What do you think about more than anything else?

I probably think about what the future holds for my two daughters who are pretty much just starting out in life. They both have decided to follow in my footsteps and become teachers. My life has been fulfilled through being an educator and I just hope they get as much enjoyment and fulfillment out of it as I have in my life. My oldest is Elementary Art Teacher and has been teaching a few years and my youngest just graduated with a Music Education Degree and has yet to get her full time job, but she is substituting and does teach Private Piano Lessons and Vocal Lessons.
 
hollydolly said:
I don't understand, why will you have 2 houses to pay for ?:unsure:
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No two house payments, just utility bills on two houses & double house keeping until we can get the house sold. How we came to rent to his sister is a long story. I'd love to tell you, but it would take quite a while. I don't want to hi-jack this thread on that.

What I can say, is that this is the end of a long road for over two-years for my husband & I. Her sudden notice turned out to be a blessing & a few days later, I started to feel like a weight was taken off of my shoulders. She really hurt her brother badly with how she treated him & what she did over that time ... she is clueless to that. For that, I cannot forgive her & I wash my hands of her completely. He told me the other day she is on her own after this.
 
Well, on a daily basis, I would have to say music. Most of the day, there is a song or two in my head. I don't analyze it or anything, but I'm still thinking about it. Other than that, there is just an endless parade of thoughts wandering through my head like gypsies in a caravan. They generally don't stay long, just show up out of nowhere and then disappear.
 
I fight to maintain a balance of happy thoughts, even to the point of being really tough on myself like yelling in my head 'shut the F up' as sometimes my thoughts can be morbid and fearful. Like @bobcat there is always a song in my head, sometimes a few. So grateful to have lived through the greatest music.
 
The mistakes that I have made in life. I have been through counseling and heard all the adages, but there are too many triggers that pop up from time to time that remind me of “if I only would have” or “if only I wouldn’t have.”

I realize none of you know me or the things that I should or shouldn’t have done that could have made horrendous differences in my life. So since we can’t change the past, why do I still keep beating myself up over my mistakes? When I figure that one out, I will invent a cure for cancer immediately after.
 

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