We have a reservoir of strength

[Rose65]

Looking back I am amazed at the things I have coped with, it's a good job I didn't know I was going to face them. I consider myself a great worrier and certainly not brave.

Yet, each situation, such as health scares, I HAVE come through. Perhaps we all have hidden reservoirs of courage which activate just as we need. It's a comfort to keep that in mind.

An example is the loud tinnitus i had. It's gone now but at first I had no way of knowing it would ever stop, my head was pounding all the time and I couldn't sleep without using music to block it out. It is the unknown that is so scary but it's amazing what we can handle when we have no choice.

That is a trivial example though, I have had far more worse to face and I have. People have truly serious challenges and they cope, giving inspiration to others.

 

[hawkdon]

If you don't mind me asking, what was it that cleared up
'the tinnitus? Cause i've been suffering for years with it....

 

[Pinky]

@Rose65
You are extremely fortunate to be among the very few people whose tinnitus stopped.
My ex has had it for a very long time.

 

[hearlady]

If you don't mind me asking, what was it that cleared up
'the tinnitus? Cause i've been suffering for years with it....

hawkdon, do you smoke?

 

[hawkdon]

hawkdon, do you smoke?

NO longer, but I smoked for many, many years...stopped about 9 yrs ago.

 

[Rose65]

If you don't mind me asking, what was it that cleared up
'the tinnitus? Cause i've been suffering for years with it....

I don't know yet. After about 4 months it just faded away, after being distressingly loud.
I am seeing an ENT specialist next month because I need to know if the vertigo that began at the same time as the tinnitus is going to return if I stop the pills I take to control it.

 

[OneEyedDiva]

Like you, I've endured things both mentally and physically that I can't believe I came through, virtually unscathed. Obviously you are a very strong woman Rose. We find strength when we need to when it comes to survival and sanity. I'm glad your tinnitus stopped; that must've been maddening. It's interesting to read that listening to music helped. Stay strong Rose.

 

[Rakaia]

@Rose65
My great aunt used to say that one of God's gifts was not being able to see the future.

 

[VaughanJB]

This is a nice thought, though sadly I don't feel I have a whole lot of fight left. I had more strength in the past, and lot of drive. These days, not so much.