Today I did this, did that and finally decided to take an afternoon nap. My leg has been hurting for a couple days, I started getting sharp pain in the middle of the front of my lower leg plus the calf that’s been hurting.
I sit up, reach down to rub the spot, and feel a bump.

I consult Dr. Google. Yup, he agrees, a blood clot. Wake husband up, who is taking HIS afternoon nap, and tell him we have to go to the instant care. I may have a blood clot and it is nothing to mess around with.
See the doctor, who also thinks it is a DVT. I have to go to the hospital for an ultrasound. Off I go to the ER, tell them I need to check in as an outpatient, and get the test. All goes well. I am having the ultrasound when the tech says “there are two”. Hmm, two blood clots?
Two spots, a smaller one under the larger one. Can you have two blood clots? Cause I Think they are blood clots. Yes she says but I do not know what it is, but there is a smaller spot. Ok. Finishes the test, goes and sees the vascular doctor on call, and tells me he will get the results, and call the doctor at the instance care, and she will call me at the hospital, so answer the phone when it rings.

. This can not be good. I have never had a doctor call me at the hospital, in the hospital room to give me results.
I get the call. She does not want to talk about the large swelling I felt, none of them mention it, even though I ask. They want to talk about the small soft tissue solid spot that they found. Not good. Not a blood clot, not a fatty tumor, not a cyst, not an infection, not anything that they can put a name to and tell me what it is.
I hit the nail on the head, and ask “Is it cancer?”, she replies I can only tell you what it is not. I want to wait till the official report is done. I will call you later. She just called. The report is not done yet, she will call me tomorrow when it posts. Meanwhile call my doctor in the morning. Get an appointment to see her. Any changes, at all, come back to the clinic right away.
You are going to need a CT scan and probably an MRI as soon as possible.

. Well, definitely not taking a trip to Texas anytime sy oon. So, hurry up and wait to see if it’s nothing or if I have cancer in my leg. Lovely.
I say to my husband “where’s that package of gummy bears I gave you?” I eat the gummies. Then I eat a shortbread Easter cookie, (got them for my son), and a roll with butter for dinner. A few of my favorite things to ease the pain in my leg and the anger in my brain at yet another medical issue that I have to deal with.
And, of course, now I am mad at myself for, once again, eating my pain and anger. I am still in pain. I am still angry. Anyway, that’s what I did today. Felt sorry for myself and overate a bunch of crap.
