated, atrophied, large hands curled up like he was writing something.
He stayed that way for months it seemed.



My dad is bald now.
Third of six weeks of chemo.
A real salvo.
He can’t keep food down…or up.
It’s a crap shoot.
No, really.
He shits with the regularity of exhalation.
Peeing out his ass, basically.
It’s a hell of a gamble too.
Waste away while the cancer gnaws at yer guts, or attack and see who/what wins.
It’ll be down to the wire….at 90.
His wife just called.
He’s back in the hospital.
Getting pumped with electrolytes…….and chemo.
He loves life so.
I can see him lingering like grampa.
Wonder if I’ll visit his bedside daily, like he did for his dad.
I feel I should.
He’s been a really good dad.
A nice man.
A simple man.
Hard worker
Determined
He’s always presented a rosy outlook, somewhat like a salesman.
Without knowing it, I’ve kinda studied him.
We’ve never really had any heart to heart talks.
I don’t think I’ve missed anything.
We’ve had talks, it’s just that he’s always been the one doing the talking.
He’s always been concerned that I haven’t displayed much thought or action toward religion……or rather Christianity.

And here’s been the puzzle for me;

He’s scared as hell about dying.
Now I’ve heard too many times about atheists and agnostics becoming converted on their deathbeds.
But, until now, never considered a Christian being scared about meeting their maker……….what do they convert to?
OK. I really don’t care to argue with anyone about an epic, well thought out theory designed to keep mankind from annihilating each other.
And I don’t think I could disprove the validity.
Sometimes I think, OK, I’m a ‘sinner’ (duh), and if I say the magic words, I can sneak into a side gate and have a tiny mansion on the outskirts of a gambler’s Las Vegas.
Then I think, ‘I don’t want a mansion, I hate mansions, and I certainly don’t want to cavort around with a crown on my head.’
Then I think, geezus, to make this work, I’m gonna hafta ask for forgiveness like ever ten seconds until I die.’

Then I think, ‘there I go again, being selfish. And the thought police already know this about me.’

Then I think, ‘that…is the last bowl I’m ever gonna do..…ever……..damn, outta nachos.’
 
I don't know where else to put this
but need to share

My daughter…is back

The real one

The clean one

The fun one

The loving one

The no longer dying, killing herself one

A few months ago, thought sure I'd outlive her, let alone her seein' next Christmas



Thousands of my lady’s prayers answered

I quit praying long ago
….except ones for her hasty exit from this world

Meth is so all powerful
The recovery rate is alarmingly low

She used to explain it like ‘imagine an orgasm that lasts for a very long time’
And stayed sober just long enough to find a way to get high again

Used to look like a scary tiny faced Halloween moppet
Now, back to rather pretty (gets it from her mom)
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I forgot how much I liked her

She’s got a good guy now

Didn’t think I could be happier

Turns out I can

Thank you, Lord

You da man



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So glad that your daughter is with a good guy now and doing so well, I'm sure you and your wife are relieved and thankful. She's a lovely young lady, I wish her a future of love and happiness.
 
Very pretty young lady Gary and I know that you're proud of her.

Not even counting what it does to people mentally I've seen before and after pics of people that have been on meth for awhile and it really messes up their outward appearance over time.....let's hope that she's really made her mind up to stay 'clean'.

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Very pretty young lady Gary and I know that you're proud of her.

Not even counting what it does to people mentally I've seen before and after pics of people that have been on meth for awhile and it really messes up their outward appearance over time.....let's hope that she's really made her mind up to stay 'clean'.

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So glad that your daughter is with a good guy now and doing so well, I'm sure you and your wife are relieved and thankful. She's a lovely young lady, I wish her a future of love and happiness.
That..... is huge

I could have easily offed the goofball she was with.....without a hint of remorse

Thanks, SB
 
Gary, I wish you would write a book. I'd buy it, two copies even and give the other copy to someone I really liked for christmas.

I just hooked up with an editor.
She's been in the editing/publishing biz for most her working life.
She's been coaxing me for a couple years now.

This winter

Thanks, J
 
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Gary, I hope your daughter remains on her current path. Addiction is a horror story, may it remain in your family's past tense.

This is no fluke.

We have been thru many of her bipolar episodes…many….years of it.

The no burn ban was lifted here in the woods, just now today.
So we spent the evening around the campfire.
Discussing, life, people, god, til way after dark

Her head is very much on her shoulders

Her guy is a very deep thinker, only talks when he has something to say
And it’s always simple, but profound logic

They love each other…heart to heart.
That’s big

But what’s bigger is her head…it’s screwed on…tight.

Never seen her quite like this.

Two months ago I couldn’t stand to be around her.

Now, even after five day’s visit here at the cabin, I’ll be sad to see her leave.

I love her so

For the longest time, I thought I didn’t

Just worried about her mom.



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I remember the moans and groans in the movies us kids made when the cowboy hero kissed his gal. We did not want to see that mushy stuff. After all, he was our champion along with his horse.

..but if he kissed his horse, well, that was OK, and sorta expected


Great stuff, Pappy, great stuff
 
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Smells...….

My dad smoked Cherry Blend in his pipe. I will occasionally go into a tobacco store (when I can find one, that is...) and ask to sniff the Cherry Blend.

My mom had a bottle of Blue Grass perfume. She made it last for years. If I was very, very good, I would get a touch of it behind my ear. Divine.

My grandmas' houses always had the whiff of mothballs, because their closets always had mothballs in them. Even though it's not a traditionally "pleasant" odor, it's pleasant to me because going to their houses was always an adventure.

The smell of tidal mud flats......fishy and strong. Once again, not a traditional pleasing aroma, but it meant we were nearing the beach in Virginia and that meant a day of fun. It was always a contest who could smell the tidal flats first.

Pine>Christmas. Pumpkin>Halloween and Thanksgiving. Cinnamon>my mother's rolls. Coppertone>yay! We're going to the pool!
 

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