What do you think about more than anything else?

Gee now I'm thinking about what do I think about. This feels like a rabbit hole.

I'd say my thinking falls into 4 main categories:
"It's great to be alive, I am so glad I'm retired, trees are so beautiful"
"I'm bad: I don't clean enough, I don't play with the cat enough, I don't connect with family enough, I don't exercise enough, I need to be better than I am"
"What do I want to eat?"
"What mindless entertainment do I want to watch?"
 

I spend an unbelievable amount of time thinking about what I am going to prepare for the next meal. What can I cook that will be something my husband and I ,as well as, my 89 year old mother will eat and makes the best use of our food budget. And will there be enough leftovers to use for another meal. Finding something my mom will eat is the hardest challenge.

I am so very tired of putting so much mental energy in meal preparation.
 
I spend an unbelievable amount of time thinking about what I am going to prepare for the next meal. What can I cook that will be something my husband and I ,as well as, my 89 year old mother will eat and makes the best use of our food budget. And will there be enough leftovers to use for another meal. Finding something my mom will eat is the hardest challenge.

I am so very tired of putting so much mental energy in meal preparation.
I do the same thing. I never thought that marriage would become a never ending quest to decide whats for dinner. Things just get boring after eating them a bazillion times.
 
I spend an unbelievable amount of time thinking about what I am going to prepare for the next meal. What can I cook that will be something my husband and I ,as well as, my 89 year old mother will eat and makes the best use of our food budget. And will there be enough leftovers to use for another meal. Finding something my mom will eat is the hardest challenge.

I am so very tired of putting so much mental energy in meal preparation.
I hadn't realized it but I do spend a fair amount of time thinking about the next meals I'm going to prepare.
I don't think I dread it though.
 
The mistakes that I have made in life. I have been through counseling and heard all the adages, but there are too many triggers that pop up from time to time that remind me of “if I only would have” or “if only I wouldn’t have.”

I realize none of you know me or the things that I should or shouldn’t have done that could have made horrendous differences in my life. So since we can’t change the past, why do I still keep beating myself up over my mistakes? When I figure that one out, I will invent a cure for cancer immediately after.
That's me. I play over the moments when I should have done something and didn't, the moments when I did soemthing I shouldn't have. I think about all the red flags I ignored, and the opportunities I passed up. It's like my life has been a series of mistakes I can't correct and I have no idea how to stop all these home movies of regrets.
 
That's me. I play over the moments when I should have done something and didn't, the moments when I did soemthing I shouldn't have. I think about all the red flags I ignored, and the opportunities I passed up. It's like my life has been a series of mistakes I can't correct and I have no idea how to stop all these home movies of regrets.
Yeah, we are carbon copies alright. Back when I still had my law practice and was in trial at the time, I would lie in bed at night and replay the whole day’s events. We never got the day’s transcript until the end of the trial or we requested it daily, which runs the bill up, of course. I can’t even begin to tell you how many times I would say to myself, “Why didn’t I?”

I always wanted to give my clients their best opportunity to win their case. I would go very slow and deliberate and think what I was going to say before I said it. That was an old suggestion in one of Dershowitz’s books and it worked fine for me. It does make a person slow down and think.

I spent a lot of nights lying awake.
 


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