VintageBetter
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I guess the first time I felt that way would be when I saw Christo's Umbrellas installation in 1991 in California.
Here's a video and some links about it. God, I LOVED Christo and his work. Just a mad genius. The video is very old analog, so you don't get a great sense of how beautiful they were, but they really were. Christo and Jeanne-Claude
The problem was, when I saw these I was with my ex-husband and things were already bad between us. I didn't know it at the time, in a marriage I guess you never know if you're in a "rough patch" or in the long death march to the end, but I was already in walking-on-eggshells territory with him, therefore, I could never speak freely, could never show any emotion at all except contentment and gratitude without being critiqued, shut-uped, or mocked, so it was VERY hard to see anything to gorgeous with my ex-husband because I could not talk about it with him.
If I had, God forbid, shed a tear over how lovely they were, he would have mocked me.
Didn't help that we brought a couple of other people with us who were quite shallow, not really lovers of the arts, more like there to see this THING only because it was a THING everyone was doing.
But I'm tellin' ya, I had so much I would have liked to have said about the Umbrellas. I would have liked to have stopped the car, got out and tried to take some pictures. I don't remember if we did or not. I would have liked our company to stop her banal chit-chat, but she didn't. Or couldn't. I would have liked to have spent more time there, but no, he was in charge so we didn't spend hours there.
That was one of those times when I realized, "I am with these people, married to one of them, but dammit I am ALONE because I cannot be my true self with any of them lest I receive middle-school mockery in return." Married but alone. Not good. Not good at all.
I think I did actually drive out there by myself after that, just to enjoy them again, but by that time some of them had to be shut down because I think the high winds had made one fall? Something like that. So, many of them were closed.
But the first time you see something like this along a stretch of highway which has always been brown and boring, so boring, it was like a giant gift. I also remember thinking, "A bunch of people gave money, many millions of dollars, to help Christo make this thing which millions of total strangers will see FOR FREE and it will brighten their days for a moment and lift their spirits." How can we not call that love, right?
I read in the news that many people wanted the umbrellas to stay there! Wanted the state or county to buy them! Leave them there! But the wind is very strong through the Tejon Pass so it was not practical.
But they were like giant, enormous sunflowers - only there for a season. Real sunflowers come back, of course.
I cannot stand men who mock others, especially those they claim to "love". To this day, I see them as 7th graders. But very dangerous because they are 7th graders who can buy guns and drink.
Here's a video and some links about it. God, I LOVED Christo and his work. Just a mad genius. The video is very old analog, so you don't get a great sense of how beautiful they were, but they really were. Christo and Jeanne-Claude
The problem was, when I saw these I was with my ex-husband and things were already bad between us. I didn't know it at the time, in a marriage I guess you never know if you're in a "rough patch" or in the long death march to the end, but I was already in walking-on-eggshells territory with him, therefore, I could never speak freely, could never show any emotion at all except contentment and gratitude without being critiqued, shut-uped, or mocked, so it was VERY hard to see anything to gorgeous with my ex-husband because I could not talk about it with him.
If I had, God forbid, shed a tear over how lovely they were, he would have mocked me.
Didn't help that we brought a couple of other people with us who were quite shallow, not really lovers of the arts, more like there to see this THING only because it was a THING everyone was doing.
But I'm tellin' ya, I had so much I would have liked to have said about the Umbrellas. I would have liked to have stopped the car, got out and tried to take some pictures. I don't remember if we did or not. I would have liked our company to stop her banal chit-chat, but she didn't. Or couldn't. I would have liked to have spent more time there, but no, he was in charge so we didn't spend hours there.
That was one of those times when I realized, "I am with these people, married to one of them, but dammit I am ALONE because I cannot be my true self with any of them lest I receive middle-school mockery in return." Married but alone. Not good. Not good at all.
I think I did actually drive out there by myself after that, just to enjoy them again, but by that time some of them had to be shut down because I think the high winds had made one fall? Something like that. So, many of them were closed.
But the first time you see something like this along a stretch of highway which has always been brown and boring, so boring, it was like a giant gift. I also remember thinking, "A bunch of people gave money, many millions of dollars, to help Christo make this thing which millions of total strangers will see FOR FREE and it will brighten their days for a moment and lift their spirits." How can we not call that love, right?
I read in the news that many people wanted the umbrellas to stay there! Wanted the state or county to buy them! Leave them there! But the wind is very strong through the Tejon Pass so it was not practical.
But they were like giant, enormous sunflowers - only there for a season. Real sunflowers come back, of course.
I cannot stand men who mock others, especially those they claim to "love". To this day, I see them as 7th graders. But very dangerous because they are 7th graders who can buy guns and drink.
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