What Do You Pursue?

What Do You Pursue?​


I quit pursuing a few years back
I stopped
Realized I was just tolerating the present to get to whatever/wherever I was pursuing

I still have goals
Jus' not consumed by them

Jotted something down about it 10 or 12 years ago;

Where ya Goin?
It seems the longer one hangs around, the more philosophical one becomes.
For (seemingly) ever I've been a self-driven drone, slogging to work, seizing the week-ends, and generally looking forward, letting the present get by without savor.
Of late, I've taken the time to look around a bit. Where is everyone going, and why the hurry?


Ever watch people's faces as they pass in front of you while at a stop light?


They look intent, serious about getting somewhere, mad at traffic, distracted to the environment around them
with the exception of the cars within reach of their bumpers.
The oxymoronic term 'rush hour' is a prime example,
but the better vantage point is from a bridge or office window,
observing the thousands of cars that whoosh by every hour of every working day on every freeway.

Why the hurry?
Seems a form of intense, subconscious insanity, acceptable only because the numbers favor.

It's not as evident if you are in the stream of traffic.
You are them, jockeying for position, drafting, 'getting ahead', winning Indy or Daytona, or singing blithely to the stereo, oblivious to Dale Jr in your rear view mirror,
or scared as hell, slowing down on on-ramps, signaling out of context,
fervently thanking God for delivering you to work and home yet another day,
or you're the freeway zombie, staring ahead, glazed eyes, two knuckles deep in mid-procedure of a major boogerectomy.

One time, years ago now, I was stuck in downtown traffic.
It was hot.
I was in a hurry.
Lights were heedless.
Some idiot right behind me was laying on his horn.
BEEP BEEP BEEP-BAHBEEP BEEEEEEEEP
My mind exploded!
'I'm gonna crush his f---ing skull!'
I put it in neutral, set the hand brake, flung open the door.
Without focusing on the mouth breather behind me (not caring really), I flip him off, expecting (hoping for) some action.

It was a local pastor.....and his family..... fading happy to see me faces.
An early lesson ignored....too young.

So here I am, on the off ramp.
Happier than I've been in a while.
Not so restless with myself.

Now?
I go after now

It's a short trip

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Overall peace and serenity. However I also pursue discovery of new music to enjoy and/or love. I also pursue pleasure in many different forms. The taste of certain foods and/or drinks bring me a lot of pleasure. Seeing artwork that thrills or challenges me also adds pleasure to my day.
 
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