I can recall many nights when alcohol made me absent from my family, since I was in my own world, or tuning out the world. I do not recall the date I took my last drink (over 12 years ago) or a specific event that made me do it - I just became determined that it had to happen. I was tired and no longer got the buzz that felt good. Like most other people who have suffered from addiction problems, I'm not perfect and have my times of temptation which I don't mind admitting to because I am human. But I can also be a very self-determined person, which has served me well.